for the last 2 weeks.......

so school started like a month ago and i'm already getting burnt out. dang i never knew college was like this. haha. i was thinking about just going back to the marines full time jkjk. i understand now about what my sisters and friends were going through while i was on my 6 months vacation. haha. too bad all my friends are now a year ahead of me. yup lucky butts. anyways yea so Bryant and katherine came down from san jose to visit freddie down in irvine and that was pretty fun time. shoot haha especially when esther couldn't remember who her boyfriend was. "esther whose your boyfriend" esther says "charles" haha. anyways yea too bad i had to go back to base that night. THANK YOU bryant shoot i owe this guy a lot for waking me up that morning to go to base shoot. if it wasn't for him man i would have never woken up. haha. yea got to know bryant and katherine a lot more and spend some time with my best buddies and their girlfriends. again i am the fifth wheel. haha. yea so going back to base sucked its pretty hard going back when you live in the civilian world for a month and then become a military man again. ahhhhhh. 4 years and  months still counting down. yup.. so i've been thinking and i've decided to move out next year somewhere closer to cal state fullerton so if there is anybody that has a open apartment contact me asap. other news i have a freaking exam for history on tuesday and i'm pretty confident for the first time on it so if you guys can pray for me that'll be awesome.

SHOOT in one month in a half i have the marine formal. ahhh. its in vegas.. too bad i'm not 21 haha. shoot two more freaking years. ahhh. can't wait. right when i turn 21 its vegas time. hahaha. anyways yea. gotta find a date now. haha.anyways lets see how long this will last me writing in my xanga. trying to keep alive. well i'm out's. payce.

p.s i only write in this because i'm freaking bored. and freddie's gone to SAN JOSE.

sooo.... lets talk about life. i mean what is life. i feel like a jerry maguire movie writing a memo or what he would say a job statement but yea. i've been realizing lately i mean what is life. can anyone plz explain to me that. is life like something we just have to through day by day and just live the same routine over and over. i mean everyday the same thing happens wake up, go to work, come back watch tv and then go back to sleep do the same thing again. i mean i'm curious what else in life is there. too live in this world you need money and importantly the man upstairs but i mean honestly is money that important i tell myself. yeayea you guys who are reading this are probably being like what the heck is Matt talking about so this is a memo to myself to keep myself in check cause honestly i think i'm going through mid life crisis. what my friends told me was rite i mean i am filed in my taxes on independent but i still act like i'm dependent i mean if i'm so independent why am i living at home?

yea. i mean what do i want to do with my life. today i went to a one year birthday thing for my nuna and hyung's kid NOAH. but i realize something when i saw my hyung (James) with his uniform on. and i said to myself damn those ranks look good cause he's a captain and all i am is a E-3 which is pretty low. and then i came home and watched annapolis this naval academy movie and i stil thinking at 1 in the morning what do i want to do with my life i mean honestly do i want to be in the military all my life. don't get me wrong i love corps and always will OORAH! but i mean is this what i really want or do i want to be a business man going internationally i just don't know. yea. anyways i better just pray about it.

at work........

wat a great day it is for a car wash...... i haven't washed my car in ages it's like the dirtest it can ever be i mean its BEYOONNNDDD dirty. well after work today i think i have to stop by the tint shop and get a estimate on how much my car re-tiniting is gonna be. oh yea i got new rims on my car it looks pretty dang SEXY!! yea i think i'm going to smog the back lights but i think that's the last thing i'm going to do with my car. i mean thinking about it i put too much money into that car. after seeing my middle sister's balance in her back i felt REALLY poor and i always thought i had more money then her but man she proved me wrong by $1500 more then me.

my sisters are always obsessed with them buying me clothes and then trying it on for like 4 times that day alone. i mean i tried it on for one sister and then when i take them off my other sister comes and say put it on. and thats not all after that when both of them saw me in those pants individually when they're together they tell me to wear it again and after that they tell me to go downstairs and show my mom i was like to myself "OMG ITS JUST GOLF PANTS" AHHHHHHHH

NOW at work.. the only thing i do at work is computer graphics stuff nothing really big just minor touches here and there but not that big on the website hey if you need to buy any wigs haha come to my site www.WOWWIGs.com yupyup. i LOVE THIS JOB!!! on the other hand i have to return back to base tomorrow for training. i mean all we do now is like inventory work. its like no point of driving an hour and going their to write down numbers all day long. i mean yea its koo cause we get our hotel rooms and stuff but i mean come on wat a waste of two days of my life. ahhhh. oh well thats the military for you.

COLLEGE is starting in august. i feel so stupid cause i'm a year behind all my friends. stupid military drop me back a whole year i mean i could have went to school in the winter but man i would have done a lot catching up to do. sor tof nervous about college i mean come on i haven't went to school in almost a year.i don't think i even picked up a book in almost a year. i mean i'm working full time rite now making more money then a average 19 year old would and i pay taxes more then anyone cause of the military AHHHHH!!!! screw taxes!!!!!!

back to work... LATERS