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Country: United States
State: North Carolina
Birthday: 11/6/1969
Interests: Playing music, playing music and umm playing music! Seriously I like a lot of different things. I read, I blog, I love Tycoon games, SIMS type games, first person shooter games etc.. I train chat hosts, I like to garden, veggies and flowers both. You could call me eclectic, but I just like to say Im well rounded :)
Expertise: Instrumental music
Occupation: homeschooling mom of three gir
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Member Since:
6/26/2002
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| Your result for The Quick & Painless ENNEAGRAM Test... 4- the IndividualistThanks for taking the test ! 
you chose BY - your Enneagram type is FOUR (aka "The Romantic")
"I am unique"
Romantics have sensitive feelings and are warm and perceptive. How to Get Along with Me
- Give me plenty of compliments. They mean a lot to me.
- Be a supportive friend or partner. Help me to learn to love and value myself.
- Respect me for my special gifts of intuition and vision.
- Though I don't always want to be cheered up when I'm feeling melancholy, I sometimes like to have someone lighten me up a little.
- Don't tell me I'm too sensitive or that I'm overreacting!
What I Like About Being a FOUR
- my ability to find meaning in life and to experience feeling at a deep level
- my ability to establish warm connections with people
- admiring what is noble, truthful, and beautiful in life
- my creativity, intuition, and sense of humor
- being unique and being seen as unique by others
- having aesthetic sensibilities
- being able to easily pick up the feelings of people around me
What's Hard About Being a FOUR
- experiencing dark moods of emptiness and despair
- feelings of self-hatred and shame; believing I don't deserve to be loved
- feeling guilty when I disappoint people
- feeling hurt or attacked when someone misundertands me
- expecting too much from myself and life
- fearing being abandoned
- obsessing over resentments
- longing for what I don't have
FOURs as Children Often
- have active imaginations: play creatively alone or organize playmates in original games
- are very sensitive
- feel that they don't fit in
- believe they are missing something that other people have
- attach themselves to idealized teachers, heroes, artists, etc.
- become antiauthoritarian or rebellious when criticized or not understood
- feel lonely or abandoned (perhaps as a result of a death or their parents' divorce)
FOURs as Parents
- help their children become who they really are
- support their children's creativity and originality
- are good at helping their children get in touch with their feelings
- are sometimes overly critical or overly protective
- are usually very good with children if not too self-absorbed
Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele
The Enneagram Made Easy
Discover the 9 Types of People
Harper
SanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages
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| Im so glad its Thursday finally. I know I usually look foreward to Fridays (and I am!) but Storm had to go to Raleigh this week & he got back last night. I hate when he has to go out of town. Nothing happens really while hes gone or anything, its just that the place just doesnt feel right when hes not here.
You know, it never fails to amaze me, the people walking around feeling worthless. Theres a lot of you folks out there. I know how it feels to feel worthless to someone in particular, but not really worthless in general. Even though I dont drive, I dont have a job, Im a SAHM which is THE most thankless job in the world...I still feel as though Im worth wonderful things and adoration and happiness. Exactly what I want just because I want it - and for me that really doesnt translate into tangible material goods.
I have to wonder though, why in the world do people feel so worthless? See, I know Im not perfect. I know there are things about me that still need work. But those isolated things dont destroy the whole of who I am, nor do they define who I am...so why would they make me feel worthless? Someone doesnt love me the way I love them? Sure it hurts and sure its a painful process...but it doesnt make me think "Well I must be a horrible, terrible person if this person cant love me." Sooooo not true! Doesnt mean that I dont have any ownership in my relationship problems, because I do, just like everyone else. But even knowing when Im the one whos wrong - it does make me feel bad - doesnt make me feel worthless.
I guess my self-esteem has always been pretty good, but better here in the last oh Id say even 6 months, its improved by leaps and bounds. Not that Im full of myself or anything...Ive got plenty of Libra to keep me all nice and balanced. But Im able to see all of the good things about myself as WELL as the bad, not instead of. Its a very balanced way of thinking (Again Libra) and it allows me to feel great about myself.. while still understanding theres more work to be done & that I - like everyone else, have weak spots.
Are most people not able to do that? | | |
| And another room is clean. We tackled Madison's room today.. which thankfully she keeps pretty clean already. It really wasnt that bad at all .. err minus the window. Its not even 1 yet and we're finished.
My sunburn is healing - and itching. Ack. Not constantly or anything but if I scratch my leg then I end up scratching all down both legs because just one little scratch and they both start itching. LOL!
Storm drew me the coolest picture. Way back when, I was getting some photo prints of the girls for mom. She had a particular one she wanted of Autumn so I got it (and a frame for it) but hadnt yet found one of the other two girls I liked. Well down the road a piece I got a couple of good shots & got them printed for her. I sent Storm to grab me 2 more frames, but since he didnt know what I had bought he just got 3 matching ones. I gave him the extra frame and told him "Draw something for me to put in it" he asked what I wanted & I told him to surprise me. He did, it was finished on Friday.
