okay so...
i have officially been dubbed into the DORM LiFE
its okay i guess... i juss get bored REALLY EASiLY cuz i have no car...
but i`m getting used to walking and stuff... i`m getting ROCK HARD THiGHS for sure...
i need to go to TARGET or something to stock up on FOOD & SUPPLiES
and i can`t download anything because its iLLEGAL on this school network thingie...
i miss san diego... but i`m going back this saturday...
there`s really nothing to do in a dorm if you don`t have anything to study for
yep it kinda sucks actually... I MEAN CMON NOW... i`m in college and i`m still ONLINE...
i thought going to college was gonna be like... "oh man i don`t have time to go online anymore..." but LOOK i`m still here...
like i`m SOOOO bored that i actually went back and wrote in this XANGA thing when i haven`t typed in it since i dunno... a LONG time ago...
how GAY is that?!!
okay so i think i`m done blogging... until next time ppl...

<3 LUKE 9:24 & 1TiMOTHY 4:12

"YOU`VE MADE A LASTiNG iMPRESSiON"        -THE STARTiNG LiNE

HELLO my old freakin` XANGA!!! wow i dunno how long i went hiatus on this but its sure nice to blog again.  A LOT HAS HAPPENED since i last blogged.

one thing`s for sure. I AM NO LONGER A HiGHSCHOOL STUDENT. so HELLO COLLEGE LiFE! yeup i graduated already... and lemme tell you.  iT FELT GOOD!! which reminds me, i didn`t get to pick up my freakin` graduation pictures from reyman`s... hah i better do that soon.  so now that i`m a college student, i`ll be attending UCiRViNE which means... i HAVE TO GO AND DORM!!! which means i have to move out of my parentals house and i`ll be ON MY OWN. dun dun dun... i`m kinda excited... since you knoe COLLEGE is something different.  its like a WHOLE NEW CHAPTER to your life.  but it sucks that i`ll be leaving MiRA MESA... i`ll be leaving a lot of stuff that were apart of me...

there`s my HULA HALAU O iPOLANi O KA MAiLE LAU Li`i... my gosh i`ve been dancing with them for about 10 years i think?? they`re my SEXY WAHiNES and now i have to leave them.  gosh, performing with them is sucha unforgettable feeling.  THERE`S NO OTHER FEELiNG LiKE iT. the whore-face make up, the less than a minute costume changes, the minute before you go up jitters, the parties, THE FOOD, the pay.. oh man i love it soooo much.  it sucks that i`ll be moving on, maybe into another halau but i will FORSURELY NOT forget my roots!! nothing can stop me from dancing.. NOTHiNG!!!

then there`s my loving GS-UNiT family... my gosh... i miss them.  i miss retreats... i miss the singing.. i miss THE LOVE man!!!! all the current GS-UNiT veterans this year are talking about leadership camp and everything and i`m juss like... AWW I WANNA GO!! i loved it last year! i loved getting away from everything and experiencing that LITTLE TASTE OF HEAVEN... it was the greatest. i`m glad that others will be getting a chance to experience such an awesome event but... I WANNA EXPERIENCE IT TOO!! there`s juss no other feeling.  it was awesome and i wanna go back. i will forsurely not forget the roots of my present faith.  because how my faith was before... was not how it is now.  man I LOVE THEM... no doubt in my mind.

*sigh* but things have been happening in my life too.  like GETTiNG MY FiRST JOB EVER! hah lemme tell you... it wasn`t something i pictured when i wanted the job.  RETAiL iS A BiTCH!! honestly i found a new appreciation for sales associates because NO ONE THiNKS OF THE STUFF THAT THEY HAVE TO GO THROUGH! so honestly... when you go shopping... DON`T TREAT SALES ASSOCiATES LiKE SHiT! we knoe that customers should be treated with respect but customers should knoe that you should treat sales associates with respect too!! anywayz.. i`ve been working @ FOREVER 21 for like a month now.  its okay... @ times.  its not okay when my crazy korean store manager nags like NO OTHER! sometimes i can`t wait to get outta there... and I WILL BE. in like 2 weeks.  HEY cmon now i need my rest, i needa live up my summer now.  and besides... i`ve already earned over 1,000 dollars from my job and that was from school.  so everything is fine.

