| | school. the one thing i detest the most. it's so depressing. AP physics is literally killing. i don't understand anything. and when it comes to those quizzes, i literally stare at the paper for 5 minutes doing nothing and blank out. i don't know what's wrong with me when it comes to physics. i can't seem to grasp the concepts. i read and reread the questions over and over and over again in the homeworks but nothing comes to mind. i always have to ask for help. and that's when i understand what's going on, but when it comes to quiz time, my mind pauses and deletes. i was literally going to cry on friday after that quiz. i totally BSed the entire quiz because i blanked out. and AP calc BC! wtf. i'm so lost in class, it's not even funny. i'm so out-of-it that i can't participate in class to increase my average. and her grading policies! wtffff. i don't know how i'm going to survive. i don't blank out on tests, but i forget some things, costing me 20 points. ;( and ALLL of the juniors are like geniuses in that class. it's so sad. and AP govt. dude. that class is bullshit. we learn nothing in that class. everyone just talks about random stuff that i don't understand. we're all gonna fail and get 1's on the APs, and 2's if we're lucky. and, english, although we don't do anything in class and all we have to do is listen, i'm worried about it; and art anatomy. wtf. that class is gay. i dislike ms D. she's bias against the back of the class; andddddddddd gym is gay. the teacher is like ugh. ;( so overall, my classes suck and i feel like dropping out.
college research. i have a list, but it's not finalized or anything. and looking at my list, i'm not gonna make it into the ones i want. it's so frustrating because although i'm saying my major is nursing, i'm not 100% committed to it. so i'm not sure if i should find schools with nursing or liberal arts schools or what. the college essays haven't even been started because i have absolutely no idea what to write about. nothing is exciting in my life, nothing has been life changing or anything. i'm boring. ;( there's nothing else to write or say.
SATs. i have finally registered for the exam in november. BUT i haven't been studying or anything. so i'll probably do worse than last time, not that i did spectacularly awesome the first time. although supposedly colleges look at the combined highest scores, they're still gonna see how bad i did the second time, and that makes my college acceptances down the drain.
work. yes, i have two jobs. you think maybe that's why everything has been difficult, but no, that's not the reason. i mean, without work, i'd get home, watch tv and use the computer until like 7 and THEN do my hw. work makes me feel useful, especially seeing the little kids from the summer. but i think i'm going to quit one of them, so i'll have two free school days rather than just one. i'll be paid in check from then on though. so thats the crappy part. ;( so hopefully my request of changing my work days will work out.
working at chinatown has got to be the highlight of this school year. how sad is that? ;( school has been just unbearable. i can't take it anymore. i hate feeling dumb all the time. i see many people around me understanding all this crap while i sit there all confused and tired. i'm not saying EVERYONE gets it, but i'm one who doesn't.
friends. i haven't been able to chilllllllll with the ones i love the most, although i see my twinnnnnnnnnn for 7 periods LOL. but to the others, we don't even SEE each other in the HALLS. like wtf. ;( i miss having class with you guys. i mean, no starbucks, no popeyes, no movies, no shopping?! we haven't hung out in the longest time! since summer?! gosh. all we can do is pass notes and that's just not enough. please. lets go and have fun. i'm close to breaking down without you guys. ;(
i just had to vent. thanks.
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| | Posted 9/24/2006 1:59 PM - 1 view - 5 comments
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