Well....interesting day I had....actually, only about the last half.... Mom and I were driving through downtown Matthews today and I decided I wanted to see if Baucom Park was still around. Back in the day when my cousins and I were little, my great Aunt Joan and great Uncle Paul (whom Paul is named after) would pick us up EVERY Thursday to eat dinner and play. They took us to Baucom Park a lot, and I always loved it because it was a really secluded place that you'd almost never find. That, and because I was always there with my family. Well, Baucom Park was certainly still there....so I went and got on the swing for a while....and I could see myself as a 7 year-old little girl running around with my cousins and playing with Auntie and Uncle. Uncle Paul passed away almost 7 years ago, and sitting in that swing and thinking of him brought to my mind a very simple truth; Life is a vapor. That sounds like a no-brainer...but it never REALLY hit me until today how true that statement is. I've already been living here for 12 years. I've had a whole new set of brothers for over 6 years. I'm a COLLEGE student. Life goes so incredibly fast... For my second revelation of the day....this also is a no-brainer, but ya know how sometimes things hit you at a certain time in a different way than they have before? Well, this was one of those moments for me. I was driving home in the car from band practice and out of the blue I just started crying...because for some reason, a thought came into my head....I AM SO INSIGNIFICANT....I am a NOTHING, and God loves me...and God has blessed me SO MUCH MORE THAN I DESERVE....He loves me SO MUCH MORE THAN I DESERVE...this isn't the first time I've been hit with that truth, and I'm sure it won't be the last time. It is a no-brainer. Every Christian knows that they're unworthy of God's love and forgiveness. I've always known that, but for some reason, and really for no reason at all, I felt that more than ever tonight.... Perhaps that sounds pathetic....two things that are such givens made sense in a totally different way to me today....but if I have to be pathetic for God to speak something new into my life, then so be it. I'm broken. I'm undone. And it's the most amazing thing in the world:0) ~Jesus, Jesus, Thank you for being the lover of my soul Jesus, Jesus, I'll always love you, the lover of my soul~ | 