summer has been alritie.  work has mostly been on the agenda but other then that... i`ve been hanging out with theFRiENDS. going out with the CUZZO`s... going to the BEACH... eating out, WATCHiNG MOViES.  went to DEL MAR!! i love that place, it has a lot of memories.  now that i think about it... my summer isn`t all that bad. its practically everything i asked it to be.  NOW ALL I NEED TO DO IS GO TO AMUSEMENT PARK OR TRAVEL and this will surely be the PERFECT SUMMER. well i think thats enough of the xanga.  wow i`m kinda happy that i updated this. made me appreciate my summer. UNTiL NEXT TiME which is i dunno when...

--1timothy 4:12

"THiS BURNiNG HEART iS GETTiNG OLD... iT`S GETTiNG OLD..."      -DAPHNE <3`S DERBY

so yeah i`m juss sitting here... THE FiRST DAY OF SPRiNG BREAK!! YAHOO!! i`ve been really needin` this considering the fact that i`ve been stressin` after the month of FEBRUARY. i knoe i haven`t written in here for like the longest time but duude... i had like NO FREAKiN` TiME!! so imma juss reminisce here... at the fun times i had since DiSNEYLAND...

i went to the DAPHNE <3`S DERBY CONCERT on MARCH 11TH, 2005.  i must say that i FREAKiN` LOVE THEM!!! didn`t realize how much i loved them til the concert tho! hahaha... i got a brown shirt w/ yellow writing that says DAPHNE <3`S DERBY of course.  paid for by MR. DAN TA & MR. FRANCiS ECLAR (thanx guys!).  but not only did i get a shirt, i GOT A FREE CD!! ppl might think thats not much.... but when you talk to the vocalist... and you ask him how much it is... and he gives it to you PERSONALLY... duude thats freakin` awesome!! they`re sooo nice too... so i got my CD signed after they performed... and their performance was AWESOME! some songs they played were MiDNiGHT HiGHWAY, CLOSiNG DOWN THE PATTERN DEPARTMENT, MiDDLE MiDDLE, DiSREGARD THE PAST FEW DAYS, HOPELESS LOVE, and so on... but after the concert, ME, CHARMZ, DAN, MiCHAEL, FRANCiS, & RiCHARD headed over to iN&OUT and guess what?! we saw the freakin` band there! YEUP aint that nice?! had a couple laughs here and there... made up our own band... called the M.A.D.Cows!! hahaha and yeah that was my night... it was fun! ONE of the BEST DAYS OF MY LiFE...

recently i found out that i got into SAN DiEGO STATE UNiVERSiTY... whoo! thats where i was PLANNiNG TO GO if i didn`t get in anywhere else.  when UCLA rejected me... i thought i wasn`t gonna get into any other UC school... BUT THANKFULLY i WAS WRONG!!!! cuz i GOT iNTO UCiRViNE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! damn i`m soooooo freakin` happy about that!!!!! but what`s scary... that if i go.. its like a freakin` whole NEW life.  like i really don`t knoe if i`m ready for that big of a change.  i won`t get to see my family everyday, which i`m very used to.  and i`m not talking about my immediate family but my aunties and uncles and cuzzos... i dunno the more i think about it the more APPREHENSiVE i get about the whole subject.  like i LOVE how imma get some independence... but the fact that its such a big CHANGE... i don`t even knoe if i`m gonna be the same person i am rite now... but we`ll see... thats only iF i don`t get into UCSD... which i`m still waiting for...

so LENT has been really hard for me also... cuz i gave up PUNK ROCK MUSiC... which includes DASHBOARD CONFESSiONALS, D<3D, YELLOWCARD, NEW FOUND GLORY... and others that i can`t recall rite now.  but yeah iTS FREAKiN` HARD!!!! yesterday i listened to some because i juss heard that LENT DOESN`T COUNT ON SUNDAYS!!! and i realized how much i missed it.  like this music keeps me SANE!!! i`m serious... i really can`t relate to anything else but this music.  like yes, i`m an all around music kinda gurl... i listen to anything... you name it... i`ll prolly listen to it... but this music is different... i dunno it really speaks to me.. more ways then one. but EASTER SUNDAY is coming up soon... and i`m happy about that...

k.. thats it... until next time...

<3