Well, its been a LONG time....and since I havent deleted my account, I thought its be nice if I updated.

Soo, Ive been kicked out of my house again. And now Im living with Noelle, and things are goin good---no complaints. Theres always someone to talk to, we always find something to do....whether its actually gettn out of the house or just watchn a fuckn movie.

Im still single. And Im OKAY with that. I was talkn to this guy named John and he was cool, but u know how that goes...hes a liar just like everyone else in the world, so OH WELL. They cant all be winners....[lol] he was good when it came to somethings though....[haha-Im  sure no one really needed to know that, but whatever.] And Im not messn with Jerry anymore because it turns out that hes a fuckn skeezomatic, so Lord knows whats goin on with him, and now hes been pretty fuckn strange...so, yeah, that was the end of that.  Michael and I are DONE for GOOD now; seeing how he decided he wanted to physically abuse me approx. three weeks ago--hes a fuckn asshole and I hope he burns in Hell. No MAN should ever lay his hands on a woman--I dont give a shit WHAT she says to him....U just dont fuckn do it. So, he finally pushed me to the breaking point:If I see him again Im likely to call the fuckn cops.  And then I was taken advantage of by this guy named Tyler while I was passed out [drunk] at this hotel party Noelle and I were at for our friend Josh's birthday...I honestly dont remember anything after my last drink...Not until MUCH later after Tyler left and Id been awake for a while.... [oh well, shit happens, and all u can do is fuckn learn from the mistakes u make..]......I havent spoken to Drew since like MAY--Yeah, Ive thought about calling him..because its not like I dont think about him at all--cuz I do, I just never end up doin it, because I dont wanna interfier with the little family unit...hes in fuckn Delaware..Im thinkn the best thing I could probably do for him is not contact him. That would keep things less fuckn complicated..But I am curious as to how he's been...........maybe Ill give him a call-just this once.

Now, Im just trynta get my life together. Hoping I get this job workn at this hairsalon as a shampoo/prep girl..so I can earn my cosmetology liscence--since ultimatly thats what Id like to do with my life. And now that Im not living there, I never thought Id MISS having my brother around, I kind of feel like Im missing out on his last year in school-and that sucks because for the most part I enjoy being around him. And I miss my mother--even though shes accusing me of doin things that Im NOT doing, I just miss being around her, because when things were good they were really GOOD. And Alex's birthday is on the 30th and I dont wanna have to miss him turning 17 [Ive never not been there for a birthday....] I even miss my fuckn dog..[lol]

Oh well, shit happens-- and Im not gonna let this shit bother me anymore.

I dont kno why Ive decided to update... Theres nothing to report whatsoever.

But yeah, found another beat ass job that Im definitly going to quit as soon as I find another one.

Still single, and Ive just about given up looking simply because theres nothing left in Harford County. Face it, it's slim pickns to being with.

Other than that, Im seriously considering relocating to Arizona and living with my cousin until Im settled. Simply because it's just fuckn better out there, theres more opportunities out there. It just seems like you cant get ahead living and working in Maryland.

My birthday's coming up, and once again Im not really looking forward to it. Another year older..it's really just another day.. Oh well. Im getting to old to care about birthdays.

Wow, its June.. and Im pretty sure this time last year I was at senior week.

So I guess we should have some kind of recap of the year huh?.... Well, Im eighteen, still living at home...currently unemployed... have court on Monday for my speeding ticket...all kinds of drama at home... all kinds of drama with guys.. college dropout [like Kanye West!!haha] but now Im planning on going to beauty school come fall...

What an eventful year huh?

No, not really. Oh well. We all cant be winners.

Well.

I am extremely pissed off right now, for more reasons than one. Theres SO MANY reasons that I dont even really feel like typn em all up. Im just so irritated with the dumass, silly ass shit that's been going on I dont even know what to do with myself.

Maybe it's because mf dont half ass listen to the shyt I say. [[Which is REALLY fuckn irritating.]]

I swear people are gonna send me to an early fuckn grave havn me stressed out over the silliest shit!!!!

I dont really half ass associate with anyone now, Im pretty much a fuckn loner. And actually, Im kind of happy about that because theres too much shyt going on in the world right now, I dont even think I could fuckn handle it! Im smokn myself into an early grave, and Im OKAY with it. Because these days the only thing keeping me somewhat reasonable has been my cigarettes. And THAT'S some sad ass shit.

Just today: I had to curse out Michael, get bitched at by my mother, deal with bitches on the fuckn road, yell at some dirty ass children to get their asses out of the street, and recieved some really fuckn distressing news.

Everyone in the world just needs to get their shit together or stay the fuck away from me because right about now Im tired of everyone's bullshit. STRAIGHT UP. Im tired of having to be pissed off all the goddam time, maybe I should just shut the fuck down and not give a shit about anyone anymore because it's not like people actually appreciate when someone's trynta tell them what the fuck is up! And Im not the type of person who's gonna put up with too much shit for too long, before I fuckn explode on everyone about everything thats been pissn me off.

Oh well. These mf are askn for it.

Time for an Update:

So yesterday was HFS-tival... all in all it was a pretty good time.  Interpol was amazing! [For THAT matter-- so was Garbage, Social Distortion, and Good Charolotte] Theres another band I really like I dont their name!! Having club seats was cool -- AIR CONDITIONING..!! Thank the Lord for THAT!

Then there's Doug... I'll leave it at that.

[[Simply because nothings been definitly established. Let's just say we enjoy eachother's company]]

Nothing major to report... Ive been pretty decent.