| So the new year has brought on many new realizations:
- Boys suck. I'm not going to get married.
- Jane and Ashley are the two most beautiful people I know.
- I'm going to have a career in something I love and not something that makes me rich.
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| It's been a while.
So the hardest part about today was realizing that last night wasn't just a bad dream. I don't know what to do with myself right now and it scares me.
The truth is that I still like him. And I know he doesn't feel the same way because if he did he would have never gone through with it.
I screwed up real bad this time and I can't help but blame myself for absolutely everything. I mean it had to be my fault. I feel like an idiot for never accepting or discussing the negative things.
I realize now that, in fact, I did hate our relationship but I never hated the person I was in it with.
I guess I just need time. But holy crap, it hurts like hell.
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| I made a list of pros and cons. The cons far outweigh the pros and yet i still like him.
Hormones can be a bitch.
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| My weekend was crap. It made today harder than Mondays usually are.
And it's not just the fact that their going out. I can get over that with time. It's things so much bigger than that.
I hate myself so much right now.
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| Lesson of the day: For-sale signs are really hard to put up when the ground is frozen. At least it's official! |
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