High school is finally over. Looking back at everything, I see a bunch of things I regret doing.

1. Helping my cousin. I should of gave him advice when he started smoking and hanging out with a bad crowd. I shouldn't of been a bad role-model by taking school as a joke and playing around with things that can blow/chop an arm off. Now he's in jevu. for carrying a pipe.

2. Not trying in school. I shouldn't of been lazy. I should of done all my assignments instead of messing around by cutting, talking or sleeping in class. I shouldn't of screwed myself over by aiming for a C instead of an A. Now I'll be strangling in City College hoping to ace everything. I dugged myself into a deep hole.

3. Spending time on games. I shouldn't of spent 40 hours a week playing games. I could of been hanging out with friends, playing sports, or getting a job. I shouldn't of put games first in front of everything that needed to be done. I am not social anymore.

4. Staying home. I shouldn't of been lazy and stayed home during most of my high school life. Now I have no social life since I don't know places or areas. I don't know how to become a 'gentlemen' or how to treat people right.

One thing I don't regret is all the people I met in my life because every one of them is what made me today.

I haven't writen in this thing for so long. I'm going to miss my friend that I've only met for a year. We were so close but she had to move. She even lost my iPod and I didn't care since it was the last three days she'd still be in frisco. I've still been having weird thoughts on "Who am I? What have I done that makes me deserve to live?" and all of these other questions. I've finally found one thing and thats my future career! I've decided to become a game designer. It was right in front of me all these years and yet I never noticed it. I even aced Computer Programming and yet that thought haven't came to my mind till now. I feel so much more relaxed that I think today is the start where I'd attend school way more. Too bad its too late unless I can work something out with my teachers.

I feel that eventhough I've lost many things when I met you, everything is returning slowly.

*The more you love yourself the more you fear death. You don't fear death if you hate yourself.*

Nooooooo. School started . I was so happy at first thinking "woot, finally high school is over" but then most teachers seem kinda strict. I guess I won't be having it easy like the last 3 years. At least I got most of the classes I wanted.. sorta. I hope the consuler calls me in sometime soon since I don't want to be in creative writing . It seems so boring just writing descriptively. He wanted us to write about a room... like whats so interesting about a room rather than yours. And knowing my room is big, I don't want to write a description about everything.. maybe only one side of the room. Anyways, this is what I'm taking:

1. English (Ms. Bruzelius)
2. Japanese (St. Clair)
3. Creative Writing (Mr Emerson)
4. Adv Algebra 2 (Ms. Rentala)
5. Health Ed (Ms. Hansen)
6. Phyiscs (Mr. Naing)
7. Econ. (Mr. Kim)

Whoevers reading this, how did your first day go?

I found this so cool...

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