so i figured out it's time to updat my xanga again. I deleted something i wrote last time coz i later realized it's so unnessary that i wrote those meaningless words. It's impossible to please everyone in the world, and honestly i am fine with that. The only thing bothers me is the fact that "How can these people keep talking about the same shit...." that amaze me!!

Anyway, my summer vacation is decent so far. Besides this interesting class i'm taking (racist america), i work everyday so i can buy myself something later when i go to Europe.  

Lately i've been interested in topics such as racism and discrimination, in today's class we watched a vedio about an undocumented mexican worker's story. Then it suddenly occured to me that once when i was in NYC, i looked at the city and wondered what kind of life we're pursuing? The poor and the rich walk on the same streets. Celebraties enjoy their afternoon in this upscale coffie shop, and behind the kitchen door are the poor mexicans who came to the U.S to fulfll their american dream but are trapped in the bottom of the society. It's hard to say who's fault is that because the U.S history is built on stories of those different groups of immigrants. The after 3-generation white ethnics such as armenian or irish are pretty much assimilated and blended into the U.S society successfully. But what about those colored people? The prejudice exists in the society makes it harder for them to succeed. If the discrimination had disappered, why don't we see colored people in leader positions? What kind of open-society the U.S. has provided to everyone?  I remembered this friend said to me..."you international students don't care about this coz u don't give it a shit...you know you'll go back to your country eventually so it's doesn't matter if discrimination still exists or not.......Although I'm an American, but i'm colored. My skin color becomes an obstacle in my life...

I was unable to answer him.....

I am pretty happy with this semester, no so much works to do...much less stress..and I just got my tax midterm back
, almost perfect score!! and I did good on my GE class...2 A- midterms...and everything seems go smoothly...I still
 party on weekends....and I manage my time way better than last semester. 
     Although I just realized that I am having 4 midterms 4 weeks in a row ...I'm not panic at all...I think it's
because I'm not behind for any class..that's a great feeling...compared to this semester, last semester was a
Disaster!! It's kinda intersting that I've turn into a person who doesn't care if she HAS to have 4.0 GPA....
Life is too short to take care of that minor shit..lol

That's it, I feel so sorry.
It is hard,

I realize that I would still cry for you

because you were once someone I cared the most

I worry about you, Always!

I don't expect you to understand it now, but you'll someday...