Hey ppl

I have a new site cuz i'm sick of this one..and idk i just don't like it! so if ya wanna check out my new site it's:

      http://www.xanga.com/one_more_sad_song_x3

so i 'spose i'll go..outie!

X3-Markita

**(8)it's too late to have faith in anything..i'm s~l~i~pping...away**(8)

today:

well it kinda just sucked ass, and it seemed to for a lot of ppl.

I was lied to soo much, im stuck in the middle of two friends who are fighting and about to hurt eachother! My heart is broken..f**king was shredded into a bajillion pieces and then just thrown around by whoever! Sorry ppl if i was being a really big B*otch but i just didn't feel like talking to anyone and i just wanted to go home + i'm sick and that's just no fun at all! so yea...

I don't know what else to complain about so i'll just stop wasting your time!

</3-Markita

**I said by now i'd forget your memories and everything you meant to me.  But the memories just won't fade away.**

hey ppl..i snuck on the 'puter cuz me 'rents aren't home

solitude sucks..i have read like 3 books and they are all like 400 pages long..can you detect the slight bit of boredom coming from just that!?!

wow..it gives you a lot of time to think as well.  I've thought about this year..and i wish i could start it all over again, i've really screwed up on a lot of things..and i've lost sight of anything and everything that is important..not only the well being of others but also my well being as well.  I've really screwed up a lot of things in my life..and i just don't understand how i could have let that happen. I'll just say i'm really sad about a lot of things..i don't know about depressed..a lot of ppl seem to think so though..but i guess im not really ready to admit that yet..if this makes any sense i just feel as if i admit that then i am defeated..and it all would seem to have overcome me instead of the other way around..wow im really pouring my heart onto you ppl tonight..sorry i guess i don't know what else to do and i have to let it out somewhere..i just don't feel as if i can talk to anybody lately. plus i can't use the phone til monday. but when i talk to ppl their problems always seem to be greater and i therefore feel stupid. you know what i need to choose to no longer dwell on sad memories and events and really try to turn things around..i feel like i'm talking to myself..well sorry. gabe i really miss you! i didn't cheat on you and no i never lied to you. did you forget the time you cheated on me gabriel...i never got mad at you, yet a hug isn't acceptable. i don't understand why you would believe clarissa over me..i just don't get it..im sorry i wish you would talk to me. but you don't want to i guess..that's understandable i suppose!well you prolly won't read this.oh well. hm..well enough pouring out my heart and soul for the night! i'll be talkin to yaz later..and comment if you feel like making my day! lol..bye

</3-Markita

**wow i just read that over..imma purdy selfish bitch..oh well..don't comment if ya don't wanna..i guess i don't need your pity as much as i may selfishly want it**

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oh and Gabe..just thinking about what happened...im sorry i've purdy much f**ked up your life..i didn't mean to..i honestly had good intentions..and i wouldn't blame you for never talking to me again..i'm so selfish sometimes..im sorry..i played with your heart and this last time when you and i actually meant something..well it was too late..i'll be seeing you..but know that i'll alwayz love you forever no matter what happens between us! i hope you can get passed this..i know i am trying!

</3-Markita

hey ppl

going to the mall today..can't wait cuz i gots money to spend

hmm...really bored right now

and angry..lol..but i must be out..i have to go bye

i shall write more later if there's time!

comment if you love me..but nonnaya do so oh well..laterz

</3-M.M.S-</3

fuck this man...

went to a movie w/e steph, liz, and gabe...

movie sucked..ppl's feelings got hurt like they always seem to do

so confused/lost right at the moment..and i can't let go...........

poo on the world..i dislike it at the moment

</3-Markita