He drew a picture of himself (he took the picture from one of my favorite photos of him) sitting next to a lion. I really have to get a photograph of it for yall to know how good it is! Id have to say its probably the best portrait hes ever done - looks just like him. And its small.. its probably only 5X7 if that. So it fits nicely on my bedside table.
Its a different frame though LOL When it all came down to it he bought another one.. Im not sure why except that maybe he just didnt like the look of that picture with that frame. I think hes going to do what I suggested and put the skull picture he drew (its to be airbrushed on the side of the car this summer) in it. | | |
| Got the house cleaned today.. so Im three for three this week. Mowed on Sunday, did the whole grocery shoping/prep/cook/bag OAMC thing, and cleaned the house.. all in the same week. I got up early & got the kids up early so I could get done by a decent time. I didnt want to be out there trying to finish up at 3pm yk? So now its 1 & Im finished & relaxing in my bedroom.
Yesterday was interesting. Storm had a therapy appt but it wasnt until the afternoon. He was here in the morning so we went out (as we always do) after I had coffee to get the mail & walk through the gardens & look at everything growing/budding. We go outside onto the back porch & low & behold the neighbors male goat is over on our hill, happily munching away at some weeds. Well, Storm had to go get the neighor - who wasnt home. The only person over there was the woman (not the old lady.. this is the mom I guess of those kids that wont stay out of my yard lol) so Storm told her he would bring the goat up & tie him somewhere. She didnt seem like she messed with them a bunch & maybe even a little afraid of them.
Strom got the goats chain & led him up there - I went too, dont like putting him in a situation where hes the only guy with the only woman. Not that he is a threat at all, but you never know what people might say someone did kwim? So we go up there & he gets the goat settled & tells the woman to bring it some water.. turns out the chain was attached to this peg thing that goes into the ground & he had simply just pulled it right out of the ground. So Storm got him fixed up & we got to spend a couple of minutes petting the male and female & trying to get the baby over to let us touch it LOL. Theyre soooo cute, and very nice animals, much like youd see at a petting zoo. They smelled our hands & all first - the female nibbled my hand with her lips a little... almost as if she was seeing if I was edible LOL Yk goats, they'll eat damn near anything.
So we did end up with our chicken dinner & it was yummy.. I DID get all of the laundry washed/folded/put away. Got the food bagged & in the freezers & washed about a bazillion dishes, supper dishes girl had quite a peck of them as well because of the big meal. We went swimming after dinner...it was a nice swim too.. the water is getting nice finally. I got Storms salad made, he & the girls had their "daddy time" (8-9 PM every night just the girls & Storm & whatever they want to do together..usually play Xbox LOL).
Storms session went well...I am really liking this new guy Smith. See, last weekend Storm & I watched "The Secret". Now a lot of people think its horseshit. And it very well might be - whos to say? Positive visualization works very well for some people, and its the most complete guide to it Ive ever seen OR read.
See Im not terrible visual. Im more auditory/emotional. I have a very hard time seeing pictures in my head.. I get emotions instead. I get the "feeling" of it.. not the actual picture. Lets say I want to visualize a scene from 8th grade.. I get the "feeling" surrounding that time period, not really images in my head. And creating something in my mind, as a visual image, from nothing- like Storm does with his art work? I just cant do it. Which is why I say Im not creative! Im not even inventive in my music...I wont ever be a composer....Im an instrumentalist. I play music, I dont write it.
Now I can be highly creative in making up stories. But even when I make up stories I dont see the pictures in my head. Makes it hard to really flesh out characters if you cant see them kwim?
At any rate, we watched the secret & its actually a concept very easy for Storm to grasp & use - because he IS so creative and he IS so visual. What I like about it is that you must attach emotion to these visualizations and he needs a LOT of work learning how to do that. So even if it doesnt work the way they say it does (and really watch it for yourself - much like Harry Potter.. just see what youre judging first ok? Then if you still think its horseshit by all means, do so.) he still needs the exercises using "The Secret" requires - good visualization coupled with attached emotion. Now I know that doesnt sound all THAT hard, but trust me, Storm has difficulty in feeling and expressing positive emotion.
It works very much like prayer if you think about it.. and everyone (even the staunchest atheist has to admit this) knows that prayer sometimes works. Now it doesnt always work for whatever reason (Xtians you usually say because it wasnt Gods will) but it has been shown to - in some cases- work. You can heal yourself - or at least some of us can/have and Ive personally witnessed it. I knew a guy (who worked with Storm in the military - Storm & he were the only two there when it happened so Storm gave it to me first hand) who had his big toe almost totally severed.. Im talkin it was hanging on by a skin flap - and he was totally fine,,, no problems in like NO time. Im not talking - he was ok in a month. Im talking he was ok in like a week. If you go over to Elsa's (elsaelsa.com or xanga.com/VeryModern) and read around a bit you will see where she talks about burning her hand so badly and how it healed nearly over night. These things happen. Can everyone do it? Maybe.
