heyy

wow i really havent writtin in here in a long time but i really dont like writtin in here anymore n so i might stop!

lately i havent really been up to too much juss chillin n all that stuff!
i've kinda really been thinking about alot of stuff...i relized how much i really miss all of the people i used to chill wit any everything! I mean its not like they are completely outta my life its juss that sometimes, and most of the time it feels like they are. i guess i really juss miss the tank tops, flip flops, ice cream sweet dreams, late night pillow fights - sun tan, game plan, light hair; no one cares, feet in sand lemonade in hand -- Summer 05 kind of stuff!......i mean right now i'm not really tryin to hold back too much n i do have funn wit all the new people i am chillin wit and i love them to death too...its juss not the same! None of them can ever compare or take the place of that one *best friend* i use to know and i would do juss about anything to be able to live like that again!

"When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit
of fun, then you  grow up and  learn to  be cautious; you
could break a bone, or a heart. You look before you leap
and sometimes you don't  leap at all  because there's not
always someone there to catch you. And in  life, there is
no  safety  net. when  did  it  stop  being  fun  and  start
being scary? "                                          -sex and the city

dont kno what ima do the rest of today but hopefully goin tanning
school tomorrow n then stayin for cheerleading after
wednesday maybe school...either that or movies wit some people n then cheerleading later that night
thurday is THANKSGIVING  mMmMm lol
dont know what i am doin over break so hit me up wit some plans!

xoxo i love you<3

Been through so  much in  my life. Seen things in  my  life
that i never thought i'd make it through.Had a few close
calls in my life,that could have ended my life,but i'm here
looking at you. Never thought  that i'd  be  here. I'm the
type that don't give a damn about rules. I was forced to
survive on the streets. Make my own  way to eat. Gotta
do what i gotta do (Best believe) i kno plenty of girls like
me, that done been through hell juss like me. Keep what
your mama teach ya.Dont let cheat or the street defeat
ya (Girlfriend). And all my kickass girls like me, that ain't
ever afraid to speak,next time that they try to treat ya
like you a freak juss so he can look good tell them;i didnt
have no daddy around when I was growing up(huh)Thats
why i'm wild and I dont give a (huh) Ya'll  think cuz these
jeans fit,i would give it up.Dont let my cute face fool ya.
No i don't strip in the club,nor trick in the club.But i got
friends that do, so my girls thats getting  the dough the
best way they kno. dont hate girl i got you.even though
it ain't me (I understand) that  its real in  these  streets
(I understand). When it comes  to that rent, that  whip,
that check, ain't nobody gon protect your neck like you
All, all my girls from a broken home, when you're feelin all
alone. And you feel you can't go on (call me)cause i know
plenty of girls juss like me.         Teairra mari`* no daddy

write more later

somewhere between the procrastination, the homework, the friendships, and the nasty cafeteria food, the calls to old friends, the i miss yous, and the i love yous, and what are we doing tonight`s? somewhere between all of the changed and growing and the skipping classes, the studying for tests, and the pretending to be studying for tests, and the downriight not studying for tests, i forgot. ..i forgot what it meant to cry. i forgot that pretending to be happy doesn`t make you happy. i forgot that pretending to be smart doesn`t make you smart. and that pretending to be okay doesn`t make youu okay. i forgot that you can`t just forget the past in fear of our future.. i forgot that you can`t control falling in love.. and that youu can`t make yourself fall in love. i learned.. i learned that i can love.. i learned that it`s okay to mess up. and it`s okay to ask for help.. and it`s okay to feel like crap.. i learned it`s okay to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day.. that somehow they`ll make it all better. i learned that sometimes the things you want most you can`t have. i learned that the greatest thing about school isn`t going to be who is most popular or going to the parties..not even the hook ups.. it`s the friendships.. which means taking chances. i learned that sometimes the things we forgive and forget are the things which we most need to talk out.. i learned that letters from friends are the most important thing.. and that sending cards to your friends makes youu feel better.. but basically, i just learned that my friends, both old and new, are the most important people to me in the world.

Over the course of the average lifetime you meet a lot of people. Some of them stick with you through thick and thin. Some weave their way through your life and disappear forever. But once in a while someone comes along who earns a permanent place in your heart

my best memories go out to:
the nights that turned into mornings
and the friends that turned into family.

i love my true ones! :)

crazZzy week but i never would have gotten through everything wit out all of my friends! i love all yens soo much...thanks fo everything! you all know who you are!<333

You know she's your best friend when she
threatens to curse out  your ex-boyfriend.
when she listens to you cry for an hour an
a half. When  she sticks  up  for you  even
though you may be wrong.when you both
can sit  and talk about  pointless things for
hours.  You  know  she's  your best  friend
when you  both get into an argument  and
call back ten  minutes  later  to  apologize.
When  she  calls  and  says " you're  never
gonna  guess  what juss happened! " Most
important,you know she's your best friend
and a  true friend when she's always there
for you no matter what! --JG. LV. CM!<333

RIP--Aunt Jan i love and miss you soo much! i'll never forget ya!<3
                         ...48 yellow balloons straight from the heart!<333

Currently Listening Timeless By Martina McBride see related

i truely do have the best friends!<3

RIP Aunt Jan...i love you soo much! i'll never forget you!..it's gonna be tough but i kno i will get through it with you watchin over me!<3