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my mom and I just got home from what was supposed to be a quick, fun trip.
bless her heart, my mother is the most flexible, giving person with her time. she agreed to go with me overnight for a job interview that was happening this morning. after rearranging her friday work schedule, and graciously offering to pay for gas and hotel accomodations we were set to go and i was really looking forward to the quick little getaway.
enter friday morning: i slept in just b/c it so rarely happens and, well, i just could. i had put a lot of things on my to-do list before our early afternoon departure, but at 7 am sleep just sounded better. as it usually ends up happening, as soon i as woke up and saw the clock i was mad at myself for turning my alarm off, realizing at this point i couldn't get half of that stuff done i wanted to. oh well.
here's where it gets awkwardly (grotesquely?) personal.
first thing i do every morning is go to the bathroom...i'm guessing most people do that 
so i was doing my normal morning business when the pain in my abdomen started. it's "that time of the month" so i dismiss it as nothing more than cramps and try to go about my day. but within five minutes i'm doubled over on the bathroom floor and very naseous. i try to throw up hoping that will help me feel better...nope. the pain gets more intense and i'm suddenly very very hot. truly thinking i have some kind of stomach bug i just keep pressing my face on the cold tiles next to the toilet (ew! even though my bathroom is very clean) and start praying to God to take the pain away. i'm not even sure how much time passed, but eventually i managed to crawl to the phone and dial my mother. i could barely speak, but i did say something about loosing a lot of blood which i thought was why my skin (seeing only my hands/arms which were colorless) was so pale. i was shaking/convulsing uncontrollably and screaming (mmm...great visual huh?) because honestly, i would've rather died than been in that much pain! i was kind of hoping i would pass out...anything at that point would've been superior to feeling like i was dying. thankfully my mom works about one minute away from home so she was there in an instant and convinced me i needed to go to the emergency room.
despite the pain i felt, i was seeing ($) dollar signs since i'm without insurance and told my mom i'd be okay. i think i looked pretty terrible b/c she must've been extremely worried to force (carry) me to the car and into the ER. at some point i did catch a glimpse of my face in the mirror...white as a sheet with black holes where my eyes are supposed to be (ewwww!)
by the time i was wheeled into the hospital the worst of the pain was gone, but i still couldn't walk. after many tests and much waiting, the doctor informed me that a cyst on my ovary had ruptured. he said it could be the first and last ovarian cyst i have, or it may not be. he also confirmed my belief that the pain is as bad, if not worse than labor pains (not that i would know or could fully sympathize with you brave women who have experienced that!) thankfully it was much shorter than labor. not all women who experience this kind of thing have it happen so rapidly so i feel blessed that it was over within a few hours.
my parents told me i'd be staying home that night, but i said "um, no. i'm going to that interview as long the doctor gives permission." which thankfully he did, along with a perscription for some pain killers 
so with orders to stay off my feet, my mom and i began our three and a half hour trip. about an hour into the trip a horrible banging noise was coming from the back of the car...and then it moved to the middle of the car...and then to the front. it was on the passenger side so i kept looking in my side mirror to see something and all of the sudden i notice this huge strip flailing off the roof of the car. we stopped and i ripped the thing entirely off, i'm still just hoping it wasn't anything terribly important!
on to the hotel...which was GINORMOUS! and required waaay too much walking on my part. having not slept in the car i fell into bed exhausted and very sore and proceeded to have the normal anxiety (nightmarish) dreams i have before important things such as interviews. i arrived at the interview only to discover that the staff had a glitch in their organization and couldn't interview me today as originally planned. so i spent an hour simply listening to a presentation on the company (most of which i knew) and asking a few questions. MAJOR bummer.
my mom decided we should do something "fun" which meant touring an amazing 110 year old mansion...which also meant alot of standing around which i uncomfortably tolerated. it was amazing to see this house, but by the end i wanted my pillow and blanket and a nice warm seat. which i didn't get.
instead, i agreed to drive, and about an hour into our trip home i notice mom snoozing. i'm about to ask her if she wants a pillow when i notice that my pillow is not in the back seat. this induces a freak out from me, because that blanket i mentioned earlier is stuffed in my pillow case, and (go ahead, laugh at me. i'm 22, and i seriously have no shame about this) is my baby blanket that i CANNOT sleep without!!! at that moment of realization i slammed on the brakes, waking my mom up and frantically asking that the hotel be called right away. visions of my favorite pillow and irreplaceable blanket in a dumpster were running through my head. 
we pulled off in case we needed to go back to the hotel to retrieve the precious items and filled up the car. but when i began driving again, an ear-splitting screech came from the front of the car, which made me turn into the nearest parking lot, which happened to be a car dealership, which ironically (or providentially) is the other "branch" of the dealership from which my parents bought the car just a month ago.
within an hour we were back on the road with a rental car (sadly the "shop" was closed) and after many phone calls between us and the hotel, the blanket and pillow were located and promised to be shipped ASAP!
we did get lost once on our way home. i was feeling deliriously tired from everything had had happened in the last 24 hours and missed an exit. so an extra two and a half hours later we finally made it home! the only place i have wanted to be since yesterday morning was in my very own bed, which sadly, tonight won't be quite the same, but is still amazing nonetheless.
as i kept wondering if anything else could possibly go wrong, God reminded me that these silly problems we experienced are so temporary and superficial compared to what some people deal with on a daily basis. nobody died. we still (mostly) have our health. and more than that, we're fortunate enough to be able to afford to fix all these problems.
i feel so incredibly blessed that i could even take that 3 hour trip and have the opportunity to interview with that company. i'm so thankful i have a warm house to come home to, a job i will go to tomorrow, and so many other material things that others only dream of having.
it's amazing what it takes for everything to be in perspective. so tonight i'm thanking the Lord for the good, the bad, even the extremely annoying stuff that happened this weekend.
| | | Posted 1/26/2008 10:50 PM - 1 comments
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