At any rate, Storm says he does his art work exactly the way these other people work "the secret" . Which is in turn making him realize he can make it work in other areas of his life. This is nothing but good, because NOW hes taking time to be grateful for things in his life... hes taking the time to really ask himself "What do I want? What would make ME happy" in all areas of his life. Instead of spending a great deal of time focusing on the bad.. hes giving more energy to the good and how he can make it even better. This is a HUGE change. HUGE. All good kwim? However, Smith - his therapist - is more than a little skeptical.. and is worried that Storm is doing (and he has a tendency.. Ive known this for a WHILE now & Smith already has an inkling of it - pretty good for just a couple of sessions) what he always tends to do.. go overboard. Smith is trying to ground him. Good boy. :) However, Storm needs to tell Smith (and I need to actually go meet him myself here real soon if my babysitters ever get back from VA) that Im very much the grounding force in Storms life on a daily basis, so he has support on thinking logically and doing the work and realizing issues and dealing with them etc. However, I can see the good that these positive visualization techniques hes learning via "the secret" will do him. So I am encouraging it as well. Storm knows my thoughts, that even though I think he could and should continue doing the things hes doing because of "the secret" (and its not just that particular movie - he is also in the middle of reading a book - one he started well before the secret came out - that has a very similar idea..and it turns out the one guy in the bright blue shirt in the secret video, IS the author of that book. So Storm was already drawn to & thinking in these ways before we saw the video) it doesnt take the place of doing therapy & working hard at it.. because its going to give him great insight into himself via Smith. So the two CAN coexist in his world and SHOULD.
Storm is a great guy underneath it all, he really is. He is very much the epitome of "Nice Guy". But the things that I am dealing with him - the issues that he has - are NOT typical. I know I keep saying that but Im tellin you girls out there with the "Average" husband. You are blessed in ways that you cant imagine. Drives me crazy when yall get talking about how much you hate when your husbands get "grabbing" at you. Hes showing you emotion (perhaps not the kind you want, though I cant imagine why you wouldnt) and trying to engage you in a playful manner. Play with him for goodness sakes! Storm doesnt know how to play! Imagine that. He has a difficult time just enjoying the moment.. going with the emotion .. hell even feeling the emotion surrounding the moment - enough to just enjoy himself & play yk? And thats just part of a much much bigger puzzle with lots of pieces that are all mismatched. Which is one reason why Im enjoying the pool so much...he loves the water & he is much more playful in the pool. Not in a less than G rated way of course with the girls there - but we're looking forward to a late night alone swim during his vacation in August! Still G rated play is fun too.. he'll throw me on his back & walk (hands & knees) on the pool so its kinda like a horseback ride since the water isnt THAT deep. He bucked me off last night LOL!
But that kind of thing is SO rare around here.. he just doesnt play well with others. He WORKS well with others.. but play is different.
So thats whats happening around here. Cooking, cleaning....goats running amok (AMOKAMOKAMOK!!!) | | |
| Two blogs in one day? There must be sledding in Hades!
Im doneeeee. Actually I made excellent time. I didnt actually get into the kitchen & get started till 10. I was finished at..... drumm roll please...... 12:15. Not bad a'tall. I even cut up some potatos for a chicken dinner tomorrow. I cover them in a pot of water & put them in the basement fridge. Allows me to peel & cut potatos for mashed potatos a day before I actually need them. I hate hate hate hateeeeeeeee to peel potatos. Tiny little hands dontcha know. Things like peeling potatos & wringing out an oldfashioned (rag) mop just wear the hell out of my hands. Usually, Storm will peel potatos for me for things like Thanksgiving dinner, Xmas dinner etc. because he knows I hate to do it LOL.
