Tuesday symptom! My fatigue and laziness has again overcome me. I missed the morning physics discussion the nth time. I really ought to go to today’s discussion because it would go over all the homework problems. I was working on my physics homework last night till 2AM. However, I was really unproductive, and only got thru 5 problems out of 10 in the two and a half hours studying downstairs. After struggling in bed for 10 minutes, opening and closing my eyes observing lapse of time again and again, I put my clock aside and put my sheet back on me. I got up at 10:15. Well, I got sufficient time to get ready for my math class. After math class, I had one block of time of break to finish my physics HW which are due at the beginning of the lecture. Time flied, during the period of time, I made little progress. I didn’t get to finish them by the lecture time. Taking the lecture time to make up my missing work became my only choice. Instead of going to lecture, I stayed outside working on my problems. Eventually, after putting many people’s works together, I could finish my HW. I didn’t feel good; everything seems so messed up to me. I’ve no reason not finish these 10 problems on time. I don’t have a date. I am not involved with school activities. I haven’t started working. I didn’t   know what the hell I was busy for. After taking a two hours break, I went to Sherman for tutoring first time this semester. There wasn’t a whole lot to do. Not many kids stayed for the evening. Few of them seems wanting to study.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! This is first time in my life I spend New Year without any of my relatives. But, it was not sad at all. We had a hot-pot party at the regent. It was quite fun. Food was well prepared. We've got beef, lamb, fish/meet ball, veggie, korean fish stuff(dont know what's called), sausages, fungus, tofu, mushrooms and all the stuff for the hot-pot and plenty of snacks. Of course, beer is a must. We bought around 40 cans of different kinds of beer including Heineken, Corona, Miller MGD, Miller lite. Unfortunately, we couldnt get any liqour since there wasnt any liqour store near the regent. It didnt matter thou, we decided to do beer bombs. I ended up racing drinking with Eric. I got tipsy after drinking 6 cans/bottles of beer. We ate until 11o'clock, still have many food left. Around 12:30, people started leaving for home. I used Mike's laptop chatted for a while online for the new year greeting. I couldnt remenber what time I passed out on the couch with everything even my contacts on. When I reopened my eyes, it was already 5 o'clock in the morning. I suddenly recalled Mike asked me to put plastic wrappers on the remaining dishes. I quickly did that, went back to sleep again.

It felt good when I took a breath in fresh air this morning. New year's past, and I had a good time. I cut myself too much slack over the past days.  It's time to go back to track again.

What has happened to me? I was supposed to sleep only 6 hours last night, but I slept 8. I missed the morning physics discussion again. It was the second time this week. Last semester, I kept my perfect attendance for one month of school, but this semester, I sustain it for only one week. In the afternoon lecture, I slept my way thru. I think my laziness is overwhelming me. Although physics so far are old stuff to me, I cant underestimate them. I will eventually get to a point that I dont know much about. I gotta study hard.