Have You been missed ?God, i dont every hardly update this thing like i used to, i mean when i was 'dealing' with my eating disoder i was on here everyday - now i find it hard to have the time to be honest. 
Ive broken up from school now finished- deciding wether or not to go to sixth from or just get a job. Ben came my house yesterday night and stayed over, it was brief tbh he got to my house late and we watched tv had sex went to sleep and then he went collage this mornin. Then the cleaner arrived lol. we are ment to be on a break (because ben is sick of me smoking weed everyday and being fukkered and spendin ALL of my money on it) but last night we still say all the things we used to like'i love you' lol i think its more like a routine than anything im just used to ben , it is almost a year we have been together, but im 16 and ive got my whole life ahead of me and ive cheated on ben... a few times. 
Shit. Ive well propa thrashed, i smoke weed everyday religously and therefore im skint i spend everypenny on it. the only other thing i buy are fags. i cant rember the last thing i bought that wasnt weed, wait oh yer i bought a bong to smoke my weeed with. lol. Then i had a fet phase back in febuary and i lost loads of weight because i love smoking weed but i just eat so much and the fet made me loose weight and feel happy and i cud still smoke weed wen i did it as i didnt get munchies lol. This weekend ive been to a mad drug rave camp out and got battered on alcohol,weed and fet and snorted sum pill was wiked ! then steyed over at staceys (hu is gorgous btw) n got fuked on weed again.  Today the cleaner came n i talked to her for the first time and turns out that she dus fet, it helps her with her job of keepin busy she gave me a 'bomb' i can feel it lol so i gave her a tenner (?0) to get me sum. wiked! Feel abit shit today tbh i think im just tired from the weekend man..... i cba with naything or anyone right now i feel socially deprived but only cos ive been with ppl 24/7 for the past two weeks i mean seriously i havmt had 5 minites to myself and im well bored, wish i had a joint to smoke. When i get this fet im gunna loose sum rite weight ill post pictures and keep u updated girlies lol | 