Usually I put cheese potatos on for the kids when I OAMC - so they can cook for supper the following night, but I didnt make those this time. My slo cooker was otherwise engaged with a lovely batch of Salsibury Steaks - err it will actually end up being several batches of it once I figure out how many per meal I need & separate them out accordingly. I figured then I could peel potatos for mashed potatos for tomorrow & just do a chicken dinner. We were having chicken pretty often there for awhile (like once a week) but not much since summer vacation started. Since Storm has an appt with his new therapist tomorrow - and will very likely be working from home, I figured we were due. Not to mention, I can get him to mash those potatos for me too since he'll be here. Have I mentioned I hate to mash them as well? Id rather mash than peel though LOL
I even managed to get most of the dishes done. Autumn (13) and Madison (12) take turns washing dinner dishes every other night. When I OAMC, I try very hard not to leave them with a butt load of dishes, big pots and pans, skilets, big mixing bowls- that sort of thing. I do however leave them small stuff; cups, silverwear, saucers. I wash the dishes before I cook (or while stuff is on the stove) and I keep washing as I create more dirty dishes - easiest way to go about it. But by the time Ive washed a zillion dishes through the course of OAMC, I figure they can have a few extra small ones at supper time and save me the additional 10 minutes in front of the sink - at a time when I need to sit DOWN. So I didnt leave "supper dishes girl" (thats what we call it around here.. like when its time for them to do the dishes - and yes I DO still have to get on them about getting it done - I yell out "Supper dishes girlllll?!?! Supper table girlllll?!?" - because yes they all three alternate cleaning up the kitchen table where they were all eating for every meal...they change once a week & they have other assigned jobs that change once a week as well) too many extra dishes this time. There is a skillet soaking out there but she wont be required to wash it, just let it soak & I can grab it at lunch time tomorrow when I do dishes. I always do the first batch in the morning, and sometimes (depending on what they ate/snacked on before bed - sometimes they EAT) theres more than a couple of dishes - especially if I let them leave a pot soaking. I do that pretty often so they dont get stuck with say the chili pot. They HATE doing those and like the spaghetti pot.. anything realllly messy. So I let them soak it & its super easy for me when I do the dishes the next morning. So they DO wash the dishes a lot, but they dont do them all by any means & I still have dishes to do every day. So I dont feel too bad about leaving them some extra silverwear when I OAMC LOL!
Castle doesnt do dishes yet (I figure when shes 10.. thats how old Madison was when she started, Autumn was 11 & I started them both at the same time - so those older two cant WAIT to have another dish washer in the house so its only every 3rd night for them instead of every other night the way it is now) but she gets stuck being "Go behind girl" (which means when we're cleaning the house - actual dusting/mopping/cleaning - she has to go back after Im done mopping and put down rugs, put cat food dishes back down etc) she still has her side of the room assigned and her table duty assigned just like the older girls. And of course shes in that age where shes fighting the battle of her bedroom. She doesnt wrap & take out garbage yet ( the older two do - again assigned days) but every time someone wraps the garbage she has to put a new one in the can. Doesnt matter if she has to do it every single day & some days a couple of times.. no one rotates that with her either becase she doesnt wrap it or take it out. So in the end it all works out - but next year Im going to have to throw things like "Go behind girl" and putting the new bag in the trashcan into a weekly or half weekly schedule. Like whoever has the "easy" week (which translate in this house as whoever doesnt have to do the hallway or litter lol) will be go behind girl if there is a need & put the bags in the trashcan.
Its crazy the scheduling around here at times.. but it really does work. Everyone knows what they have to do & if something isnt done all I have to do is yell out "Ok, who is hallway girl this week?" and some sorry lookin little girl says "Oh no, did the cats wreck it again? I JUST DID IT" which may or may not be true lol. Or "Hey who is snack table girl? You need to go do your job." Because the person who cleans up from breakfast (which there usually ISNT any to speak of.. they dont make hardly any mess at breakfast at all) also has to clean up the table when they eat before bed (theyre not really going to bed to sleep yet, theyre going to have playtime in their - and each others - rooms. Which is fine with us because they have a cut off time when they have to be back in their rooms settling in.. so its kinda like playtime before bed than actually bedtime). So yeah.. ive got a pretty good working schedule going here with these kids so everyone knows what theyre supposed to be doing and when.. with plenty of "off" time if they get their stuff done. It gets way more hectic during the school year because their chores schedule doesnt really change.. they just have school & homework on top of it.. just like me.
Sounds like a lot, but it really isnt. They dont do all "that" much.. their jobs are pretty quick & easy but they do require you get off your heiny & do them. Teaches them time mangement. If they want a good bit of free/play time during the school yr, they have to bust a move & get their work done first. Both house and school work. Which is exactly what I have to do too, and most people I think in the real world. Im not a schedule Nazi though, if we're going somewhere or something comes up we just adjust accordingly. Going shopping? Great! Before we leave you have to have lunch & get your housework done.. sooner you get done, the sooner we can go. But if its something like an appt... we just get out the door & worry about housestuff after...unless time allows us to do it before.. would depend on when the appt was!
The key for me I think has just been keeping consistant in what theyre supposed to do daily & make it so I didnt have to keep track of whos doing what. Believe me, Madison will let me know she did dishes the night before and its her sisters turn. If someone cant remember what side of the room theyre on, one of her sisters will tell me what side THEY were on & we rotate that room a certain way so I can figure out whos supposed to be where as long as I know where ONE of them were. ROFL! Sounds like a logic problem doesnt it?
Well Ive been ultra yappy today havent I?
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