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LynaHeng
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Name: LynaHeng
Gender: Female
Interests: health care system...helping others in community. Outing with Friends/family. Getting back in the groove of playin the violin..
Expertise: eating...sleeping...and shopping...being lazy
Occupation: Education/training
Industry: Government
Message: message meEmail: email me
Member Since:
6/30/2002
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| Thursday!What a day? soooo sad and depressed by looking out my window. It seems so quit and lonely outside. My phones ringing like crazy, but guess what today is my day and I will not answer the phone.
Too much said is not good sometimes. I decided that I will no longer say too much. Sometimes you perceived things differently what you sit and just stay quit. I feel left out of the loop sometimes...just like I am all lone in world of my own. The thing is if I say nothing at all, it's like me faking. If I say too much, I have no friends. So the best thing to do to be someone's friend or best friend is to talk and rock the boat, and not worry about the things that might bother you. From now on, I will be a different person around people. All girls are wonderful. All guys are just guys.
What and who have I become in the last few years? Sometimes I wish I know everyone in the world, sometimes I wish to be alone, sometimes I wish I was a dolphin swimming in the water. This is call human.
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| Tuseday...Tidy Tuesday!Good lord! It's only the second day of the week. I feel like I have to wait all my life to reach that Friday ahead of me. Been a long time since I updated this blog. Jeezwiz...I have so much work.
For the past week or so, I feel absolutely like I am on a ride to the moon. Little did I know, I find myself counseling others about their feelings...dreams..and whatnot....I fall underneath the same roof. I have students coming in crying, an old boss whose wive pasted away after 40 years of marriage due to Myeloma (disease in which I see and feel the pain for), parents who criedv b/c they can no longer afford college for their child, etc.
What do I face?...I sometimes wonder what it would be like to be in that position. As I counsel and try to make their soul at ease...I feel so depressed myself, I feel hopeless...I asks myself how do I get through this...somehow I manage to just get it past the stage where I would drop my tears on my desk as I starred straight into their face knowing that I could not do much. I can only say with all my encouragement that things will be ok. But then who am I to tell them that everything will be ok....I, myself, have no clue as to what I can do to improve myself.
My boss tells me that I am good at counseling. I often tell him that I am not an expert, I am only a child who have grew to be an adult with limited knowledges in the most recent year. He'd encouraged me to become something more...something...in which will help others. I can not help others if I am lost in my own world. Surprisingly, I am that girl...that girl...who is supposed to find magic solutions to cure others....this was the impression I had given to my past grade school teachers...who had their mind set that I was the one who have achieved so much..only to find out at the end that I have nothing accomplished. Of course, I am content with life, but is being content enough? What about my dreams? What about my goals? What about myself? Do I always have to please other before me? I am a strong believer that if you only try, anything can be achieve. We can only hope that one day, our dreams is not far from where we are. That hope is the hope that we longed for...
Pictures time....
Amit's 25th B-day!! yeaaaa join the beautiful stage..you are finally a quarter of a century old.......
The group at Cheesecake Factory! Look at my food....yummmmmmmm..Tim~why do you look so pale like a shrimp...hahaha jk.
Don't asks me why I am in a beautiful red jacket...just came out of work...muahhhahaha...only if you see my shoes...
MARK'S 25th B-day....Where is Mark...wait...hahaha I have to update pix from my camera....but enjoy yourself with a pix of Bo, Hanna and I partying it up for Mark..soooo HOT!!! good thing nobody got the bottom part of my dress...HOT HOT HOT! Hanna...told you to get the dress....HOT!
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| Is this going to be A-DAY?This weekend was A-Weekend...hahaha Finally after years of not visiting the Capital Hill...I went to the United States Botanical Garden. The humidity was amazing....sarcastically laughing. On a beautiful day, I would love to sit in the sun and watch the beautiful palm tree. I just realized that DC is beautiful!!!! What a great place to go to! I say we call a trip to DC. The best part are the different museums. I can't recall a time where I've actually visited the museums on my own. The only times that I actually go is if we were going on a school field trip or for a school project. I got some nice pictures!
One of our friends apparently decides to gchat me this wonderful message "oh we're not done here malina" as though there's something going on. Interesting huh? hahahahaha. It's like "hello I am absolutely mad at you." WEIRDO!!!
I am hoping for an A-day and A-Week! hahaha Tim this is great...I would just love it if I could rate everything in life. I should just give everything "A"...makes the mood swing from a "BLAB. LIFE SUCKS"" to a "YEAH. LIFE"S GREAT" hahahaha
Oh today is not going to be a very nice day. I feel like every rainy days just makes me upset or my mood just doesn't float the boat. Tomorrow is supposed to be another eeeeky day!=(
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| Endless NightSomehow and somewhere out in the darkness sky. I see no joy. I feel no pain. I am at the place I had dreams of. Place where colorful birds and butterflies soar through the endless blue sky. How I wonder, I got here...I have no clue....
