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Tuesday, January 15, 2008

  • I'm a cynic

    Look at the Cultural Revolution, the time of communism and idolism. In order to resolve the social inequality, minimize the waste, everyone is “equal”; no “class”. What should be produced and how many should be produced were all told by the government. It’s a Utopia and all because of one leader – Chairman Mao. Everyone adores him, he’s a living God. What he says MUST be true, what oppose him MUST be wrong. His presence saves ALL people from misery. Reading what he writes is equivalent to reading a Bible.

     

    The first time I was told what happened in my own country (after entering university), I was STUNNED, literally. How could this thing happen? It’s like people don’t have their OWN thought, they are incapable of judging what’s right and what’s wrong.

     

    They are pathetic.

     

     

    Look at this capitalist city. No mood to argue the social inequality or class or stuff like that. People seems happier when comparing with the counterparts in Cultural Revolution, people sell and buy things according to their wishes and the money in hands of course.

     

    Funny thing is when you get to know their aesthetic judgment. Things are good and beautiful because the advertisement, the marketing, all those branding skills where people pour SHITLOAD of money. They are INCAPABLE of judging things; the aesthetic standard is ALL DEFINED by others. Think this is pathetic? How about this, “Feel it! This > $2,000 scarf is really very warm!!”

     

    Not only the aesthetic judgment is defined by others, even the PHYSICAL feeling is DEFINED by others, it’s like EVEN the sensory receptors underneath the skin are INCAPABLE of feeling things, not to mention the brain is actually involved in this process.

     

    Is there any adjective out there stronger than “pathetic”?

     

    And I DO want someone to convince me all of the above is crap.

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

  • Free Burma

    Free Burma!

    I heard this event from a friend Lok Yan. If you haven't heard about this yet, you need to jump on board. Tomorrow bloggers around the world will be uniting in support of the people of Myanmar as they rise up to oppose the militant dictatorship currently in control of the government in their country. Go to http://Free-Burma.org and register to be a part of the day.

Saturday, September 29, 2007

  • Currently Listening
    Graduation
    By Kanye West
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    Re: Cries from Myanmar's darkness

    I feel strongly on the artcle titled as "Cries from Myanmar's darkness" written by Mr. Kevin Rafferty published in today's SCMP, he successfully made me to write an opinion letter first time ever in my life.

     

    Cries from Myanmar's darkness

Friday, September 28, 2007

  • Currently Listening
    My December
    By Kelly Clarkson
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    My BIG decision

    I was just too lazy to write in xanga the past month.

    I thought things through, I've made up my mind and this is my decision - I'm gonna stay in school for one more semester; audit the classes I'm interested in, instead of finding a real job. Yes, I know this is a VERY strange decision. I'm a geek. What can I say?

    The one who is the most oppose to this decision is my mom. The reason is simple, one should find a job after graduate (especially after grad. school) and the ONLY reason that one would think of keep staying in the school is he/she is so used to study in school that they are afraid of finding a job, starting a new life, avoiding the reality, fear of the unpredictable future.

    No matter how much time I spent to talk to her, she's still not yet fully convinced. At last I gave up, I just moved back to UST and keep enjoying my last semester school life. And I'm glad that my dad understand me and keep supporting me psychologically and financially.

    This is what MUST happen when you and your parents hold completely 2 different values. I'm not saying my mom is a bitch, in fact she's a caring mom (though maybe over-caring would be more appropriate). But we are just seeing things in completely 2 different angles. These are some examples:

    1 ) She wants me to work in those stable jobs with stable income; such as civil servant, teacher etc and I prefer working in those not-that-stable jobs with fluctuate income; such as journalist, NGOs, freelance writer etc.
    2) She likes the Communist Party (in China) and hate the Democratic Party (in Hong Kong) and I simply hold 2 totally opposite views.
    3) She thinks girl shouldn't study "too much", otherwise it's very difficult to find a husband or even a boyfriend. and then I think "FUXK!!!" Girl should DEFINITELY study as much as we can and precisely because we are female, it's our responsibility to learn as much as we can!
    4) She would switch to other TV channels when some people are sitting together; discussing or debating political issues and I would stick to the TV and listen very attentively of how they are discussing, and I particularly like finding faults in their arguments and think "what an idiot! (and yes I'm damn proud of myself having the ability of doing this)"

