Wow, God has completely changed my life and I am celebrating: Yes Celebrating! I was bitter at first, not because the lessons were hard...and that they were and still are...but because I hated that I had to give up something so hard...not even that, but that I actually had to struggle with something that could be so easy...dependance on the God of the universe, the creator of everything beautiful and perfect.  I hate that I let Satan distort something so beautiful into something so selfish. I am completely convinced that ANYTHING, any motive, any thought, any deed, anything apart from God is evil. So, with that, every good and perfect gift is from above, and thankfully so. May I never be dependant on anything of this world. May I be able to realize what comes from my Father and when the deceiver has twisted something in order to confuse me. I love Jesus a lot...

"The words of the Lord hurt and offend until there is nothing left to hurt and offend. Jesus Christ had no tenderness whatsoever toward anything that was ultimately going to ruin a person in his service to God." -Oswald Chambers

"[Jesus] says that I must let everyone else come and go, and that I must be guided soley by my relationship to Him." -Oswald Chambers