The End... (depending on my decision)
ive bin dealing wit shit for the last couple ov monthz... an i can honestly say... ive had enough... thatz it... im wont stand for anymore. ive alwayz bin the person eveyone comez to for their problemz... wellz im the one wit the probz now ok! fuck... ive bin taking in too much... an letting it build. i cant say wat im gonna do in the next few hours. therez even a chance i may not be on this physical groundz tomorrow... if i dont get my shit together. i duno wat path i will choose... but... wat ever it iz... jus know itz my choice to make.... an itz gonna take a whole lot to change my mind. i dont wanna sound stupid an say sumting serious that ill regret in the future... so ill jus say this now... Im tired ov putting aside my wants and feelingz jus to pleaze other peepo. for yearz.... ive put aside my wantz to make my parentz happy... or sum other peepo... but no more will this happen... it endz now... no matter how i end it... believe me... it will end tonight.....
i really cant say wat will happen.... but i just wanna thanx everyone for everything.. ok... i appreciate it a lot... even those ov u i only met on xanga... thanx for the propz... ill being seeing yah....
special thanx to...
Arlene: thanx for everyting.. u know wat im going through.. u pretty much bin their ur self. if anyting happenz (not saying it will)... dont be sad kay...
Reanne: i know u think sucide iz stupid... so yah dont worry i wont do dat... but i wont make any promisez to that either... my emotions like a rollercoaster... so yah.. thanx again for the support... ur a great fren...
Kathy: dont worry about me k... lol... i dont want anyone to worry already. chancez are that i wont do anyting stupid... ive jus realized a lot ov thingz tonight... ok...
Grace: i hope ur ok... i hope thingz are getting better ... i hope to talk to u laterz.. cuz ur great to talk to. thanx for everyting... ur soo funny. lol. im glad i got to know u... really... like if i never talked to u... i wudda had a completely different out look on u. i learned that ur incredibly sweet person... wit an amazing heart... who knowz how to have fun. i now consider u a good fren.... u deserve the best... so i wish u luck wit everyting... ok. i hope we get to crooz laterz...
~*.:To everyone:.*~
im not saying this is the last entry ill ever write... cuz i duno watz going on right now.. ok... so dont think that im leaving ... but dont depend on me staying either... cuz i wont make promisez to no one...
im really jus venting... sorry.... | 
