Late Spring Cleaning... actually more like dusting old photo albums. Funny thing as I'm looking through some of the photo albums... if i didn't have these photos I would have no memory of these things happening. I don't remember so much, or maybe I blocked it out really well. I remember my  first kiss from my husband, I remember our wedding day as if it was yesterday. I remember the way my tears felt when my daughter was born.

I don't remember any of my ex-b/fs. I don't remember any pain from the break ups. I don't remember ex-friends who I shared tears/laughs with. I'm incredibly happy b/c I don't remember those things but instead remember what means so much to me now. I remember the phone calls to my best friend, one telling her that I was getting married and the other that I was pregnant. I remember my daughter's first smile....

So I get an email from Xanga saying that I have 4 different user names with them. I had no clue! So I went back and read some of the stuff from when I first started on xanga (2001). It was so funny. I was 21 at the time, but I sound like a kid. Maybe 21 is still being a kid. Maybe 6 years from now I will say the same about 27. Anyway, as I was reading along I could not remember any of the stuff that I wrote about. It all seems so immature and stupid that maybe I just blocked it out. You know how you talk to some people and they say that college was the best time of their life, I'm not one of those people. Not that college was bad and I did leave with a few strong friendships... it just seems like a lot of it was a waste of time.

I'm staring at a photo of Z that is sitting on my computer. She has a pink bow on her head and a big smile on her face. She is so amazing. I can't imagine what I could have done in life to deserve her, but I'm thankful for every second that I have her. It's like nothing in the world matters except her and my husband. The funny thing is I never imagined my life as it is now. I went from running three companies, constantly being on the go, partying every weekend and eating out every night... to a stay at home Mom... and I have never been happier in my entire life. I love waking up next an incredible man who supports me and our daughter. I love bringing Z into our bed in the morning and playing till afternoon. I love the fact that I don't have to send my daughter to a day care and miss so many first moments in her life. In no way is my life any easier since I stay at home all day, lol. It's just a lot more fun. I went from being the boss to having a 27 inch tall boss. Every day I wake up complete and happy. It's an amazing feeling.

We have so much snow!!!!! And it's really cold too.... yuk.

Please don't ask me to post photos of my daughter, I won't. Xanga use to be a good place but I stopped trusting the people on here many years ago. She is my everything besides her father.

Happy Monday!

Z is taking a nap, so I have a few seconds.  I can't believe how fast that child is growing up. She is going to be 5 months in about a week! She is already teething, which is great for her not so for me. I told my husband that as soon as those pearly whites show up I am done with breastfeeding. Don't get me wrong, I love being able to give my baby girl the best, but knowing her.... she will chew me up! I am rather fond of my nipples and would like to keep them where they are at the moment. lol. Otherwise she is so much fun! She loves to dance and laugh. She is  a pro in sleeping through the night. (which I am so thankful for!!!) She is just the most perfect baby, and I am crazy about her!

Side note: We have been introducing her to every language that is incorporated into our family one way or another.... so far we have russian, indian, german, hebrew and somewhere in there English. lol.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Z keeps me incredibly busy, but I am loving every moment of being with her.