12:50pm

I've been too lazy to write lately.  Anyway, this weekend was great.

Friday - took Michael (from Guam) to Cheesecake Factory for a farewell dinner with me, Shane, Eryk, Kai, Derrick, Myko and Michael's friend David.  Afterwards went to Chiko's and then to Angles & Fusion.

On Saturday and Sunday, I choreographed and performed a piece with two other dancers, Chrissy and Valen, at my church's weekend services. It was a great experience.  It wasn't a hip hop song that I normally choreograph to but I used hip hop to tell the story of the song.  I hope I got the message across through the moves.  There's a peace that I feel when performing onstage especially when you're doing it for the Lord and not for your own glory. 

Behind the scenes, I met new people and other Christians which was very refreshing.  The vibe at church is such a positive one and I am so grateful to be part of an "ohana". 

Thank you God for giving me this opportunity to use your gift of dance in a way that glorifies you.  Pastor Mark's message about "Surviving Criticism" hit home with me and I pray that I will take your word and apply in my own personal life.

12:31pm

I went drinking/clubbing this past weekend more than I ever did in the past 6 months I think.  I went out Friday night, Saturday night, and Sunday night.  I need to control myself because I'm becoming a bit reckless lately.  Perhaps going clubbing and drinking once in awhile for me is cool..but every weekend?  I mean its fun and all..but I cannot let myself get addicted to it.  I've realized that I've been using it to deal with certain things that have happened recently just so I can get my mind off of it.  It works..temporarily...but at a cost of drunkenness and reckless behavior.

Lord God...please forgive me for what I've been doing lately.  I know that it is only through you where I will able to be freed from my strongholds.  I ask for your continued grace and mercy as I need to constantly pick myself up and continue to walk with you.

"It is by free grace that I am saved through faith.  And this is not of myself, but it is the gift of God." (Eph. 2:8)

9:00am

HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY!

Studio 808's dance concert "Segments" is finally over.  I cannot express how much joy I feel from all the hard work put in by everyone involved - students, parents, and teachers.  It is just truly amazing how people can come together and put so much heart into their love of dance.   I have never seen such commitment, discipline, dedication, and hard work put out by the everyone at Studio 808.  Congratulations on a job well done.  I LOVE YOU GUYS!

On a personal note...I need to remember this scripture to help me through this transition period I'm going through in my personal life:

"When you pass throught the waters, I will be with you; through the rivers, they will not overflow you.  When you walk through the fire, you will not be scorched, now will the flame burn you.  For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel....(Is. 40:29-31)

6:22pm

After 2 years and 8 months...I am single again .  Depending on how you look at it...it can be a negative thing or a positive thing.  I had hoped that it wouldn't have turned out this way but I guess things happen for a reason.  I take full responsibility for the things I didn't do in the relationship and also for the things that I did do.  I thank God for providing me this relationship to learn more about myself, more about others, more about love, more about the world, and more about God.  Without this relationship, even with the bad times, I don't think I would be where I am now.

Shane, you're one in a million.  I don't think I would ever find someone like you.  You have taught me so much in this relationship.  I love you with all my heart and I hope that we can still be the best of friends as we are now.  Just remember that as much as I'd want to always be there for you as a friend, God loves you and will ALWAYS be there for you as he has always been there for me.

I would write more, but I'm getting all emo and I need to get ready for work.  But anyway, Lord God, although I may be taking this break up in stride there will be many opportune moments in the future for the devil to knock me down like he did in the past.  Lord, help me win this everlasting spiritual battle of mine.  Thank you God for everything you have done for me. 

10:42pm

I'm late with this entry but oh well...this past weekend I went to Maui for my brother's wedding.  I left Oahu on Friday at about 12:30pm.  When I arrived on Maui..I had to go straight to Lahaina for the wedding rehearsal at 2pm since I was an usher.  My parents had a mess up with the rental car so I ended up being an hour late..I didn't miss much since they started late anyway.

At the rehearsal, I realized I've never been to a catholic wedding before.  I never knew they had all these different "rituals"..but it was all good...besides the mad heat..i was sweating up a storm.

The next day, Saturday, I went to go pick up my tuxedo and had breakfast with the parents.  Later on...I went around Kahului area to the mall and stuff.  Saturday night, I attended a wedding of a childhood friend Josie. I got to reunite with people I haven't seen in ages.  It's weird to see them all grown up and with families and stuff.  It was great though.

Sunday morning..i went to 6:30am church service at King's Cathedral and then headed to the Westin Maui Hotel to get ready for the wedding at 1pm.  It was the first time i ever wore a tux...i loved the look of it.  The wedding went great..I got kinda emo at the church haha.  After that was the sunset wedding reception at the Westin Maui at 5pm.  Again...family/relative reunion...it was great to see family and relatives I haven't seen since high school. Food was good...I had a lot of fun and I thank God for every minute of it.

The next morning I had to leave Maui at 6:30am to get to work at 8am in Honolulu.  I wish I could have stayed longer..but its all good.

Congratulations to my brother Erwin and his wife Ethel!  I love you guys!