| I have another account on xanga, if you want to know IM me on AIM to this sn: linnylinhlin.
This account will be forever gone, so ask me for my new one.
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| I want to thank you all that comforted me on my last entry. I
want things to be alright too, I wish that what all of you said was
easy and that I can do it. I'm too weak, I tried so hard to try
to forget and just move on but I can't. I am weak emotional-wise
and I really hate myself for that, I am disappointed in myself that I
can't stay strong. I feel useless, I don't know what to do.
No matter what you all try to say to comfort me, I don't think that I
can ever get over this.
I was doing fine 2 weeks ago, but then lately I started crying
again. I don't know if I have to live like this for the rest of
my life. Sometimes it just makes me think that I shouldn't be
hoping for anything anymore because the more hope you have the more
disappointment you'll get. I wish there's something that can help
me. From watching the tv shows, I see people getting helped and I
wish I was that lucky too. I just want to be happy now, I don't
want to cry but feelings are so hard to hold back. What did I
ever do to deserve something like this? I rather something
happened to be physically than mentally. If only I have amnesia
or be unconscious forever to get rid of this pain.
Love can bring you happiness or it can bring you pain, I received pain.
Last year I had tears of joy on my birthday, but this year I had tears of pain...
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| Junior year is over, I really didn't like this year
because it was tough and a lot of things had changed, things that I
don't want to change. Well, it's over and it doesn't seem like
anything would be the same again, back to how I was two years
ago. Guess I'll be bumming at home this summer, at the moment, I
hate my life, though all the times I said it before this time I really
mean it because it is much more different than the past two years. =/
Yesterday, went to Applebees with some friends for
dinner. Afterwards we went to play pool, I personally don't like
it so I doubt that I will ever touch the stick at all. I have to
be independent now, it does sucks being single because of all those
special times you get out of it when your coupled. Even though I
have to act like I'm ok when couples are around... I'm not. Well,
there's nothing that can be changed 'cause you can't always get things
your way. I just have to live life strong.
Here's some pic from yesterday:
waiting.... ._.
everyone is digging in the menus
May & Dang
HP & Ana
I was a bit... um... surprised?
look closely at the fries... they attacked eachother!
What is he doing? 0.o
Being ATTACK!
Pool Hall!
Ana and me
Laura and Jessi
 
shuckers... I took it too fast, the break was suppose to happen!
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