    I wasn't exactly the rebellious type (against my mom) when I was younger (like in high school), I guess the university life really did change me enormously on how I see the world, especially after studying grad school in social science, and I do think this is a very positive change. I do also notice I changed a bit more dramatic than many of my fellow classmates, but anyway... I'm really glad that I'm living my life just exactly what I want. About my mom... I think she just needs more time to accept the fact that her daughter has chosen a path different from lots others and I REALLY hope she can be proud of me someday even I'm not doing what she now considered as "good".

    p.s. I guess ppl wonder why I chose to be an audit "student" for 1 semester. well.... besides that I'm a geek, also I do think I've not learnt enough yet. yeah I know there is no "enough" in learning any knowledge and I can still learn outside the school. But I think university is a very good place to be intellectually stimulated and also, some of the courses that I'm taking I simply have no idea on how to start if there is no guidance - the Chinese Philosophy classes (basically all the text is written in ancient Chinese). Last but not least, I like engaging in meaningful debate which I believe it won't happen this intensive outside the university.

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

  • Currently Listening
    A Girl Like Me
    By Rihanna
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    My laptop is resting in heaven now.

    BAD news, TRAGIC news!

     

    After reading the title, I guess you guys know what happened. My T40 passed away at 9:45pm yesterday night. And I’m still mourning him, missing him, thinking about him…

     

    He’s one of the greatest guys I’ve ever met. We knew each other in the 1st week of my university life. I remember I was REALLY excited the first day I see him coz he’s my very first laptop in my entire life and I know he will always be with me no matter what. He was my best company ever since. When I was being tortured by all the school’s assignments, lab reports, presentation powerpoints, papers, mid-terms, finals etc, he was always, ALWAYS with me even I was burning mid-night oil endlessly! When I was watching some of the greatest movies alone or with friends, he was always there too! I was laughing out loud, or stealthily weeping, or widening my mouth yawning… Man, he must be the only one who knows my movie taste that well! He knows exactly the kind of story/scene I’m impressed to and the kind of story/scene I feel bored at. And of course he must also know my music taste like no others when I repeat listening the songs like a thousands time. When I was writing blogs to organize my thoughts or to vent all my emotions, he always stuck to me. He knows all my secrets; the things or people I love or hate or loathe… AND he NEVER complaint to me when I need him to awake 7-24, he doesn’t blame me a little bit!

     

    But last night when I was drinking my tequila mixed with lemon blackcurrant juice, he suddenly grabbed my mug and poured it into stomach. Apparently, he died in 5 seconds, diagnosed as over drinking alcohol. Why the hell did you want to do that honey?! Are you angry with me or already feel bored with me or you feel really sad lately that you no longer want to live in this world? Seriously, how can you do this to me when I love you this much? Are you happy now of leaving me here all by myself huh?!

     

    Today morning after I woke up, I immediately turned to my chair as daily routine, not yet recalled your death last night. Next moment, I was feeling literally hollow, empty, lonely… and then stand up and started wandering aimlessly… Oh man, how am I supposed to live without you?

     

    Rest in peace, my darling! And don’t worry, even I’m going to have another new darling to take over your job, it doesn’t mean my love to you will diminish a tiny bit. You will ALWAYS weight enormously in my heart.

     

     

    Back to reality. Seriously, to all you guys who are using laptop, you should buy a keyboard RIGHT NOW instead of keep using the keyboard embedded in the laptop, unless you want the possibility of repeating my own tragedy on yourself.

     

    p.s. WHY the HELL you didn’t warn me at the moment you knew I use laptop? ARGH!!! I HATE YOU TIMOTHY!!! If you are not the one who are going to harvest my T40 see whether there is anything that can be recovered, YOU ARE SO DEAD!!!!!

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