what a rainy shitty day!

so things are going pretty good except for the fact that i haven't slept in 2 days. for some reason i just can't seem to fall asleep. i have a minor cold too which might be part of the problem. i think i'm gonna take some nyquil 2night. anyway.. today is day 2 of my aderol binge. i haven't eaten anything the past 2 days and plan to make it 3 after today. i'll let ya all know how it's goin tonight when i edit my entry. i'll also be posting some awsome thinspo tonight. luv ya everyone and stay strong.

well hello everyone!

it has been way too long since i've written and kept up my xanga site. i guess today is the best time as any to turn my frequent absence around. so i've been doing really good with my low food intake. i haven't eaten any bread or pasta in i don't know how long. so to start at the beginning: last year i drank way too much at college and ended up gaining a lot of weight. at the beginning of the summer i weighed 155lb's. during the summer i lost 10lb's and by the time i returned to school, i was down to 145lb's. for some reason i've been stuck and am having a hard time dropping as much weight as i would have liked this semester. i'm down to 138lb's as of now, but i can't get down to 130lb's as fast as i wanted. the scale has not dropped lower than 137lb's in the past month and it's really pissing me off. i barely eat anything and if i do it's just salad and not very much at that. i think that it must be liquid weight. i'm gonna go on a liquid diet: just coffee, energy drinks, and water for a good 10 days and then get those diurex that gets rid of all your water weight. after that i hope to be down to 130lb's. after that's done hopefully i'll have gotten my clen in the mail and i can start taking that to drop another 20lb's in 2 weeks. i'm also going to be transfering to Lyndon state college for next semester so i'll be running around non stop. i wont even have time to eat. the only thing i'll make room for besides school is excercise. i want to start going to the gym everyday for at least an hour. i'm gonna start going to the gym every morning before i head to class, so it'll be done and it will give me the motivation to not eat. i mean what's the point of going to the gym and burning calories and then eating all the calories it took you so much effort to burn throughout the day. it's a vicious cycle that i won't go through. i need to just work out and then not eat. that's the only way to lose weight. once i start working out the weight will just fall off. that's how it works for me. i can eat hardly anything and the weight doesn't come off until i work-out. that's just how my body works i guess-unfortunatly. my body is so stubborn. i think i'm going to start practicing for basketball season this summer so i'll be able to play next basketball season at my new school. that will keep me toned. it will also keep my another work-out that won't really seem like i'm working out because basketball is fun. time flies when i'm playing b-ball. my thyroid apt is january 17th and i need to be down to 110lb's by then. it's a must. my last apt i weighed in at 145lb's and my doctor told me not to lose anymore wieght. she'll be so shocked when i get on the scale and weigh 110lb's at 5'6. i need to lose all this ugly fat by then otherwise i'll be so mad at myself. it's been my goal since summer and if i don't reach my goal i'll be the fattest failure in the world. so anyway i'll be posting my progress daily from now on. i'm gonna start getting shit right from now on, staying focused and hopefully losing a shitload of weight. wish me luck girls.

luv ya all, and hope everyone's doing well.  

so i did a little cocaine last night, and this morning i weighed myself, and i had lost about 4 pounds. how crazy is that. and getting the clen wasn't as easy a process as i thought it was going to be. i'm determined to get it, so i'll do anything. anyway gotta go, cause my roomate jsut saw what i was writing. snoopy bitch!

i'll write lata

luv everyone

ok i'm back. i've been going through some personal and family struggles. it's hard, but hell that's life. right now i weigh 140lb. i know completely gross...i know....i know... anyway so i have a pretty good plan this time. have any of you heard of clenbuterol? well i'm gonna give it a try. i'm going to order it today and it should get here in about 7-10 days. i hope to get down to 135lb-130lb's by the time it gets here. i'll be doing 2 week cycles, and should lose about 15-20lbs in 2 weeks. after the cycle ends i'll be fasting for 2 weeks so i don't gain any weight back. i hope to be down to about 100 lb's by christmas break. everyone will be shocked. i will have finally reached my goal of 100lb's. i just can't wait. i also will be excdercising a lot during the 2 week cycle to lose even more weight. it will give me a lot of energy so that won't be hard. i think i'm going to do some cocaine this week to make sure i lose those 10lb's before the clen comes. oh the things i do to lose weight. it's stupid but i have to do it. i need to.

well here's some thinspo: enjoy!

she's amazing

i'm back at school yay!! not! well things are going good anyway, i've been eating a minimal amount of food for a while. i haven't touched bread or pasta in about a month. and i went from being 158lb when the semester ended last year to being 140lb now. i hope to get down to 100lb by the time i go home for christmas break. i think it's possible. anything is possible if you put your mind, body and soul into it! well thats my corky interpretation of the situation anyway. i want to go home for break and have everyone be like, "wow what happened to krystle, she lost so much weight. if i can't get to 10lb i at least hope to get down to 112lb like ashley simpson. i think i can if i focus. i don't even know if i'll play rugby or not. i prob wont have the energy. oh well, my weight is way more important to me than rugby. sad but true.

now for some thinspo;