Pleaseeeee give me a break...you thought that I was going to write something great. Nowaday, you no longer have to have perfect mechanic/grammer so why should I waste my time thinking of smart thoughts to jog down. I wish I have the ability to write poems...hahaha speaking of which I had found a poem about ice cream that I had written back in middle school. I should post it huh?
Yesterday as I was meeting with a parent about their financial situation. A beautiful squirrel suddenly jumped on my window and started crawling around. The dad startled..that made my day. Not that I want him to have a heart attack, but secretly I thought that it was the funniest thing. haha I loved it!
Unfortunately, saving is my weakest link. For some odd reasons, I can not save my money. Well I can, but I just don't do it. I feel like what is there to life if you can not treat yourself to things that you want in life. Why would one work, work and work but no play. You should asks Eric. He would be an expert at it. I told him, he can save because I'll help him spend it. hahaha. Really though, I don't even like spending other people money besides my parents. They are my golden bank. =) muahhhahaha jkjk
School? I have carefully weighed out my options about life...I will go back to school. How many times have I said this in the past few months. I have no idea. The issue here is that I believe I have developed "ADD". If you don't know, it's Attention-Deficit Disorder, a brain disorder where you can not sustain focus. I honestly can not stay in one place to focus and just do the studying. I find myself surrendered by multiple types of distractions. GMAT-please you are overrated. I was I could consider myself as an international student. I would be golden. They should not discriminate against the criteria used for admittence...jkjk. I honestly have no idea where my brain cells are. Somehow I can not do simple math problems, nor could I read the brief story.
Why you asks me am I writing in multiple paragraphs? Per Tim requests, perhaps he is experiencing ADD as well. If you have a problem and can not figure out what it is that you are experiencing, just give it a name. Make up something, for those days you don't need a mad scientist to come up with the names of disorders, diseases, etc. You too can easily be a mad scientist. Tim~ I have officially added you to my black list. What did you call me? please speak to the hand...no pix for you. Why don't you ever post any pictures of yourself. Don't be demanding.
Hanna~ You have officially scared the heck out of me with your lovey dovey entries of forever being in love with Mr. MARK PAK. I can feel the love in the air......I am absolutely happy for you. I knew it was going to work out. Give me five stars! OMG....this is a whole new HANNA!!! What is going on? Bless my heart. Why don't I feel the same huh? hahahahaha I need to be more romantic... I was shocked when I read the post, but at the same times....my heart is telling me "someone is in love"....just the thoughts itself makes me feel happy. It's like there a hole in my heart. hahahahehehe
Guess who is always online late at night? My only friend Susan...hahaha anytime when I can not sleep..just come online and ms. never sleep Susan is always online. I have no idea what she is doing, hopefully working real hard on her PHD dissertation! I soon can refer you as DR.LEE yupieyup  unlike me...continuously reading randoms stories or shopping online for no particular reasons.
Did I do ok Mr. YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE? hahahahahaha
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| Friends are like BrasWhat exciting stuff happened over the weekend? Well let see, this past weekend is the Cambodian New Year. I went to the Cambodian Temple and Thai Temple. Had a great time basically standing around not knowing anyone except for my parent's friends who for some reasons think that I am such a good "cambodian girl"....hahahaha needless to say, they have no idea what they are saying just b/c they see me as a "good" person b/c I say "Hi" to them in a polite way. On top, they think that I am sooo smart....hahaha which is not true.
Speaking of smartness, Eric is pissed at me b/c he said that I am not using my skills...that I am lazy and I don't care about things, I need to get moving with my motivations and my ability to do better  Also that I am only good to look at but not very functional...get your dirty mind off the gutter..but isn't that crazy? hahaha You know what I say...oh please give me a break and just laugh...hahahaha It's pretty bad huh? hahaha but I actually don't really care! hahaha He said that I am so smart but I just don't realized it.....Speak to the hands...hahaha and also I told him that our kids going to have "HENG" as their last name. hahaha Also he want me to go to Pharmacy School as it is my dreams....hahaha. I told him that I am going to stay home and sleep while he have to work! hahahaha I am sure he loved that answer.
Anyhow....GUESS what I did? OMG....I am soooo update...i literally cut off my beautiful eyelashes over the weekend while using the stupid eyelashes curler! I am soo upset. You have no idea, my eyelashes are long and beautiful with my chinese eyes!! Ahhhhhhhh NO MORE MAKE UP FOR ME!!!!!!
soooo the title: Friends are like bras: Isn't this an interesting quote? hahaha maybe that's why I love to stock up on the VS bras. Someone said that they are close to your heart and are there to support you. hahaha pretty funny and interesting....
Alright i am getting really boring lately.
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