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My New Goal In Life Is To Be Nice To Every One. No Matter What! (hmm i wounder why my font and color are doing this, it like matches my site...haha thats awsome. Okay im done..lol)   

So yeah im going to update real quick cuz people keep tlaking to me and IMing me and there like omg blah blah blah.. i mean i really arpiciate that you ataully took time to read wat i had to say, and its awsome to know that i have so many friends out that actually care about me..lol but yeah i just want to say that im like not relaly all that depressed like that. i came home and wrote that just after i got oput of the fight so i was a little angry but a half and hour later i was fine..lol well as meli would say i was just having a mood swing haha.. but yeah just wanted to let every one know that im not like all sad and stuff but im not like omg so happy either but yeah im just like w.e rite now.. well yeah -ben

UGH!!! i just got home from band practice and i got into another fight with my parents. well mostly my mom (my whole like has been one big fight we my dad) its seems like we get into a huge screaming argument everyday this week. Im So freakin stressed out for some reason latly and it sux. and its seems like my head aches are gettin whores and like my sinthotumer thing is like comming back so yeah. im stessed about that ot cuz i dont really want to go back to the hospital. and im sick like all the time now.  and im like extremely tired all the time now..and i can barly stay awaks in some of my classes so i dont even know wat im going to do. and like i worry about every little thing like wat popel think of me or wat am i oging to do next or wat will i say to  some one  or wat am i going to do.stupid stuff and its starting to kill me, all the stress it gettin to me and i cant take it ne more. i feel like just killin myself rite now so thats all my problems will all just end and go away..ugh