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Saturday, June 10, 2006

Sat, 10 Jun 2006 23:55:01 GMT

I dont get on here much anymore but yeah I check it sometimes! I am just working these days. No life prety much Oh well...

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Tue, 06 Dec 2005 17:33:06 GMT

you are the answer to every prayed i've offered. you are

a song, a dream, a whisper, and i dont know how i

could have lived without you for as long as i have

...i love you...

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Tue, 22 Nov 2005 09:45:47 GMT

Please always stay by my side. be forever mine and i will be

forever yours. as i am crying with everything in me now, i

realize that i am crying with my whole heart. because it is

you who is the holder of it. you who will always be. so as i

cry these tears of udder and complete sorrow, it is of a loss. a

loss of my heart...for you have taken it with you at this

moment you left...

Friday, November 04, 2005

Fri, 04 Nov 2005 02:51:26 GMT

READ THIS!

I beg you...to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Do not search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them, and the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now, pehaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer... (Rainer Maria Rilke)

I love it, i love it, i love it it is very insightful and makes you think. see ya'll***

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 22:30:06 GMT

so...this stupid cat will not stop meowing for no reason and i am going to kill it...not really. i just threw it felt goff the table becase it is not supposed to be on there anyways. i slept for like 13 hours last night! yeah buddy it felt good. i am getting tired again though...but at least i did not wake up tired! that is good, that is good...so...i am going to do homework...and go to sleep i guess because i have nothing else to do. OH!!! and i am going to read my bible.i have not done that very much lately. i miss it! alrighty adios***

Sunday, October 30, 2005

Sun, 30 Oct 2005 15:36:41 GMT

yey i am going to church in a little bit. man i really just wish oklahoma and wichita were closer...then i could still go to church here. i accidentaly woke up an hour earlier than i needed to because i forgot about the time change then this morning kalen said something about it and i turned my phone off then on and it was like update time? i was like dangit!!! i wish it just would have changed at midnight like most normal phones usually do. gosh. well see ya'll***

Thursday, October 27, 2005

Thu, 27 Oct 2005 06:19:23 GMT

i am so dang tired. i do not know why i do not know why i do not just go to sleep...wow that is wierd i just wrote that twice...i am tired ya'll...so...i am going to sleep because i ahve to get up for my classes in like 4 hours then i have work till like 10!!! but then i get to sleep in...yep i am pretty excited about that***

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 15:48:14 GMT

so...i miss wichita. i really want to move back. i just love my family so much and miss being with them! just how they are is so great...like no other. i might be able to get a puppy also if i move back!!! exciting news. but yeah i just have to wait till end of semester. well it was so nice to see ya'll! you have no idea...seriously. all of you. even one's that i do not even know to well well see ya'll soon hopefully. i am in the computer lab on campus and my next class is in 15 minutes and i am going to try to catch up with israel so i bes go! buh bye ya'll***

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 00:31:15 GMT

WOW! so on saturday, my sister was in town,then jeremy came in town as well. but bethany, my sis, jeremy and i went to this conference that was going on here in okc. we got to worship with hillsong and joyce myers was there as well as hillsongs pastor brian houstan! it was all just so awesome! i really loved it and i am so lucky that i got to go! oh my gosh it was great. just...wow.

well but then after that amazing experience we met up with sarah and stuff and we just had a really good night. sarah was in town with some of her family for a volleyball game actually at bethany's college. so us girls stayed the night in bethany;s dorm and jeremy stayed with nick selenke and his grandparents house in okc and we all went to church in the morning which was of course great. i just had a really good weekend!

i have not got to see israel in like 3 days soon though...very soon...tomorrow actually! but hten i am going to wichita (!) so i will not see him in a little while! he wants to drive me up to wichita...but i need my car...i think. so we will see.

i am so excited about coming though!!! whoop whoop! tomorrow! yeah yeah. well see ya'll soon. ash needs her computer...adios***

Thursday, October 13, 2005

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 14:08:40 GMT

i am an idiot! gosh i am so stupid. i hate my actions sometimes. i can just like...not think sometimes. i did something so unlike me. i hate it. i really wish i could just go somewhere where no one knows me and just exist. so that i do not hurt anyone or do anything wrong. i hurt someone real bad because i was just being stupid and scared and gay!!! i feel so bad and i hate that there is nothing i can do about it. i really need to go back in time and gain some common sense and grow some balls and not be so f-ing stupid!!! gosh!!!