January 1, 2007

Mama's Pride

You just have to go to my youngest son Eric's website, you can go to my subscriptions & click throneroomlush or go to throneroomlush.blogspot.com and then click on his 'myspace for music'. I promise you will get uplifted.

Listen to "Change". I just can't get enough of it! "Strangely I Find" gives me such comfort. The other two is all about praise.

I want to publicly thank God for giving me both of my children. Each special and unique in their own way. I am so very very blessed!

Thank you sweet Jesus!

Think I'll let God 'watch my back'

Ya know, I read other peoples online journals, and they always seem to have so much wisdom to share, so much going on in their lives. And I sit here, trying to think of something, anything, to be of interest to someone else, or what has been going on with me. I am blank! Is this what it is to have writers block? Or is my life really that simple? Boring? Uneventful? I have been doing a lot of service work lately with AA. Is that why I feel at peace? Is God saying, "It's ok to rest for awhile. Enjoy the serenity" Oh now don't get me wrong,  I get up and go to work everyday. I take peoples bulldoodoo. I get mad and then I learn tolerance. One thing I have learned this month is, if someone does not want your help, stop giving it. Now this is not a recovery person, this is someone who is supposedly 'normal'. I got stabbed in the back, and it took me by surprise. So that was a lesson learned. Sometimes it is better not to get involved, just to keep your sanity. You can't please all the time. You hear about watching your back? Well, some people can turn their heads completely around and will not take any kind of responsibility for their behavior. Ugly, sarcastic, mean-spirited, disrespectful. Lord please never allow me to behave that way. I want to stay reasonably sweet. My heart feels good, I feel good in my own skin. Today, I have no regrets about how I have behaved, or what I have said. Now notice I said today! Linda willing, I will feel the same way tomorrow. And in closing, my favorite words from the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, "There is no more aloneness, with that awful ache..."

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Feeling content today........... not a bad feeling........

Gee whiz......... it has been so long since I have posted I feel guilty for taking up this space!!. But I do have some things to share. I have been busy. Kinda, but not really! I have discovered the world of on line recovery. I haven't had a real home group since I have came to Florida. I have been blessed to work in the field of recovery and have some wonderful co-workers who are in recovery also. I see so much everyday and am thankful for my sobriety. I know why I work where I do. God put me there. I have seen so many changes in the people I work with and there is a serenity about the place(well at this moment anyway).

I don't know if this is the calm before the storm or not, but I feel peaceful. My family and children seem to be doing well. I am able to pay my bills. I have someone back in my life that is seeking recovery again. So far he is doing ok. But I am ever so watchful. And will continue to be. It's not anything I am suspicious about, just about learning and keeping an eye on the mistakes I have made before. But anyway, his sobriety is his deal. Mine is mine. I have learned not to let anyone mess with mine. You just don't go there with me. If so... you're out. Plain and simple. I gotta keep it simple. To much distraction takes my focus off of what is important. God, sobriety, family. So it's ok to make mistakes, but learn from them. Ha.... that is so much easier said than done.

So I think I will take the serenity God has given me today and enjoy it. Play around the house. Be grateful for what I have. Keep positive. Don't let anyone rent any space in my head. To thine own self be true.

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