| | All of us have made mistakes. When we look back... what could lead us to do such things? I don't think many of us intentionally do bad things while feeling guilty and knowing that it's wrong. I'm sure that most times, in the moment, it starts with an "innocent" mistake. Maybe we just weren't thinking. Caught in the moment, or maybe lacking discernment and foresight, we don't see the consequences of our actions. We don't think about how what we do can end up hurting others or harming ourselves.
But as the events unfold, we start realize how wrong things are going. Realizing that we've made a mistake, what do we do? During this time, do we even remember those who love us, those who promised to be there for us and bail us out no matter what trouble we got ourselves into? Maybe. Why do we not call out for help to someone who we know we can trust? Maybe it's just easier to try and tough it out ourselves. In the end, it's much easier to depend on ourselves than on others, isn't it? We don't have to admit that we messed up. We don't have to admit to others or even to ourselves that we are helpless to help ourselves... We tell ourselves that we are in control of things, and all the while the situation gets worse and worse...
In the wake of our mistake, what do we do? Seeing the harm that we've done to ourselves or others, seeing how others can be hurt, angry, upset, or disappointed, what do we do? Even now, it's easier to cover up our mistakes with more lies and mistakes than to turn back. Before we realized it, we went from a careless decision to intentionally violating our consciences to cover up our mistakes. We've become someone we're disgusted with, and the weight of our sin suffocates us. If we continue down this path, it won't be long before the guilt of lying and doing what we know is wrong fades away... and our hearts become numb and rooted in evil. Why?? If only we had given more thought before initially acting. If only we had cried out for help and trusted in someone who loves us during our time of need. Even in the aftermath, hard to admit that we messed up. How much do the people who told us they love us really love us? It's hard to believe that they can love us even now, if they knew how badly we messed up. Too ashamed or maybe too afraid, we again reject the love that has been offered to us...
When will we learn... to trust in the love that has been given to us? When will our hearts become so overwhelmed by the depth of pure love that we will trust and not turn to ourselves? If only we realized that in the face of perfect love, we don't have to be afraid or ashamed of our sins... because perfect love drives out all fear.
I have messed up so many times, and broken God's heart so many times. Every time, I've been stubborn in trying to handle things myself. Again and again I sin against God, and yet he forgives me, and lets me break his heart as many times as it takes for me to realize he loves me and finally trust in his love. It is for this reason... that I will love and forgive others who have hurt me... as many times as it takes for the Lost to embrace God's love.
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| | Posted 4/24/2008 12:31 PM - 1 comments
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