if you saw how much you hurt me.
     you'd never look into my eyes again

The hardest part of walking away

is knowing you'll never come after me. 

here are some messed up sterio types that i have heard that fit me.

I speak my mind so i must be a bitch.

I'm religious, so I must shove my beliefs down your throat

I'm young, so I must do drugs.

I'm wealthy, so I must be a conceited snob.

I wear black occasionally, so I must be a goth or emo.

I'm a cacausian girl, so I must be a nagging, steal-your-money kind of girlfriend.

I fell for a taken guy, so I must be a home-wrecking whore.

I have alot of guy friends, so I must be screwing them all.

if you are a little not so bright... basically what i am saying is... just because i am religious or like a taken guy or hang out with alot of guys... doesn't mean the worst thing possible in the end. look at things from other perspectives. don't judge someone just on what you see... listen to them. get to know them. and then make a judgement.

give people a chance

soo over the last few days... weeks... heck for a while... i have thought alot about my family and life with them and stuff. and i looked threw alot ofmy old family albums.. and i miss my brother and sister alot. most people dont even know i have a sister... but you know what. she's an amazing person same with my brother. shes in the airforce and hes a firefighter... and i miss them. she lives thousands of miles away... and yeah my brother lives with us but hes never home. i don't get to talk to  him really and we don't have much in common anymore. yet i am glad though i can look at these pictures and remember what it was like when i was younger and i had them both around. i love them with everything i got

This is for....

The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check the caller ID the next morning and be disappointed.

The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried
your own tears, and moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened.

Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going.

The ones who listened to him say, I only want to be your friend,
one day, and the next, listened to him say how much he loves and misses you.

We deserve something, and this is our tribute.
Here's to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change.

We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, caught crap from our parents, and even snuck around to see him for a while.

We went through the great stage with no fights all over again. We started this out thinking it would be just friends, and ended up falling in love with him again.

We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming. This is for us.

Here's to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days.

Here's for the tears cried and dried all over again. We wanted so
desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn't possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early.

We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us.

We learned to SETTLE for someone who didn't treat us the way we should be treated.

Here's for the ones who did their hair and make up and put on their prettiest earrings, only to hear him say that he couldn't see us today.

The ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else. We just couldn't believe that he could do this to us again.

This is for those great girls, who loved him more than words can say, and took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn't bear to look back on their lives one day and wonder "what if".

Here's to the girls who couldn't cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt. The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again.

This is for the ones who couldn't bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear of an "I told you so."

The ones that could just TELL that they had made a mistake ever allowing him into their hearts, their beds, and their dreams again.

We knew that we deserved better the entire time, that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see us whenever he got the chance, one that would really care about us. We just wanted the one that we loved like that.

Here's for the ones that FINALLY realized that he never gave a crap about them.

Here's for the time that he broke your heart again. This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, and the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment.

Here's for us girls who finally realized that we
deserve better. This is for those confusing days, when you miss him, and want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist. Stay strong, and remember that relationships are like broken glass, sometimes it's better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together and get hurt. Remember the times you cried, and how long it
took you to even be able to look at another guy like that.

When "your song" comes on the radio, turn the station. When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made and tries calling, turn your phone off. When he tries coming to your house, don't answer the door. Think of the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation and the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the crap he was. Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night, and how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn't him, and realized that once again, he hadn't called when he said he was going to.

One day, you'll find a guy who's worth all the tears, but he won't make you cry. You may think that you'll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will. It's gonna hurt like crap, and it's going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal.

This is for those girls, who fell back in love with their ex, only to
get hurt all over again.

this is to all the girls who can relate....repost this.....repost this cause its true....its deep...its from the heart

so life lately.

i realized that i will never have the slightest clue of what's going to happen. I don't know who i can trust, who i can't, who will be there to talk to tomorrow... all i know is who i do trust, and who i don't. i know the people who mean the world to me.

If i did not have these girls, i don't know what i would do. they complete me and keep me sane. i can vent to them, i can cry to them, laugh with them. as most people say,

I live for the nights I never remember

with the people I will never forget