I no longer control my life.. for somebody that likes to be in control of every single thing that happens in life.. its really odd that I joined the army. wtf was i thinking..

I got a tattoo.. it feels like a sunburn.. It's of  a four leaf clover b/c somehow i feel that im a pretty lucky person.. just bad shit happens to me.. but i guess i could have prevented it..

Today's a bad day.

Sorry this is so emo..

I just realized im no longer in good ole Fort Smith around the people I grew up with and had so much trust installed in them.. I'm in a completely different environment and now I have to watch my back and keep my guard up b/c people are there to fuck you over. It's a change..im pretty use to change by now..just a little bitter. 

The End.

I was going to drive home this weekend.. Its friday morning.. we had a safety brief today and got released for the wknd at like 10:30 and have the rest of the wknd off... but no I have duty On Sat. that I have to report to.. grrr.. so that screwed up my plans.. oh well its packing stuff for the soldiers that are coming home.. so it shouldnt be too bad i like that kind of stuff anyway..  I have cable in my room now.. yay. .so i really doubt im ever going to leave my room. haha.. i love the tv.. theres nothing to do here anyway.. that I know of.. im ready to find out all the hotspots.. ha..

havea great wkend.. muah

So I changed my internet service again.. yay i have comcast and its a billion times faster.. booya..

So I finally got my unit.. wow.. all about the PT.. shit.. im at the wrong place haha.. they run atleast* 3 times a week 4 or 5 miles each time and if you suck then you do PT twice a day.. damn im going to be on fit bitch before I leave here.. doing PT 10 times a wk.. aha .. needlesss to say I dont like it here.. I hope I get to leave.. sooon=)  Can I go to Germany please.. is that so much to ask?

Yeah well i dont have anything else to say either that or im too grumpy to type... hah I love U*

This is for you*

Best, Worst, Last, Today, Tomorrow, Favorite, Currently, and True or False.

Best
1. Male friend(s): Andre, Andy Craig n chase
2. Female friend(s): Uhm.. Mejia..april.. kristin danica
3. Vacation: uhm.. well shit.. never really been on one.. VA Beach was nice.. & I loved the big Atlanta city.. could almost move there

Worst
1. Time of day: whenever I have formation
2. Day of the Week: Eh there all the same
3. Food: Peas
4. Memory: Too bad to mention...

Last
1. Person you saw (not related): andy
2. Talked to on the phone: umm well it was andre
3. Text: i donno.. think andre
4. IMed: haha yeap here we go again

5. Messaged over myspace: nobody.. im not sure how to do any of that crap

Today
1. What are you doing now: filling this thing out.. and im bout to go get the brows waxed.. yay

2. What are you wearing: Jeans of course and a shirt w/ an american flag on it
3. Better than yesterday: same shit different day
Tomorrow
1. Is: Sunday
2. Got any plans: nothing to do here in the good ole fort campbell

3. Dislikes about tomorrow: one day closer to monday

Favorite
1. Number: 7 & 13
2. Song: Falling deeper in love *& hate me today.. by blue october
3. Color: blue green purple orange black gray
4. Season: umm fall

Currently
1. Missing someone: always

2. Mood: eh negative mood im bored
3. Wanting: everything but nothing all at the same time

True or False:

I am a cuddler.
Very true

I am a morning person.
haha depends what i drank the night before.. hah i kid

I am a perfectionist.
haha no im like.. whatever

I am an only child.
False..

I am currently in pajamas.
haha nah just changed

I am currently single.
nope

I am currently suffering from a broken heart.
...

I am addicted to myspace.
False

I am online 24/7.
False

I am very shy around the opposite gender.
haha not at all i can talk to anyone

I can be paranoid at times.
oh yeah

I currently regret something that I have done.
You could say that

When I get mad, I curse frequently.
Hahah

I enjoy country music.
True I do..

I love smoothies.
True.. mhhmm i love food period

I enjoy talking on the phone
Depends on who I'm talking to.. not usually just text me.. the phone is the devil

I have a crush.
Crush?

I have a hard time paying attention at school.
Not in school.. but when i was hell yeah i did.. did fine in HS.. but college was a different story..

I have a hidden talent.
I do.. i cant find it

I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
everyone knows my dirty laundry

I have a tendency to fall for the "wrong" girl/guy.
Nah i have good judgement

I have all my grandparents.
False.. grammy croked.. & my dads dad died of alcoholism.. yay

I have at least one brother and/or sister.
True

I have been told that I have a sense of humor.
something like that.. sarcastic more than anything

I have had broken a bone.
haha no im too much of a spazz to even do anything to break a bone

I have changed a lot over the past year.
Very much so..

I have changed a diaper.
haha i dont get around babies.. they scare me.. ill break them

I have done something illegal.
Umm.. drinking underage.. ?

I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
these are dumb questions

I have had major/minor surgery.
Yeap.. nothing too severe tho

I have had my hair cut within the last 2 months.
Nope..

I have had the cops called on me.
False haha yeah okay