APRIL 24, 2004...

HUH, LIFE IS GOING PRETTY HARD FOR ME RIGHT NOW, BUT I GUESSING I'M LIVING THROUGH IT.  I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO AT VARIEST TIMES.  I JUST FEEL LIKE I JUST WANNA GET AWAY FROM EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE, BUT I KNOW THAT'S WRONG.  I'M SORRIE, IF I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO HELP YOU GUYS THROUGH YOU OWN PROBLEMS LATELY, BUT I HAVE MY OWN TO HANDLE TOO.  I KNOW YOU GUYS WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR ME, BUT I CAN ONLEE DO SO MUCH IN LIFE TO HELP YOU GUYS.  LAST NIGHT I WAS TALKING TO A FREND OF MINE'S AND EXPLAING TO THIS PERSON WHAT I'M GOING THROUGH.  THIS PERSON TOLD ME THAT ALL I CAN DO IS HELP AND IF THEY DON'T WANT TO MEET ME HALF WAY OF ME HELPING THEM, THEN THAT'S NO SENSE OF REALLY CARING BECAUSE THAN I'M GOING TO GET ALL CRAZY AND SHYT (LIKE NOW).  THERE'S A LOT GOING ON IN MY MIND, BUT IT'S LIKE I KEEP IT IN AND DON'T REALLY TELL ANYONE ABOUT IT BECAUSE I KNOW THAT NO-ONE CAN REALLY HELP ME GO THROUGH THIS.  I JUST DON'T WANNA LOSE MY FRENDS OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT.  LOVE YOU GUYS, ALLIE, TALLY, CHRISTINE, ASHLEY, JENNA, WHITNIE, CARRIE, and EVERYONE ELSE.  *LIL INNOCENT GURL*