"they tell me ur blue sky's turned to gray,

they tell me ur passions gone away,

and i dont need to carryin' on,

you stand in a line just to hit a new low,

your faking a smile with the coffee to go,

you tell me ur lifes been way off line,

u fall into peices everytime,

and i dont need to carryin' on"

ive started using cocaine. even though ive only done it a little, it feels like im on it all the time. Im always experiencing extreme highs and extreme lows but never a mix. the highs are fantastic but the lows dont even make it worth it. All i want to do is be on drugs all the time. Not just cocaine but pot too. My weight is gradually decreasing but im too tired to care. I fell like im throwing my life away. Ive worked so hard to get into a good school and now i have a low A average but the fact is that i cant concentrate anymore. i cant keep my grades up, granted that im taking harder classes but this is the year that counts and i cant seem to keep my head on straight. Everything i seem to get happy about just crashes. i want to be away. londen, paris, i dont care. just get me away from here.