Currently Playing Autobiography By Ashlee Simpson see related

i'm so sick of certain things about school right now, like i can't even focus on attempting to study for my 2 exams. just certain people and a few things are just having an affect on me way more than it should. some of it i could possibly be blowing out of proportion... but with all this stress with classes and grades mixed with people in this dorm mixed with just factors that i guess i just have to deal with since i'm at college...i dunno, it just seems alot more than i can handle. and on top of all the stuff bringing me down i still have to decide on if i want to change my major and if i want to be a bible study leader next year. i would love to do that, but i worry about actually committing to it. i worry that i wont have enough time to pay enough attention to it as it needs and i worry that living in the dorm with the group i would basically mentor, what if i do something that causes me to be a bad leader...i dont want all that stress, i dont think i could handle all the stress...ugh....as much as i love this place and dont want to even think about going home for 3 months, i still just want to get away from it. i feel like the next person that touches a nerve im just gonna go crazy on them for no reason and i cant be like that. ugh...thats all.

sorry its so depressed, this entry was more just to get stuff off my chest...thanks for listening i guess...i'll try to make the next entry happier...