| Hey! I haven't used this thing in such a long time. I decided to come back online after i found out one of my passwords were changed and it seemed like a Koosh password, so I decided to make sure my xanga password wasn't changed too.
I found my brother Matt's xanga, and I really do miss him. And everybody says I'm turning into him, because our house is a hell hole, and I want to get my damn so called mother to clean up the so called house and have a clean house for the little ones (aka little siblings) to grow up in. I can't wait till I can get out of this place! My goal is to get into UCLA and get the hell out of here, and then when I have a life, with a family, A GOOD ONE!, and have money, and a good car, and everything that my family never had, then I'm going to laugh it up in Virginia's (the person who happend to give birth to me) face, or her grave, whatever happends to that devil's little helper! Yeah, everything is hell over here! So I can't wait till I get out of here! And thanks to Koosh, its somewhat bareable to be living here. But hey, God's purpose for her being my mother, is that, I KNOW WHAT NOT TO BE WHEN I GROW UP! That's something I'll be greatful for, but damn, I hate living here, every single second! And tomorrow, I'm going to get her to clean up, or else, I'll kick her ass to tim-buck-too with our free loading aunt, our cheating ass uncles, and with all of them black niggas at Muir who are retarded that if you can't cheat off the Asian girl, you throw a tantrum, and if you can hit on the Asian girl, then she obviously hates you cuz she's racist! NO! YOU GUYS JUST SEEM TO ACT THE SAME DAMN WAY AROUND ME AND YOU ACT LIKE FUCKING ASSHOLES! FUCK YOU! But if she doesn't I'm going to throw things out myself!
School, well, seniors have been really nice to me, and I've made a bunch of friends, and found out that a lot of the time, the freshmen are uber-gay! So I found out that I fit better with the older kids, but a lot of the time they only see me as a freshman, so I'm stuck. Yeah, such a stupid world we all call high school! I've made a best friend, I call him Koosh, but his real name is Christian. So its cool! I'm going to try out for concert mistress and I'm a shoe in, and knowing how I play, that's pretty sad, lol! Mr. Bonilla, my Algebra 2 teacher, (yess I'm a year ahead in math), he's gay! We learn absolutely nothing! So if I get a low number on my CST for math, we all know why!
The orchestra and jazz band trip to San Fransisco was cool though! I had a lot of fun! Except the boys were always in my room! We made a joke saying that they only came for me, cuz every single time they came, I was always in the room, and it was funny! Yeah, that trip, I'll never ever forget!
Church has been okay I guess....Michelle and I went to the mall and got my ears pierced and they're healed now. We went on a snow trip to this cabin, and the people I invited were Nick L., his little brother Chris, and Koosh. That trip I'll never ever forget cuz that was the most fun I ever had! I can't wait till we go back! Renn has been doing well and has also helped with my little, (well its not little but anyways....), problem with home. I ran away a few times, and had some melt downs, and found out my cousin Ashley is goinbg to be living with us soon, and GRRRRRR! I'm going to kill that son-of-a-bitch we deny as our mother. But yeah, and we just came bac from the beach at dana point with the youth group and family fellowship with the thanks of letting us use their getaway house by Auntie Tammy.
My love life? Well, Asian's never talk about our love life! LOL! Except I don't have one....lol! Is she lieing? Is she telling the truth? Who knows? Well alot of people know....lol....JK! Okay, well, I invite some of my friends to church, or we HAVE to stop by the house or anything right? And my mom gets mad becuase she hates them, because they are usually guys....But is I were to date one, she'd hate them because they aren't Asian! OMG! LET ME RUN MY LIFE YOU DAMN ASS! (Going back to mother dear) I'm sorry for talking about my mother, but apparently, she's a bitch, and no judging me before you've met her! Mary-Kate had to be alone with her for a car ride, and after 30 seconds she hated it! I wouldn't blame her!
She's watches Three's Company every single night, and these damn walls are paper thin, and you can hear the theme song, over and over again which means the dvd is over and is at the menu screen, but if you go over there to turn it off, she wakes up and yells at you saying that she was watching that, but clearly she was asleep! Things are hell over here, and I really do miss my brother Matt. I say Matt now cuz no one knows who I'm talking about until I say Matt instead of Matthew. I know he hates it when I say Matt, but I'm sorry. I never realy got to know the guy, but maybe someday I will, but until then I am forever going to be wishing he was here. But long story short, I'm turning into him, Andrew thinks thats a bad thing, but I think thats pretty cool....I mean, I admire my big brother so much, and know what he had to go through, yeah, he's a person a lot people should look up to. LOL! Koosh is kind of like him as well, its funny.... But yeah....I'll talk tomorrow....Now, its time to catch some Z's, because I haven't been able to sleep a good sleep in the last few weeks.... |
