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Name: Bryan
Country: United States
State: Oklahoma
Metro: Stillwater
Gender: Male
Interests: God, Philosophy, Ancient History, Psychology, Women, Religion, Meaning of Life, and Peanut Butter.
Expertise: ...I know something about a lot of things...oh oh...I'm really really good at BSing and and...I can usually have a come back to anything you say to me...its a gift really.
Occupation: Sales
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Yahoo:  bryan_maeen
Member Since:
2/25/2006
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| I want you all to know...I love you.I don't know who will all read this, nor do I know when. But I want to say a few things. I've been overwhelmed by how much can change and how much will change. Maybe not for everyone, but for me. My heart has become burdened with the need to leave and the possibility of losing all that I love. I have grown to love everyone I have met and shared my life with this past 2 years. When I say I've grown to love you all, I mean I've never known love till I've met and experienced it will all of you. I've grown and I've matured...I look at life with new eyes and look back on what has shaped me. I'm forced to look at the fragility of life as all that I know will be changing. I'm not writing this note with sadness, though sadness is on my heart, but with awe and with a bit of warmth. All things must change. Be it friends, family, pain, happiness, good times and bad. Nothing is for sure, except that.
Reflecting on the past 2 years, I remember good times with friends...countless hours of screaming curses at the halo gods for not favoring me at the time...priceless hours of sitting back with a good friend by your side and a good pipe in your hand...watching as our numbers grew and seeing the hearts of us all grow with each person. I can still smell every cooking, drinking, or smoking experiment. I remember the first awkward time a fat, Baptist stepped in front of the Holy Eucaris. Pain still feels my heart when those I've lost come to mind. Joy covers me like a blanket when I think of all the debates and talks we had...frustration creeps in when I think of how many of those I lost...I can keep sadness from my soul as I laugh over all the dumb things that we did, we wanted to do, and what we almost did...I could dance alone for hours to the music that filled this house...the talent is impressive by any standard. I grin at how this house of bachelors became a match making clinic and most of my brothers found love and someone to share a movie with. And though we have not all been together at one place, at one time in such a time...I still feel connected to all of you. And even as I type this, the knowledge that I won't see most of you for too long to mention, I'm comforted to know that no matter what changes, I have a country of brothers and sisters to come home to. That this love and this family was forged from the One who is above all change.
I want you all to know...I love you. Where ever I may lay my head at night, there, you too, will find a home.
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| Blah...YAY...Blah...YAYSo today has had its ups and downs. This weekend went good, had some good time with my dad and sister and my sick little niece. But I didn't get to see my ma...but its all good, I'm sure I'll see her sometime in the near future. But the weird thing is, this weekend life came a knocking on my door and everything just seems to have gotten to real...you know. Its like I've known I would be done with my B.A. next semester, but now that I enrolled and I'm talking to a bunch of grad. students...life is at my feet and the reality of it all it sinking in. I'm not really worried per say...not anymore than I think is reasonable...I'm more or less just in awe of it all and a little apprehensive. I like where I'm at now...I like my friends...I'm falling more more for Kathryn everytime I'm with her...I'm not ready to move on, but I really am at the same time. I'm ready to go to the Peace Corps...I'm ready to go to grad. school. But when I come back from Peace Corps, I'm not really sure I'll be moving back to Oklahoma...if I get the GRE scores I want...and I get scholarships, I'm going to try to go to a much better grad. school. I'm thinking California...then I'll have to move whereever my job takes me. So crazy. Then today, I wake up...hit my alarm...hit the wrong button...woke up at 11:30am...so I start cleaning my room...ups and downs man...I'm really bumed I missed my classes, but I'm really proud of myself that I've got a huge part of my room clean...its makes it easier to breath. I dunno...I'm not really in a sad mood, but I guess it sounds like I am. I guess I'm just really sobering up from the dream I've been living...because, it really has been just so much fun, with so many amazing people that I never want to lose contact with. Just one step at a time. Lets finish this semester first, then I'll worry about my life... | | |
| A Theological RantI started a conversation on Fall Break while we were at Andy's aunt and uncle's home. I had asked a simple, yet very difficult, question. I asked "Who raised Jesus from the grave...God or Jesus?" In this 10 minute talk, I mad two people upset and they didn't let me finish what I was saying...so I'm going to finish it now because it did and still does bother me that it wasn't finished...so if you don't like things like this, then don't read it, if you do read it all the way through, please leave a post on what you think.
So...why do I even bother with such things...two reasons...one, it makes a huge difference in the consept of who Christ is...in that one way you would have to believe him to be a simple prophet where as the other way you have to see him as God. The second reason is that I really really love talking about deep theology and its hard for me to find time and a willing person to talk about these things.
