bad new!

my net is cut off....I am in skwl right now....so yea

I dont know when I will be back...so uh

tty l8s

I'm sorry if I dont return comments....

"And then I wake up and you and I were never in love"

[no pic]

today I feel blah

I dont want to be here....I want to be inside my dreams....inside the world of elvish kind, hobbit, great wizards and dragons....I want to be there...not to rule but to live....cast me away....bring me closer to it

todays recap
skwl-sucked
home-sucked!

Intake-
B-none
L-none
D-a little pasta

*edit*

I am proud of myself....I didnt eat much today...though I still feel fat b/c I ate alot of cake...

Outake
10mins-abs
10mins-cardio
10mins-hips and thighs
10mins-buns and thighs

~~~

The Silent Fast
Hours-168
Rules- No food!
Allowed- WATER
Required- 60mins of exercise every10hours

The Silent Fast means you:
*Do not think about food
*Do not think about being thin
*Do not notice it

Starts- 4/8/08 7:00am
Ends- 4/15/08 7:00am

"Difficult enough to feel a little bit Disappointed, passed over."

Today I feel Disappointed...

Last night all I ate was ramen and rally's[a fast food place] I hate it!

This morning my bro was cooking bacon and eggs[at 5am] I dont know why so early...but he has his friend over....so maybe that is why...but anyway....it smelled so good...and I wanted some...but I stayed in my room...listening to music....I think I did well....I think I am doing better

I want to move back...so I am going to ask my mom if I can...if it will hurt her if I leave....I think it will...she needs me now....more than ever....but it hurts so much to be here....I hate myself here....but she is my mother and she gave up her life for me so I guess 3 more yrs wont be that bad....but than why does it hurt so much....I dont know...I dont care either....[thats a lie]

I want to be a writer...thats all I ever wanted to do...but I dont think I will be able to...I cant write anything good...I never could....I just suck...

I am depressed but I dont want to get better because when I am happy I eat...

I dont want to be....

"you're right I get it It all makes sense your the perfect person"

[no picture]

I'm way too lazy to get one...

I want to go home....more than anything I want my stay at this place to be over.....

I think I am too fat...and I seem to always be hungry....how do I past the time?

Outake!
1hr-abs
1hr-hips and thighs
1hr-buns and thighs
1hr-Cardio

I am happy...I have been trying harder....yay!

"Left breathless, with good posture,"

Today I feel hopeful

my sleeping patrren is fucked so I'm going to stay up all day...so I can sleep at night again....

I hate that my vacation is almost over....I hate how I spent most of my time thinking about how I have no time....

I keep looking outside....out the window...its raining and everything is wet....right now I dont want to be dry...when a thought scares me I look outside...and its no longer a problem....but once I look back....once I focus on life again...it hurts too much....

I think I'm confused

I miss her....more than ever right now....right at this moment....at this very second!

Skwlrocks (7:49:37 AM): i love you

she made me so happy......I was so mad at her for nothing and now I am so happy....just because....if I think about it any more I think I'll cry....I want to cry.....I cant stop smiling!....

Intake-
b-eggs, cheese, summer sausage, bread
l-none
d-eggs, cheese. summer sausage, bread
s-four chips ahoy chunky cookies w/ milk

Outake-
10mins-abs
10mins-cardio
10mins- hips and thighs
10mins- buns and thighs

*all my outake was from this program from tv...its pretty kool

I went to sleep...sorry but I was tired....I ate too much so I am going to do that program thingy again!

~Think Thin!~