So I didn't bring it up on here because I wasn't ready to. And I wanted people to find out the proper way. But: George and I broke up..again I suppose. Not sure we ever really were broken up in the first place. But it's really hard this time. I don't really know what to do. Of course all my friends are being very supportive, yet firm, telling me how much better I can do, how he doesn't treat me right at all, and how I deserve so much better. I don't want to be the second person to do this song and dance...break up, but still see him alot and screw around and let him have his cake and eat it too, that sort of thing. I don't want to go on being wrapped around his finger. But I don't know how to handle cutting him off. I can't handle myself. Anyway I'll be fine. I'm doing fine. Last night just sucked. See below. It was one of those situations where you know your friends are helping you and doing what's good for you, but you can't stand it because you want it so bad. Like friends taking away your drugs or your drink, hah. I'm sure I'll be glad for it in the long run...I'm just mad at myself for feeling the way I feel right now...like it was wrong for me to walk away from him last night, and like I owe him some sort of apology for being rude...not that I really had a choice...I definitely was not in control of the situation, which was probably for the better...whatever. I was a fun night until he showed up.
FIRSTS
First car: 1996 Teal Saturn...it was totaled by a douchebag who doesn't know how to read a left turn signal.
First date: Ummmm I don't remember...
First self purchased CD: Either BoystoMen or Ace of Base: The Sign...Still love them. : p
First pets: Muggsy and Misty Boy (my mom's cats); personally: A Girbil-Sam
First piercing/tattoo: Just my ears.
First musician you remember hearing in your house: I have no idea....Mostly a bunch of classical music..
LASTS
Last car ride: Home from Party last night with Anna. What a disaster.
Last good cry: Last night when George came to the Party I was at, and no one would let me talk to him, and instead I had to leave.
Last movie seen on video: Idk, watched Moulin Rouge last night on dvd...
Last beverage drank: Red Wine at said party.
Last food consumed: Doritos also at said party.
Last time showered: About 20 minutes ago,being around 12:00
Last shoes worn: Black ballet flats.
Last annoyance: Friends last night not letting me say hello to George...I know they were trying to protect me, but i should have at least said hi...Gina was there, and I was very rude to just pass by without saying anything.
Last disappointment: See above.
Last shirt worn: Coral wrap shirt with black cami. Last website visited: Charter.net to check email. And then facebook.
Last word/s you said: Hey to Diana when I came in last night. NOW
What color socks are you wearing? Socks? Never!
What color of underwear are you wearing? Red with little pink roses.
What's under your bed? Ughhh my purses, some sheets and stuff....
What time did you wake up today? first at 7 when I realized I never changed out of my clothes, again at 8, again at 11 when roommate got up, and then finally at 12. FUTURE
Where do you want to go? Anywhere...to the library...need to be productive...hahaha..i suppose that doesn't really answer the question...
What is your career going to be? Opera.
Where are you going to live? Germany.
How many kids do you want? At most 2. Maybe none...childbirth is my biggest fear.
What kind of car(s): I don't know. I don't want to think about the future right now.
CURRENT
Current mood: Confuzzled and rather off kilter.
Current music: None. Listening the rain.
Current taste: Vanilla mint toothpaste.
Current hair: Wet...just got out of shower, and am waiting for it to dry a little before blow dry.
Current clothes: Red sweat pants and yellow Fitz's t-shirt.
Current desktop picture: picture of Squirt and Vito (home kitties)
Current color of toenails: No color.
Current hate: Ummm nothing really. Just hating this transition from being in a relationship to being single.
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