Ok, so first off I have to talk about the trinity. The first, and most natural thing to say to this question is that it doesn't matter...for they are one and the same. This is true and I'll never argue against this...however, it is extremely important to realize how they are one and to realize that they are seperate as well. There is God the Father...God the Son...and God the Holy Spirit. They are all one, but they are all seperate. This is important to understand, because the trinity is much more complicated than.."They are all the same thing"...if they were all the same thing, then why do we even have the trinity...Even Jesus says you should pray to your Father in Heaven...why doesn't he just simply say...You should pray to me like this. Because they are different. Its like your foot, your hand, and your head. They are all apart of you. But they are so very different. If I asked you...what walks you...your feet or your hands...would you say...it doesn't matter..its all me...no...you would say my feet...because its a different from the others, yet it is still the same. They are held together the same way that God, Jesus, and the Spirit are...Jesus, God and the Spirit are unified by Purpose, Character, and Will. If you think about it...thats amazing to say this...that the three are perfectly unified in Purpose, Character and Will...thats impossible to understand. Because it is impossible for humans to be this way. Even couples that have been together for 50 years still are not perfectly unified in Purpose, Character, or Will. All religions with multiple gods don't even have this perfect unity. Why is this important to talk about..because...You have three distincted beings, with different roles, but are so perfectly united in purpose, character and will that they act as one and are one. So to ask, who raised Jesus, Jesus or God? Is not a question against the trinity...its a legitamet question.
So the question and why it is important. Like I stated earlier, depending on how you answer this question, depends on how your logic will follow. If you answer that God raised him...then you are saying Jesus has no control over life or death...for he couldn't even raise himself from the grave and therefor, he is just a really good prophet...Muslim and Mormans are right. Why do I say this? Simple...God is Jesus...yes...but God is not Jesus...that is the mystery of the Trinity. The little girl Jesus brought back from the dead...why do we not worship her? Or Lazarus...why is he not are God of choice? Because they have no power over life or death...they were brought back by someone else...they have no control over the chains of death. However when you say Jesus raised himself, you are now Saying Jesus is God and that Death has no control over him. This is why he is the one who holds our salvation...he is the one we pray to for give us eternal life. For he is the one who has control over life and death. This is why I like this question...its a question about the Trinity and of our salvation. Christianity is so much more complicated that simple yes no answers...there are really only a few questions in Christian theology that one can answer yes or no...like Is Jesus God...yes...Did He die on the cross, rise three days later, and is the giver of eternal life...YES! Amen! SAAAAAAAVVVVEEEEEDDD!! BY THE BLOOD OF THE LAMB!!!...sorry...its a song...a really fun song.
Anyway...I'm pretty much done with my rant...thank you for reading all the way through this...please write a respondence if you like on your thoughts.
Peace, Love and Chicken! | | |
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| It's been a while...Its been a long while since I've updated...I feel like a Peanut now. Weird. Anyway. So lets start off with just the basics...I'm not being a good student. Been missing too much class...need to study, but once again I find myself not doing so...not much has changed from last semester other than having 4 roommates...which all rock my face off...and I met Kathryn...who is probably one of the most awesomest people I've met in a while. So we have been dating...broke up twice and are still together...so much fun...a really good story to tell. I could write a whole thing, just about her...but I'll spare you all the mushy stuff and just leave what was said, said.
I would also like to rant, if I may, about how to properly order from the drive-thru in a fast food place...like McDonald's for example. Here is a list for you to print off and put in your car so that you may read it right before you order.
1. Please Speak up...it is a walkie talkie system...your car is running and there is a hell of a lot of noise inside the store. So speak up...be heard, without screaming at the person...
2. Be assertive...after all it is your food you are ordering...if they get it wrong, don't be afriad to say something, but...
3. Don't be an Ass...after all they are making your food, and I find it wise not to piss of the ones who are making your food.
4. Be patient...while they are taking your order...they are also taking money...maybe answering a question or two...possibly even changing shifts...so please be patient.
5. Don't mumble...if they can't hear you...then you won't get your food.
6. Have your money ready...everything about "Fast Food" is based on how Fast your Food can get to you...so don't waste our time or the people behind you.
7. Please keep off your phone...it annoys the hell out of us...and makes us not want to help you that much.
8. Please...PLEASE...keep your radio off till you have your food...though you make like it when people talking about slapping some girl's ass...the person taking orders...believe it or not...still has to take orders even after they have your money...so (look at #3)
9. Don't be weird...enough said.
10. Please realize that the world does not revolve around you...and when they change from lunch to breakfast at the same time every day...don't ask if we can still serve you lunch..and even worse...please don't call us names...we have no control over the food...and it makes us want to put the "Special" sauce with your burrito...
Ok I'm done. Sorry...built up rage.
Other than all of that...life is good. It has its tough times and its frustrating times...but its good. I can only thank God for all the joys and all the pains of life, for they all serve a purpose and I'm happy for it all.
One of the more mixed feelings I've been taking in these days is the whole Peace Corps thing. I so much want to be apart of that...its something that my heart is completely in and I know I will be happy there. But can I really leave my Niece for 27 months...what if me and Kathryn get much more serious...could I leave her? There is no answer for these questions...not now anyway...I could drone over it for hours and hours...but I think I'm going to live the now and see what happens by the end of the year. Who knows...maybe the world will end before then..and I won't have to worry about it...lol.
One really good thing lately, I've been putting myself in now habits. These habits have been putting me in a place that keeps my heart more open to God...which I'm liking...its been a while since I've been close to God...it was my own doing...I kept myself from Her...She, like the Divine Mother than She is...has been wanting to hold me...but me, being the annoying 2 year old that I am, pushed Her away...mostly because I'm not getting my own way. I need to keep my heart open. I am a servent of God...and a servent is only as good as he listens to his Master. Enough preaching.
Ok...too long. I'll update later on in life.
Peace, Love, and Chicken.
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