I can't believe it. I am just so terribly sad. Teddy, our beloved dog, passed away on Monday night. We don't know what was wrong with him. He was fine until Monday evening evening minus him being a little lethargic. Then at night, as we were washing up for bed, we noticed that Teddy wasn't coming out from under our bed. We tried to get him to come out but he wouldn't. Or couldn't. His breathing was shallow and his eyes slowly starting closing. I'll save the details of his final minutes, but when we eventually got him out and were about to take him to the pet emergency hospital, he drew his final breath.

Teddy looked peaceful upon his rest. That night, I dreamt that he had died but woke up the next day. But that wasn't the case that next morning. We took him to the hospital, said our goodbyes, and I gave him one last kiss. Then we left.

It's hard to believe that he's not with us anymore. He won't be here to greet me with his friendly wag when I come home. He won't be sitting with his hind leg stretched out to signal to us for food when we're eating. I won't get to use him to keep warm during winter or feel his soft ears against my cheek. The house now seems so quiet, and my heart feels so empty. I didn't think I would be this brokenhearted. God, I miss him so much!

God is an amazing creator. He created Teddy and gave him such a unique character, and we loved him for it. And I can't express how thankful I am that he didn't die while we were asleep or away. He didn't have to be alone in his last minutes; we were with him. That gives me some comfort. Thank you, Lord for teaching me so much through Teddy. I'm joyful knowing that Teddy fulfilled your will in that, we were able to enjoy Your creation and that You are glorified through this.

 

Teddy was such a wonderful and precious companion. Even though he was psychotic sometimes, he brought us much laughter. He was our joy and delight. I hope Teddy knew that he was loved.

 

Goodbye, Teddy...