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Thursday, April 26, 2007

Thu, 26 Apr 2007 14:40:21 GMT

Late Spring Cleaning... actually more like dusting old photo albums. Funny thing as I'm looking through some of the photo albums... if i didn't have these photos I would have no memory of these things happening. I don't remember so much, or maybe I blocked it out really well. I remember my first kiss from my husband, I remember our wedding day as if it was yesterday. I remember the way my tears felt when my daughter was born.

I don't remember any of my ex-b/fs. I don't remember any pain from the break ups. I don't remember ex-friends who I shared tears/laughs with. I'm incredibly happy b/c I don't remember those things but instead remember what means so much to me now. I remember the phone calls to my best friend, one telling her that I was getting married and the other that I was pregnant. I remember my daughter's first smile....

Saturday, March 10, 2007

Sat, 10 Mar 2007 22:53:01 GMT

So I get an email from Xanga saying that I have 4 different user names with them. I had no clue! So I went back and read some of the stuff from when I first started on xanga (2001). It was so funny. I was 21 at the time, but I sound like a kid. Maybe 21 is still being a kid. Maybe 6 years from now I will say the same about 27. Anyway, as I was reading along I could not remember any of the stuff that I wrote about. It all seems so immature and stupid that maybe I just blocked it out. You know how you talk to some people and they say that college was the best time of their life, I'm not one of those people. Not that college was bad and I did leave with a few strong friendships... it just seems like a lot of it was a waste of time.

I'm staring at a photo of Z that is sitting on my computer. She has a pink bow on her head and a big smile on her face. She is so amazing. I can't imagine what I could have done in life to deserve her, but I'm thankful for every second that I have her. It's like nothing in the world matters except her and my husband. The funny thing is I never imagined my life as it is now. I went from running three companies, constantly being on the go, partying every weekend and eating out every night... to a stay at home Mom... and I have never been happier in my entire life. I love waking up next an incredible man who supports me and our daughter. I love bringing Z into our bed in the morning and playing till afternoon. I love the fact that I don't have to send my daughter to a day care and miss so many first moments in her life. In no way is my life any easier since I stay at home all day, lol. It's just a lot more fun. I went from being the boss to having a 27 inch tall boss. Every day I wake up complete and happy. It's an amazing feeling.

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Tue, 30 Jan 2007 21:52:12 GMT

We have so much snow!!!!! And it's really cold too.... yuk.

Please don't ask me to post photos of my daughter, I won't. Xanga use to be a good place but I stopped trusting the people on here many years ago. She is my everything besides her father.

Monday, January 15, 2007

Mon, 15 Jan 2007 16:22:20 GMT

Happy Monday!

Z is taking a nap, so I have a few seconds. I can't believe how fast that child is growing up. She is going to be 5 months in about a week! She is already teething, which is great for her not so for me. I told my husband that as soon as those pearly whites show up I am done with breastfeeding. Don't get me wrong, I love being able to give my baby girl the best, but knowing her.... she will chew me up! I am rather fond of my nipples and would like to keep them where they are at the moment. lol. Otherwise she is so much fun! She loves to dance and laugh. She is a pro in sleeping through the night. (which I am so thankful for!!!) She is just the most perfect baby, and I am crazy about her!

Side note: We have been introducing her to every language that is incorporated into our family one way or another.... so far we have russian, indian, german, hebrew and somewhere in there English. lol.

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Tue, 09 Jan 2007 13:00:55 GMT

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Z keeps me incredibly busy, but I am loving every moment of being with her.

Friday, September 01, 2006

Fri, 01 Sep 2006 10:24:57 GMT

I'm sitting here and enjoying the most beautiful site.... it's a Kodak moment on steroids.

My husband is sleeping on our bed with our new born daughter sleeping as well in his arms. Two people who I'm absolutely crazy about working in harmony to make me the happiest woman on this planet. I love life!

Sunday, July 09, 2006

Sun, 09 Jul 2006 12:07:29 GMT

Had the second baby shower last week, it went really well. I have noticed that people are a lot cuter when it comes to buing gifts for babies.

Put the crib together and the changing table, just have to wash all the new clothing and we are good to go. lol.

Saw "Wicked" for the second time around yesterday. This baby either really liked it and was kicking to the beat or it was way too loud. Either way she wouldn't keep still the entire show. I'm so use to it that I'm not sure how it is going to be with out her in there. lol.

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 10:12:18 GMT

One baby shower down, one more to go! It's kind of weird trying to make room for this baby. Putting in a baby bath tub in the bathroom, putting together the travel system (stroller + infant car seat), changing table, crib. Drawers full of clothing that looks like it is meant for a doll.

I have been around kids my entire life. Yet somehow this is so different. Constant thoughts of am I really old enough to take one of these home? Is it really possible that it is a combination of my husband and I? What is it going to be like when I don't have something constantly kicking in my stomach?

It is so easy to forget what life was like before all of this... before my husband... before this baby. It all seems like a distant dream, a movie that I watched a long time ago. I can't say it was bad and that I'm trying to forget, not at all. More like a book that was intense enough that I got myself caught in thinking that it was real life.

Like I always say, Everything happeneds for a reason...

Saturday, April 01, 2006

Sat, 01 Apr 2006 11:54:32 GMT

The weather is so beautiful!!! Meaning, it's above 30 and I am no longer hugging the heater. lol.

Monday is going to be a big day. I get the choice of finding out if it's a boy or a girl. Personally, I don't care but still rather curious. So far it's an eating machine that no longer allows me to fit into any of my clothing. Plus if I find out, I don't know if I can keep it a secret. I really don't want a baby shower full of either blue or pink clothing, it is so overated! It's a baby not a baseball/football player. All it takes is one drool and the clothing is garbage anyway.

Thursday, March 16, 2006

Thu, 16 Mar 2006 10:30:28 GMT

Good morning Angels

I woke up today to your melody

I felt your warmth

I felt your love

Today as any day, I am thankful

I am alive and happy

I am happy for so many reasons

You are one of those reasons

You are the greatest of God’s creations

You are pure and open to life

You are loved although I have yet to meet you

You are nurtured for we share one body

You are protected with my life

Soon I will meet you

Soon our paths will go from one to two

Soon I will teach you about the world

Soon you will teach me about life

Until then, know this

I love you

You are the greatest gift

You are the greatest responsibility

You are God’s before you are mine