| so sadHavent updated in awhile. last update was my pregnancy tracker. i miscarried on March 18th. it was aweful. second trimester miscarriage. Cody and I broke up. I moved back home to PA. Now in rehab and working as a supervisor at a.c.moore in Montgomeryville. Life is looking shady. no idea where to go from here. maybe back to school in the fall. i have to because i need health insurance because im on so many meds now. rehab diagnosed me with bipolar disorder. im on visterol, seroquel, effexor, lemictal, and bursphire. ridiculous.
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| So I am in Mississippi now! Just got here yesterday. I am transferring to USM! Im at my aunt Barbaras tonight and will be until I move into the dorm. Im in Hillcrest! I feel very good about this move. I just love it here. the environment in the north and the south are VERY different. Southerners are, in my opinion, better people. they are more considerate and calm. the life style isnt so hectic, or rude or just not giving a fuck additudes so often. southern hospitality is alive and true. i love being with my family. i love having people to go to that care about me when i need them. my cousin scott is so sweet to me, he is like my big brother, and his wife Linda is like my big sister. my aunt even said she was going to be my mom for awhile wihile im here and i love that and i love her. our personalities are so much alike. both shopoholics, hyperactive, super talkative and outgoing. its awesome. i have orientation at school tomarrow then i should move in on Friday. my mom goes back home friday and then I wont see her or my dad or brother again until Christmas, but thats just fine with me because I have so many more people here. and I havent even met anyone in the college yet, Im on a boyfriend hunt., I miss being in love and want to be in love. Hopefully i will find that here. and find some truely good friends! |
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| So where to put my news anywhere else but here. I just got bacvk on a prescription of am bien today!!! Im SOO happy about this. i very sedated at the moment and drunk so my typings off but i dont give a fuck bc its back in my body! th room is spiinging arund and around and i love it; i llookjed back at old entries b4 when i was sober and read similar things like feeling this way and i didnt drink then. i have to stare at the keyboard right now to concentrate on trying not to fuck this entry up with typos anymore than it already is. i just love it and am so grateful i can have it again. it gets me feeling so high before i pass out. then i wake up feeling so nice and refreshed in the morning its wonderful. ok well now not only is the room spinning but my keyboards and therefore fingers seem to be going in like this wave motion right in front of me right now so i think i should go lay in bed and fall asleep super quick for once. i love it and i love whoever made it.
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| This is the only "diary" type thing i actually stick with. just been posting icons i like lately but maybe i'll write now and then. its interesting going back and looking at my past. Im at hoem now been home all summer (home=parents house). im moving to Mississippi in 26 days to go to USM. I got a job offering to be an RA at IUP but I cannot go back there. I know I will do drugs all the time again. I need to stay clean. Im drinking a lot now. but no drugs. I havent spoken to Ron in a month. Im single again. ive gained between 10-15 pounds since coming home.I quit my job while I was high on coke one day. big mistake. I got arrested for access device fraud. no jail time but im looking at a huge fine and probation. im hooked on family feud online. haha im doing that now. while drinking gin and juice. been hanging out with the Jew Crew, Steph, and Jenn a lot lately. Went to the Bahamas mid June. that was amazing. I liked Cancun more but after hurricane Katrina im sure Cancun isnt as great anymore. I was high as a kite for at least half of the vacation.
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