| Hi, I'm in Mission Viejo, CA. It's nice. I went to Hollywood today. It was nice. I saw many stars on the ground. They were nice. I'm bored of being nice so I will now say goodbye for a few hours, maybe days, maybe months. Who knows... |
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| The Teaching of Disillusionment- Oswald Chambers (My Utmost for His Highest)"Jesus did not commit Himself to them... For He knew what was in man" (John 2:24-25)
Disillusionment means having no more misconceptions, false impressions, and false judgments in life; it means being free from these deceptions. However, though no longer deceived, our experience of disillusionment may actually leave us cynical and overly critical in our judgment of others. But the disillusionment that comes from God brings us to the point where we see people as they really are, yet without any cynicism or any stinging and bitter criticism. Many of the things in life that inflict the greatest injury, grief, or pain, stem from the fact that we suffer from illusions. We are not true to one another as facts, seeing each other as we really are; we are only true to our misconceived ideas of one another. According to our thinking, everything is either delightful and good, or it is evil, malicious, and cowardly.
Refusing to be disillusioned is the cause of much of the suffering of human life. And this is how that suffering happens--if we love someone, but do not love God, we demand total perfection and righteousness from that person, and when we do not get it we become cruel and vindictive; yet we demanding of a human being something which he or she cannot possibly give. There is only one Being who can completely satisfy to the absolute depth of the hurting human heart, and that is the Lord Jesus Christ. Our Lord is so obviously uncompromising with regard to every human relationship because He knows that every relationship that is not based on faithfulness to Himself will end in disaster. Our Lord trusted no one, and never placed His faith in people, yet He was never suspicious or bitter. Our Lord's confidence in God, and in what God's grace could do for anyone, was so perfect that He never despaired, never giving up hope for any person. If our trust is placed in human beings, we will end up despairing of everyone. |
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| Well, I'm back in the swing of things, or at least trying to convince myself that I am. This last week consisted of financial registration, my first couple days of classes, and late nights eating pizza and watching movies. Yes, college definitely has started again. I feel pretty good about most of my classes. I'm very much looking forward to my philosophy class. Most of my other classes are just gen. ed. stuff, but I figure I might as well get as much of that out of the way as possible. I'm still looking for a job around. It makes it all a little difficult when you only have a afternoons or weekends to work and no car... C'est la vie. But it's all good. It is nice to slowly get back into a routine again. I must admit I saw 7:30am for the first time the other morning in several months! It would have been an exciting experience if I was coherent enough to appreciate it. Anyways I need to go do a little more research on Plato's Apology.... |
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| Hey just to let everyone know my email hasn't been working. So I'm not ignoring your emails, just trying to get the settings sorted out. Will update more later... |
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