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Life Is.

Wed, 10 Oct 2007 09:31:43 GMT

- Life is... -

Imagine life as a game in which you are juggling five balls in the air. You name them: work, family, health, friends, and spirit, and you're keeping all of them in the air. You will soon understand that work is a rubber ball. If you drop it, it will bounce back. But the other four balls - family, health, friends, and spirit are made of glass. If you drop one of these, they will be irrevocably scuffed, marked, nicked, damaged, or even shattered. They will never be the same. You must understand that and strive for balance in your life.

- How? -

Don't undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others. It is because we are different that each of us is special. Don't set your goals by what other people deem important. Only you know what is best for you. Don't take for granted the things closest to your heart. Cling to them as you would your life, for without them, life is meaningless. Don't let life slip through your fingers by living in the past or for the future. By living your life one day at a time, you live ALL the days of your life. Don't give up when you still have something to give. Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying. Don't be afraid to admit that you are less than perfect. It is this fragile thread that binds us together. Don't be afraid to encounter risks. It is by taking chances that we learn to be brave. Don't shut love out of your life by saying it's impossible to find. The quickest way to receive love is to give; the fastest way to lose love is to hold it too tightly; and the best way to keep love is to give it wings. Don't run through life so fast that you forget not only where you've been, but also where you are going. Don't forget that a person's greatest emotional need is to feel appreciated. Don't use time or words carelessly. Neither can be retrieved. Life is not a race, but a journey to be savored each step of the way.

Yesterday is History, Tomorrow is a Mystery, and Today is a gift: that's why we call it a PRESENT.

-A Letter from the CEO of Coca Cola-

What I want for My Birthday

Mon, 13 Aug 2007 15:07:28 GMT

Birthday Wish List:

So I never update this thing anymore. But hey, my birthday is coming up so I thought that those dearest to me would read this, maybe. And buy me things that I actually need. In addition, I thought that this would be a great time to reflect on this year and well on things that I really need to live a better healthier life.

Number 1: A Microwave/ Toaster/ Mini Oven.
I just moved into a new apartment and am lacking this basic essential kitchen appliances. A microwave would be so cool, so I can reheat my cold left over food that's always chilling in the fridge. I eat a lot of bread for ham/turkey sandwich and peanut butter.

Number 2: A passport

Number 3: Lovely MACs
I really want to get this new laptop before school starts, so I think I'll get this for myself.

Number 4: A Nice Dinner & Birthday Cake?

Online blog

Tue, 12 Jun 2007 23:13:28 GMT

Anyone can have a blog, but that doesn't matter. Because this one is mine and mine alone. It's a place for me to focus my attention and share my feelings that I'm feeling at the moment. I'm listening to 12 Girls Band and it's beautiful and sad in a way. It's Chinese and I can not but help that I want to cry right now. I don't know what's wrong with me. Things are going really well, I have nothing to complain about. There's aways a few things that we can work on, and it's never the end of the world. This is not an OMG situation that needs ASAP attention. I think that it's just nice to do a "recording" of the moment, a little pulse check to see what's going on?
It's always about the same topic of school, family, love, and money. Worries, oh I have many...

I like to think of myself as an interesting kind, nice, compassionate person. Sometimes I don't say very nice things, then I wan to apologize, but pride gets in the way and I can't utter those I'm sorry, I didn't mean it to be like that, or act like that. A moment to reflect is something we can all work on. Starting today, I will act upon my sincerity and be true to myself more often.

Sometimes I just want to do something that doesn't seem like it should be done, but I do it anyway. Then there are other times when I should do something, and can't. I know as each moment pass by, it's the end of that moment, and nothing can change it. So why not do it the first time, ask for what I want, and if the answer is NO, then did I lose anything? Lesson learned? Always ask for what you want or need. If you want it, there must be an intrinsic, or extrinsic motivation for wanting.

I feel like a little remiss. Why? There must be a thousand reasons why, it's sooo strange living in someone else's house. Even if you are paying rent. You are not free to do whatever you want, because it's not your personal space. I guess I just have to get use to it.

Being the outside sucks. Okie, I could have joined into the project, but why was I not in it? It's because we all have baggages and so we all have to make decisions base on our circumstances. Never forget for one second when you come to the table to negotiate anything, see what cards you are holding, what the other person's holding, before, at, and after the meeting. People behave pretty like the schema that they were written to act, people never stray far, and even then, it's according to so rules they have set up for them self.

I very much want to be a good son. My parents aren't doing that great, and I want for them to be well. A life is very fragile, and well there's never a good time to "hang" out with your aged parents, until it's too late. It's like that when you have time and want to travel and take a vacation, you have no moeny. And when you have money, you don't have time, or can't afford to take some time off. You spend your youth working away life, and only in the end do you spend all the money to buy back so of the memories of youth. No, I will live my life, starting today. Why do I waste time! Time is the only thing that's fair, and equal. We all have a set amount each day. 24 hours.

BR Love

Fri, 18 May 2007 09:37:37 GMT

Okie, so I'm working for BR now and that comes with lots of yummy goodness. Employees Discounts being the best. This morning, while at work at my other job, I decided to like make a major purchase. I bought the deliciously awesome Heritage bag for $425.00. Not bad at all! One thing we have to remember is that COACH makes all off BR's bags and leather goods. So that's why we justify the high price. Beautiful isn't it. Because it's going to house my 15inch macbook pro. OMG goodness.

