&& i still don't know what to say.

Maddy and I! haha. you can't see me!

Maddy, Me, and Mackenize...ah...

aahh...Mackenzie...she's such a rockstar!

Mackenzie and Maddison...Mackenzie is cool because she wears her glasses upside down! ha.

I'm glad that you all care when I'm down. there's that one certain person that really did make a point-Ali.

Thank you, Ali. You made a very good point. You actually helped me alot on that, even if you think you didn't...you did. I just wanted to let you know that you are thanked.

Mhm.

Life is much better.

&& love is in style.

I have been told that my entrys are too long. so, i will try to make them shorter.

your the one that was there to make me smile when i didn't want to. You we're the one that never left my side. And you we're the one that never let go when i was scared. We we're meant to be.

Somtimes it's hard being this beautiful.

Alright, this week has been busy.

Monday-I went to atchison with Britane', Heather, Joe, Cody, and Brandon! it was pretty rad-we had a good time!

Tuesday- did the same, except it was just me, britane', and heather and then we ate at taco johns and seen brent...and had some brean burrios. i actually had like half a one...because they we're sick because they had sauce on them! anywho-we was leaving taco johns and we we're in the car and britane' said something to me that was rude, so i flipped her off and she was pushin' my finger back and was like "take it back" and i wasn't so then i start laughing and inhale my burrito and i choke on it and i was chokin on it for like...three minutes and then i like vomit a little/cough and it comes flying up!! aaahh, it was hilrious. then, we went to wal-mart and then we went to long john silvers and then i came home. and this day...it was pi day so we, us seventh graders got to have pie and do some other rad things.

Wednesday-I went to over to melis for her birthday which was today...anywho-we went out to Long John Silvers to eat and then we went to Melis moms house in atchison then took showrs and got ready to go to dairy queen and to meet derek and their g-ma! so, anywho-at seven we went to dairy queen and we got melissa a cake for her 14th birthday and it was curious george! it was pretty rad! So, here me, melis mom, megan, derek, tiffany, and melis g-ma eating the cake and i'm taking rad pictures n' all and then some weirdo was starin' at us-so, i took a picture of him! anways-i'll update the pictures later...if i'll get them. haha. but then we megan, tiffany, meli, and i we're leaving to go to wal-mart and we see amanda and montania! then we're talking to them for about ten minutes or so and while trying to jump out of the window Meli falls out. ahaha, it was funny. Then we seen Danny? and Brittany! haha! it's about time i seen you again Brittany! i've miss you! anywhoo-and then we went back into dairy queen because it was chris birthday so we call her up and wish her happy birthday and then we went to wal-mart and it was like..empty. But i did see aaron. and i talked to him for awhile and then melissa and Megan went all psycho and said he was a "moo" and couldn't get over him. god. i was like stfu! anywho-after wal-mart we went home and got on the computer and downloaded the totally rad pictures i took.

 Thursday-and of course...that's today. and i did nothing except to go to school. haha.

Friday- I may be going to britane's and then to brandons wrestling tourney! that'd be rad. Anywho. idk what i'll do.

I'm leaving-my allergy pills make me sleepy.

Happy 14th Birthday Melissa!

My hart was aching today...and he's the reason why.

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
Ooohhh....

&& yes, i just feel like dying just so i don't have to put up with a horrible life.

these are the one && only kisses i want