I have often complained of how I am deprived of many experiences. However, I do not realize although I may not have experienced some of the more common events, I do myself have experienced many things that my peers have not.

As I was reading through an article on America’s best hot dogs, I realized that the little shop on the corner of 6^th Ave and some big number street that I do not remember, is ranked second. Although this may not be a prominent experience it was still pretty amazing to realize that I’m probably one of few amongst my peers who have had this hot dog, since it’s only in New York City.  

I do realize I tend to take the things I have for granted and complain about the things I do not have. I do have to admit that I am spoiled. I do not know many parents that are willing to fork out a few grand for their son/daughter to go to the other side of the country. Although my trip did have a purpose, (I had an interview at Syracuse University, and I wanted to tour the campus) I did not need to go into the city, which I did, and my parents willingly paid for everything. I am very fortunate to be the only child and to have parents that get me everything I need and want, while there are children out there without a parent, or even worse, they have nothing to eat.

I feel ashamed of myself for not realizing the fortunate things I have in front of me. I need to be more respectful to my parents and stop asking for unnecessary things. I feel very enlighten, I would try my best to not get caught up in the mist of the materialistic world that I live in and be more grateful for my blessings. I know that I will not completely change, but maybe this is another step I am taking to becoming a better person. I hope that I can one day be on the same pedestal as NSBFTBTN, I’ve never met anyone quite like this person. Everyone I know complains about their parents and what they can not offer them, but this person is always aware of what their family has to offer and have offered to them, this person has open my eyes. Everyone "talks the talk",but they never "walk the walk" except for this person. I can not think of anyone else that volunteers their time without a motive weather it is for community service hours for school, an event that a club is hosting so they can get participation credit, or to put it down on their college applications. This person just do this because it is the right thing to do and we should help those that are in need of help. I myself have been on of those who talks the talk but never walks the walk. This person always makes me want to be a better person, and I do feel that I have progressed forward since I've know this person. I do not know where I am going with this other the fact I am trying to procrastinate studying for my AP test tomorrow. I should end here and maybe I’ll start studying now that maybe I am more enlighten? Or as Elphaba will say (or sing)"Something has changed within me/Something is not the same".

It has been a little more than a month since I've last blogged and well a lot has happened since. I got my permit, drove on freeway, drove 80mph, took my behind the wheel test, failed it because I couldn't start my damn car, and well I'm going to attempt it again tomorrow. I think I'll bring bunny along for good luck. I love bunny ;) I also got two more piercing on my upper left ear, started running, got satellite for my television (since my father cut the wire which eliminated all the free cable channels we had), and been called fat by my doctor. Yes, fat. I went to my doctor yesterday because my throat has been feeling not so great, its been tight, phlemy, hoarse, and sometimes I can't speak in the morning, and I also been having really bad heart burns. My doctor tells me that I'm fat and need to loose weight and then I will not have any more heartburns. Geeze thanks doc., thanks for lowering my self esteem a little bit more. Jerk. As for my throat issue, he refused to send me to a specialist to get it checked out and just gave me antibiotics. Bitch. I was also going to sing with Adam a song from Wicked since we will not be able to do it for the Variety Show, but that is not working out and I don't know where the book is so yea. I'm sad. oh wells. Life stinks.

I can not wait till school ends, there are only about 95 more days till I graduate. I can not wait to leave everyone and everything behind. These past years at Rosemead have made me depressed and miserable, although I have to admit there were a good times, but I don't know I suppose its the pessimistic side of me speaking right now. I'm not worry about loosing my friends because frankly I do not have many "friends" at this point. I do not know who I can trust anymore except maybe like 3 people. The others I'm really iffy about, they come in and out of my life as if I'm always going to be here, but news flash I'm not. I don't understand how people can ignore me for a minute and then the next be the nicest person to me in the world. I'm tired of being taken for granted. I'm tired of people taking advantage of me. I long for the day where I'll be able to start a new life. I really hope Syracuse accepts me, I know that there will be people like this over there too. But people won't know me and I won't know them and now that I'm better at finding people's true colors, maybe things will be better. I will miss those few people that I've grown close to and trust completely, but we'll find a way to keep in touch and they can come visit me in New York, and then we can go shopping :D

Today was a crazy day. School was the same oh same oh, mas's class is really slow. Pep rally at lunch and so forth. After school Erica and I went to the mall and did a super fast shopping thing, I was going to pierce my ears, but we didn't have enough time, so next time I shall. I finally got me so much needed bras, but I think I want like 2 more. I also opened a credit card thing at VS but I think they put in the wrong address so I don't know what is going to happen. After the mall we went to KFC/Taco Bell, it was Erica's first drive through. She then dropped me off at Patrick, Anthony and Ron's tutoring place. Hung out there and watched Alvin and the Chipmunks till they got off work. Then we all went to go eat at Greenzone with Tracy. Greenzone is some place on valley that has some bombass organic food and creme brulee, it was delicious. Afterwards we took Ron and Anthony home and went to pick up Krizia and off the Old Town we go. Went around looking for parking, went to Pinkberry, snuck into Cheesecake Factory's restroom, and spend a long time in Urban Outfitters. We didn't know where to go and it was getting late so we went back home. We passed by Tenjus and stopped by to see if it was open, but apparently they close at 11 and then when its like 11:30 they turn off the light and still have a bunch of people in there. We didn't want to go in so we went to IHOP instead to drink hot chocolate and eat pancakes. We talked and laughed a lot. It was a crazy night, especially in the car. Patrick drove around in circles at the Target parking lot and we all screamed like crazy people at one of Tracy's coworker. Patrick is such a funny driver. I was DJ in the car. ;) Father did not call a lot and I came home at 1. Yay. I don't like it when they keep calling me.

P.S I got into UCR