Season of Love.

Wed, 11 Apr 2007 14:53:55 GMT

Spring is for renew and I must say I'm excited.
So yes, things are going very well these days, and I'm just waiting and seeing what's going to happen next?
There are some things in my life that I can't change right now, but I'm mostly happy with everything that's happening. It's so cool, I'm like loving everything I do right now. Feeling hopeful and anxious, and joyous all at the same time.

Life goes on

Mon, 09 Apr 2007 15:26:53 GMT

There comes a time in your life when everything is just moving, and there's nothing you can do except for you waiting and waiting. Because you have done all that you can do, now the wait is on. That's how I feel right about now, I've completed my application for graduate school and just waiting for them to get back to me.

Spring Time:

Mon, 26 Mar 2007 17:35:02 GMT

How often do we sit down and write something important so that we can remember a specific frame of life. A picture is a snapshot of a moment, a movie is a moving moment of a memory. A journal, a journal however is a reflection, a synthesis of an experience of all our life up to that point. I used to journal more often, was it because I had more to write about? No, it was because I wanted to keep my blog interesting so that more people would come and visit, and read into my life, and be apart of my life. I have no tracker on this site, so I haven't a clue as to how many people actually read this. I just want it to be for me. This blog is for me and me alone.

It'll only be some 50+ days before I will graduate with my BS in Business Administration from the grand university called the Rochester Institute of Technology. My three years have have been challenging, it has been fun, it has been bitter sweet, but mostly it has been a little stepping step to life. I don't remember much of my college days at all. I do remember the people that have made an impact on my life. The people that have challenged my thoughts, shaped my ambition, scared me with their idiosyncrasies. All the things happened for a reason, and I'm not regretful of anything.

Standout:
Friends I have made during college have been few and far in between. Nick G really stands out, even though he's been a recent development, I would like to say thank you for being caring, and just being there. Really, I think I love you. haha. Our countess hours staying up speaking "psychobabble" mostly on my part. Him trying to synthesize whatever the fuck it's I was trying to explain. Some times we have one of those break through moments, where I said something so amazingly genius, it was like. Wooot. Haha. Thanks for listening, and allowing me to just let my thoughts roll out, like a big stream of sewer. There's a lot of shit, and gunk, but somethings, even the smelly fish starts to look interesting, if you examine it closely. I really like what we have, and I hope that it will last for a long time. Even when the wind blows a different direction, I hope that I have made an impression, deep enough, where I won't be forgotten. You are the only guy friend that I have made since well Corey.

I love how all the pretty girls always come into my life. Linda, the loveable little asian, you and your hello kitty, and lovealb smile. I'll love you, and think of you even if you move to Texas, with well kissable Mike. Hey this is my blog. Let me say what I want. haha. Becca, you are crazy, and I will love you because of your carefree personality. Janice, you are amazing, and you work so hard. We have an incredible bond. Inga, I admire you so much. Cheryl, get a job in Providence, so I can move in with you. Ana R, the lastest to come into my life. We will rock it next year!

New Laptop?

Sun, 11 Feb 2007 17:51:58 GMT

I really want to get a new laptop.
But first I have to get rid of my desktop, and my current laptop.
Hopefully all this will occur within the next 3 months. That's my plan anyway.
I don't know what's happening with me lately.
I know that I'm moody, sorta was wondering and floundering.
I feel like I'm wounded.
Not so much rejected, but wounded.
I'm moody, and overall happy.
And I need to get me a new cell phone.
However, my plan doesn't end until April 1. Ironic huh?
Has it been that long, 2 years, has past,
Damn how time really does fly by oh so quickly.
I love everyone who has been involved with aspects of my life.
I love you dearly, and thanks for contributing to my memory bank.

Music Touches Me.

Fri, 09 Feb 2007 01:29:47 GMT

I can tell by the things you do
there's a wall between me and you
I can tell by the things you said
all the thoughts running through your head
There's a lie hidden in your smile
it's been going on for quite a while
I can tell by the things you said
all the thoughts running through your head

Closer to me
I hope our love will find a way
Closer to me
Tell me why can't we try
is it so hard to come
Closer to me
I hope our love will find a way
Closer to me
Tell me why can't we try
is it so hard to come
Closer

I can tell by the things you do
there's a wall between me and you
I can tell by the things you said
all the thoughts running through your head
There's a lie hidden in your smile
it's been going on for quite a while
I can tell by the things you said
all the thoughts running through your head

Closer to me
I hope our love will find a way
Closer to me
Tell me why can't we try
is it so hard to come
Closer

Closer
Closer

Closer to me
I hope our love will find a way
Closer to me
Tell me why can't we try
is it so hard to come
Closer to me
I hope our love will find a way
Closer to me
Tell me why can't we try
is it so hard to come
Closer

Closer

Cold Day

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 21:56:40 GMT

I lost my glove. Yep just one.

The world ended, until I found it 4 hours later.
Luckiest boy alive.
Kisses.