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| Another Saturday Well, I figure no one is going to read this since I never really write in this, but I need a place to put my thoughts. What place is better than the internet? I've been doing a lot of thinking lately (which as usual I really enjoy) and I am so glad that I have been given so much by God. I have been calling myself a Christian for a while now. Long enough where you'd think I'd have a perfect relationship with HIM and would have myself figured out by now. Alas, however, this is not the case. And in my dreams and in the steps that I take I still wonder if my life is going where my Lord would not have me go. I've made many choices. Choices that have determined where I am sitting right at this very moment. It seems so easy to blame and focus on the people that are right around me for where I am but I must take responsibility for my actions. I am a sinner. I am SAVED by GRACE. That is the most beautiful thing in the world to me. All my wants, dreams, and desires are still there. And my sins are still here too. So many of the actions I have made in this life have been because of fear. So many of them have also been because of Love. That Love is really my God.
And yet I sin again...I guess it's time for m&ms and some more thought...and prayer
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| Workin and rollinHAPPY BIRTHDAY BRITTA!!!!
A statement about Britta: she is pure genius, a total sweetheart with a naughty side, very funny, and is quite possibly the best roommate in the entire world.
This week has been very busy and very stressful. I am tired and probably won't have rest in a long time. Goodnight!
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| ChillaxingI am so content with life right now. On Thurs. I went out dancing with 3 of my favorite Uswing guys and on the car ride there we shared testimonies. It was such a nice reminder to myself of how really blessed and changed my life is because of Christ. It's like sometimes I get so wrapped up in the way I think things should be that I forget it doesn't matter. What really matters is God and the souls of people.
John 6:40 For my Father's will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in him shall have eternal life, and I will raise him up at the last day."
I've been doing a lot less running around lately and it has been so nice. I'm also getting really bad with procrastination. AHHHH lab reports and tests! A friend of mine and I decided we are both going to drop out of school and move into a trailor. It'll be in the country and we'll have snakes, a llama, lots of kids, and goats. I'll go on welfare and maybe we'll buy a rusted old Ford F150. I don't know if it will really happen though...we'll need a trailor...a girl can dream can't she?! hehe
Oh and I signed up for Big Break today. YAY
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| Monday, Monday...so good to me!You know today was actually a very nice day. But somewhere in between my African Cinema midterm and seeing boobie tassels in the olympics, something set me off. So here is my rant for the evening. Do please take it with a light heart for I in no way mean to offend. But with my best friend off in Spain there is little room for venting (who called me today by the way...woot!) so here I go... I'm really sick of liberals writing into the papers, pointing out little things that conservatives do, and then acting like they're so smart for it. LIBERALS AND CONSERVATIVES BOTH DO THE SAME IDIOTIC THINGS!! So what if there is conservative propaganda out there, liberals have a corner on almost every media outlet! So what if you think that Intelligent design isn't scientific, it's not like we haven't heard the same arguement over and over and over again. I'm not saying I'm against liberals or what they think (because I do have many issues where I take a more liberal stance) but it's the whole process of the thing. People get soooo focused into only believing exactly what they think or have been told that they don't open their eyes to their own ideological faults! I know I am a perpretrator of these very things and I'm working on it believe me but honestly people, give peace a chance! Also, I'm really sick of having guy friends who underneath it all always seem like they want to date me. It's like they're my friends but always have to sneak in that one look or comment that just says.."i want more." (if you are a guy friend of mine and you are reading this it doesn't for certain mean you) If you are going to be my friend, be my friend. But enough of this fake I don't know what your intentions are BS. I'm also sick of people getting in relationships and ditching all their friends. I understand that being in a dating relationship takes a certian amount of time and effort but HONESTLY take some time for the other people in your life who love and care about you. I miss my friends from back home and how we all used to really "get" each other. It's like we all climbed up different mountains and now aren't on the same level anymore. Or really that Brad and I climbed up Christ's mountain and everyone else stayed on secular mountain. I'm tired of following in line and doing things because I'm supposed to. I want adventure. I want travel, taste life, experience culture, have fun, and to feel the wind on my face! I'm tired of all the opposition in this world and the power that Satan has in it. I want to see my friends and family know the joy that lies in the forgiveness and grace that is in Jesus' hands and that is more beautiful and amazing than any words could describe. I miss my mom and her hugs. And hearing the words "I love you" everyday. A friend of mine told me yesterday that I break all the rules. Well I'm tired of that being a bad thing and I want to be happy just being me. I think this world needs more grass and more pretty. I'm tired of people being mean. WHY ARE SO MANY PEOPLE SO MEAN?! Praise God for His strength and patience I tell ya! If it weren't for Him I know I wouldn't make it through most of my day and all the collisions with down bringers. I'm saddened by divisions in the Church. It breaks my heart when God's people don't find a way to get along and I wish so badly that we could be better at reaching out and lifting up our fellow brothers and sisters. I know I could use of that by the body! I love it when you really love (agape love) someone and you can't really explain why but it just breaks your heart to see them in pain. And as for the moments when I don't like someone and I don't know why...well God gives us challenges! Romance-comedy movies make me sick. I've seen way too many of them and they always just leave me wanting a guy. Which has subsequently caused me to realize that I need to stop living my life trying to meet the perfect guy and just start living it. People walk in and out of life all the time. I might as well learn to be true to God and true to myself. I'm also sick of a lot of other things but those might arise in later entries. Overall, I'm enjoying learning more about this life and the one to come. Goodnight!
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| Down with the SicknessWell, I've pretty much been sick and in bed for the last 3 days now and I'm starting to get fidgety. My new voice is quite funny in my opinion. My roomie and I have formulated several plans to put the voice into use, which include but are not limited to: world domination, freaking out her ex, and becoming the super hero team Incubus ho and Emphysema girl! I left the room last night and went to the Campus Crusade meeting. Wow, that was a good talk! They spoke about sex (which really ended up being about broken hearts) and God REALLY opened my eyes to a lot of things I had not dealt with yet. I've also made a tally (in my boredom) of the all efforts put into defeating this cold. Here goes: since Wednesday I've drank 11 liters of water, 7 cups of tea, missed 8 hours of work, had 44 hours of sleep, watched 4 movies, consumed 24 cough drops, and talked to my mom twice. Life is beautiful!
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