so it's been ages since i've updated this thing.  hmmm...sku jus started last week...yes we start very very very late compared to everyone else.  i have come to the realization that this year is going to be a complete bitch...biology, organic chemistry, and sociology...reading up the asshole.  oh well, it's a necessity to get to where i wanna go.  i miss home...but being back in seattle with my roomies and all my UW buddies is nice.  jc, mags, jno, and brent all turned 20 within the last week and a half!  one year away from being legal!  congrats guys!  mags and jno...so sorry i couldn't catch ya while u guys were in...hope u guys got my messages!  i finally made my flight reservations to go to LA this thanksgiving...so frickin excited...can't wait to see everyone...hopefully some things will get worked out and things will be all g.  living in an apartment is such a nice change from the damn dungeon cells in haggett hall...never returning!  other than that...things have pretty much settled down and life has returned back to the usual in seattle.  until the next entry...everyone take care, kick some @$$ in sku, and party hard!

Thoughts:  It's time to stop dwelling in the past...it's time to drop things, forgive, and finally move on to the great times awaiting us

jus got done with two midterms...one rite after the other on the same day!  been studying all week and i'm so ready to go out and jus not worry about sku this weekend!  i swear the profs do it on purpose...jus to make students stress out about it!  anyways...past weekend was fun...friday went to jared's room and played video games til 3 in the morning...yes we're dorks! saturday went to dance practice for 4 hours (what else is new?), went shopping with jj and jared, saw kill bill 2...pretty damn good!  except for when the bitch at the window wouldn't let me buy an extra ticket for drew and april b/c i'm not 21 but jj who was rite next to me could...WTF!  to make matters worse...she ripped me off and i didn't get a $7 student rate so i had to pay $9!!!!  RAGE!!! sunday went to dinner at tony roma's for erin's bday...happy 21st bday!!!  now u can go and get drunk legally!  hmmm...rest of the week can be summed up by the word...STUDIED...sucked ass but at least it's over.  k well...over this past week i realized a few things...i was looking at old pics from home and i realized how much of a shitty friend i've been...haven't really taken any time to call my girlies up jus to say hi and see how they're doing.  to all my gurls...i'm soooo sorry from the bottom of my heart...guess some of the conflicts going on made me jus shut myself off from everyone jus to avoid more shit from happening...but now i realize how unfair that was.  i'm sorry again and i miss u all...i miss all the great times we had at home...all the laughs and nites of jus cruisin and doing stupid stuff...i can't wait to get home and see y'all again.  hope u can forgive me and i'm definitely gonna make up for  lost time and my stupid actions...take care everyone...and get home safely!

Maridith

PS...being able to drop things and forgive someone is hard...i'm the type of person who views a person hurting their friend yet not being able to deal with the consequences as almost unforgiveable...but is it worth giving up a life-long friendship?  i guess the saying "time heals all wounds is true"...as much as i've been hurt in the past i realize now that i think i should make the effort to let it go...it's jus gonna take time...please be patient b/c i am trying...  

things i've learned at college...

the true meaning of friendship and who my true friends are

that reputations and dramas from highsku are jus that...from highsku and all in the past

keeping an open mind....whether it be about sku, people, clubs, etc. is always a good idea, most of the time it allows you to experience things u don't expect

part of growing up means that u start getting ur priorities straight, realizing that life isn't all about fun and games, and sadly, realizing that sometimes other people jus haven't grown up yet because they're still so caught up with all the petty things that they think are important

the true meaning of independence...i'm a big girl now...i can take care of things by myself without always having to depend on mommy or daddy

sometimes it's better to have a smaller group of friends that u know will always be true and can trust with anything instead of spreading urself thin

no matter what u do, there will always be those out there who disagree with u or have nasty things to say...being able to ignore it and not let it bother you means that ur the bigger person

jus because someone is older than u does not give them the right to push u around or do whatever they want...u have the right to stand up for urself

everyone has things they're good at and not so good at...it's what makes us unique...learn to accept their weaknesses and admire their strengths

love is unconditional...it gets u through the most extreme ups and downs of life...it can withstand the hardship of being apart for months, accidentally losing touch, or even the anger that is caused by disagreements...love is the main reason why i've remained so close to those that i hold dear....my family and friends...i luv u guys!!!  take care and see u soon!!!!