Hey guys just wanted to let you know I got a new xanga but I still check this one so use either one the other one is.....

Cryn_alone

Guys I'm not doing so good at ALL well you all know the guy that I've been talking about??? Well I dont get it I'm sooo confused and hurt!!! I just want someone to STOP lieing they say everything right but yet it hurts cuz I know its NOT true!!!! I can't believe it!!! I thought he could have been the one but yet he treats every girl the same. I'm done I tried to pull my self away so he would push him self closer but yet he doesnt seem to realize what his missing. I guess I'm back to being lonely and depressed!!! Crying myself to sleep, I can tell already tonights not gonna be good. Just when I thought my life was getting better it goes straight to hell, its not even about him its the fact I thought I finaly had someone that cared but nope just a false alram. Problems with my parents agian, and OMG I really just can't say much more then....... WHY ME FUCK!!!!   

Don't let me lie to you this is how I realy feel.....

I hope you realize I'm not sooo PERFECT as I seem All I ask for is someone to love me!!!! Loves hard and hurts like hell but it hurts worse with no one there!!!

Hey what up everyone??? not shit here just chillin by myself!!! Talking to my best friend in the making (Samm) LOL!!! I am sooo tired!!! JOE and Alexis are back together!!! *YES* I'm happy for him!!! He really likes her and I really hope they work out his time!!! I'm sick of rumors!!! o well!!!! I know there not true but yea I've been in this sweet and caring mood lately!!!! I gotta work wed. and thurs. So I gotta change into my nurseing out*fit on those days lol, But yea I desided I'm not gonna wrestle I'm just gonna sit back and watch I love watching they get sooo violent LOL its great but yea, I've been working out I'm sooo proud of my self lol I'm gettign rid of that chub hahahaha oh and then when I get how I wanna be I'm gonna start tanning and then I'm gonna die my hair back to its natural hair color!!! I'm gonna be lookin hott!!! LOL but yea Comment me!!! I miss you TONKA buddies!!!

WHY???? God!!!!! Mylife..... Is so hard but yet so easy to get hurt!!!! My life is full of tears and pain yet NO one to help me through it!!!! PLEASE god help my life change I'm begging you I help people every day I wake up sooo.... why can't I be helped as well??? These tears fall and dry, as my heart is stolen and broken!!! As that one special person walks in I can't have him, As he walks out soon I must walk to!!! I dont know where I'll walk to but it sure in the hell isnt here!!!! Guys you have no clue how bad my life is through EVERYTHING!!!

Signed with lotx of tears and pain!!!