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Saturday, October 15, 2005

I don't even know where to start. I been doing this xanga shit for a long time now. It's time to go ahead and take a break. I'm just tired of all this bullshit in my life. I been going from job to job, cars to cars and talking from girls to girls and everything is just stressing me the fuck out. I know one day I'll find a job that I'll look forward to going to work everyday, a car that I always dreamed about having and finding that special someone that won't be playing games with my heart. Till then I just have to work hard and concentrate on straighten up my life. I feel like I been too nice and care too much about shit I should just care less about. Lately I been organizing all my old pictures from 3-5 years ago and in all those pics. everyone looked soo happy. Me and all my friends looked like we enjoyed life so much. Now, everyday it's all about feeling stress, depress and just fucked up. I'm just never happy anymore. Anyway, thanks to everyone who has been checking out my page, been giving me props and comments. I can see where my true friends are. Much <3 to yall.. and when I'm down and depress, thanks to everyone who was there to listen and talk to. I have to say.. Good friends are hard to find. Everyone take care.. and keep in touch.. pC...

Friday, October 07, 2005

Hmm..I been working for about 2 weeks now. When I first started I didn't like it at all, but now it's not too bad. I'm getting a lil use to it. Still sucks to have only wed. and thursdays off. Hopefully in a week or 2, I could get every other friday off. I work from 11pm-7:30am. So ya.. It's hard. If anyone is up between that time. COME VISIT ME!!! ^-^ I'm still struggling with bills and shit, but since I'm working my ass off now, things are slowly picking up. Well, that's all about my work situation. o.O hmm.. My love life? Don't have one =( What happen to the last girl I was talking to? I got the, lets just be friends.. eww. Hurts to hear that from a girl you really want to be with =/ I know we both liked each other at one point, but I don't know what happened. We acted as if we were a couple for about 2 weeks then next thing I know we stop talking. Well, she stop talking to me =/.. umm. A: I did sumthing wrong? B: There's someone else? The only thing I know that I did wrong is not come on strong enough to let her know how I really felt. I always thought if you take things slow and just try to get to know the person it would make things last longer, but I guess I was wrong. It's funny how a lot of girls would say, it's so hard to find a good guy these days and when they have one right in front of them, they don't even notice. I know I'm not perfect, but I definately know how to treat a girl. I just have to find someone who's willing to be patient and take a chance because I'm tired of these games. I been in and out of a lot of relationships and I learned from all my mistakes, so I'm hoping my next relationship will last forever. I always believed that good things come to good people. Only time will tell..

I want to find that special someone,

just like I know that you do.

You didn't even give me a chance,

I feel like I'm just like clothes to you.

You would just put me on for the day,

and set me a side by night.

You just let me go like nothing happened,

deep inside you know that ain't right.

How you gonna say we're not gonna work,

when you ain't even try.

I might be different from everyone,

but that doesn't make me a bad guy.

I like you a lot, but it doesn't matter

because love takes two.

Just think about how many guys would write a poem,

just for you...

Sunday, September 18, 2005

Happy Birthday to Me!! Which was yesterday Sept. 17. Hmm...What did I do? Lets start on friday night. I was just cruising around and I stopped by one of my friends house. Like most friday nights, we end up going to Meleks then Burke. I knew I had to wake up at 5:30am the next day and that I should of went home early. I was stupid to end up going home at 2:30am. and going to bed at 3:30am. For those people who really know me, you know why I stayed =/ sigh.. The lil things that I do that doesn't even matter anymore. Next day I did wake up at 5:30am. and I was really tired. I drove to Maryland to pick up 2 monks from the temple to come to my house for my birthday. I do this every year with my parents. Anyway, after I got everything done I went to jog a couple miles at GW parkway. Some of my friends went up to Kings dominion and wanted me to go. After having only 2 hours of sleep, I was way too tired to go. After I ran, I went home and cleaned up, showered etc. I really wanted to chill with someone, but things just didn't workout. So, I just met up with one of my friends and just cruised around all day. Later, around 9pm I met up with more people and we went to eat at berttuci. After we ate, we met up with more people, grab some liquor and couple cases of beers and head down to George Town. On the way there, we got pulled over o.O I was riding in my friends car. Once we got pulled over, I was like oOH ShiT.. all the drinks was in the car I was in. I was feeling kinda buzz too. The cop asked us have yall been drinking, I was the first one to say nope! lol.. Got pulled over for gunning it on a yellow light, tail gating and one way turn or something like that. The cop was kool, so he let us go.. WooT!! haha.. We hit up this lil club in George Town and just chilled. It was a good night. Could of been better, but we didn't plan anything. I didn't expect to really do anything, so it was kool. Well, that was it. Thanks to everyone who hit me up and texted me just to wish me a happy birthday. Good to know I have a lot of friends that care. =)

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Lately, a lot of unexpecting things just happens. I have to say, everything in my life right now is not going as planned, but hey, thats life. I'm still down and still trying really hard to get back up. The good thing is, I think everything is going to get better soon. I had another interview about 2 days ago to be a shift supervisor at a 24 hrs. CVS store and I think it went really well. Just waiting for my drug test to get back. No worries there because I'm drug free =) once that gets back, hopefully I start working soon. Once I start working, I know everything will be alright. Being jobless is the only thing right now that's bringing me down everyday besides trying to lose some weight. Having my car all done and looking nice is one of the things that makes me happy and keeps me going. Lately, I been chillin with this one girl and I have to say, I can't seem to stop smiling when I'm around her. I guess just being around her also makes me happy ^-^ the couple times that I seen her in the past, I always thought she was really cute, but I never tried to take a chance because just thinking about where I am in my life, who would want me? =( from hanging out with her, I start thinking about her everyday, sometimes I start to feel as if i miss her. =/ So, it's pretty obvious that I like her. I feel as if she feels the same, but I dont know what's on her mind. Just hope she's not giving me the wrong idea. Well, wish me luck on everything because I really need some.. pc..