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Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Tue, 18 Dec 2007 02:18:41 GMT

Ok so... heres how i'ma do this for now on
5 comments = 10 pictures and 10 quotes
10 comments = 15 pictures and 15 quotes
15 comments = 20 pictures and 20 quotes
And so on....
so.... ready? set? Go!

Like an apple on a tree
Hiding out behind the leaves
I was difficult to reach
But you picked me
Like a shell upon a beach
Just another pretty piece
I was difficult to see
But you picked me ♥

Lately i've been thinking
so strongly about the clouds,
and how they seem to slowly fade away.
maybe someday we will find a way to disappear
just me and you on silver lining dreams.
how could i survive without your love,
and the hope you bring?
even when the sky is falling down,
i know i have you,
and thats all i need.♥

Heart beats slowing, pains are growing
but does he love you? thats worth knowing♥

Hold on if you feel like letting go
hold on cause it gets better then you know...♥

I'm hanging on another day
Just to see what, you will throw my way
And I'm hanging on, to the words you say
You said that I will, will be okay
The broken light on the freeway
Left me here alone
I may have lost my way now
But I haven't forgotten my way home♥

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating
In the pain
There is healing
In your name
I find meaning
So I'm holding on ♥

I never thought it was real
the 'love' they always talked about
the feeling i get now when you look into my eyes
lets me know this is going to be the best thing that has ever happen in my life ♥

Every step i take,
every move i make
every single day
every time i pray
ill be missing you.
thinking of the day
when you went away
what a life to take
what a bond to brake
i'll be missing you...
(would somebody tell me why?)
On that moring
when this life is over
i know, i'll see, your face♥

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A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay
I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes ♥

Who the hell can see forever? ♥

Please, remember me, happily,
by the rosebush laughing,
with bruises on my chin, the time when,
we counted every black car passing
your house, beneath the hill, and up until
someone caught us in the kitchen,
with maps, a mountain range, a piggy bank
a vision too removed to mention ♥

It didn't matter to her
wether it was rain or shine
'what ever happends happends'
she believed her whole life
and yeah.... she's still happy ♥

isn't it funny... how something so beautiful
gives us hope ♥

And I hate myself for falling in this far
Every minute wanna be where you are
Put my fist through through the wall cause its so damn clear
Im holding on cause its so hard to let go
Drivin by your house staring at your window
When you close your blinds if you look down here
Youll see the loser of the year ♥

It's been a year
Filled with problems
But now you're here
Almost as if to solve them
And I can't live in a world without you now
This is the best thing that could be happening ♥

You kinda worry your self when you know you have no reason at all to keep living....♥

And when everyone els has let you down
turn to music ♥

I've dug up miles and miles of sand
Searching for something I can't see
And I've just got bruised and battered hands
And a brand new void inside of me
Complete with walls I did create
From all the earth that I've displaced
A mess that I have made from what
I've just let pile and pile up
I have not been abandoned, no I have not been
Deserted and I have not been forgotten ♥

I need you.
I need you here.
I need you now.
I need security somehow.
I need you.
Like you would not believe.
You're the only thing I want.
Cause you're everything I need.♥

After a while of feeling the same hurt
i kinda started wondering why there is such a thing as pain
and knowing we all feel it in one way or another
i thought what if one person stepped up and took all the pain from
everyone in the world.
and how we wouldn't cry or feel hurt anymore...

...But then i thought of one of those stupid movies
we always die to see
where you scream at the TV, and hit the chair when she walks into the
room where she shouldn't be.
and how if she didn't do so
there wouldn't be a story.
So maybe the pain and hurt and failure and so on... we feel maybe theres a reason for it..
like, without it there wouldn't be a story and we wouldn't learn from it... but hey, i could be wrong... again...

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Tue, 13 Nov 2007 19:03:46 GMT

With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything.♥

For the life of me I cannot remember
what made us think that we were wise
and we'd never compromise.♥

I am reaching my hand out to yours
Take this chance
And I'll show you love is true
In my heart
I know you're the one
And together there’s nothing that we can't do.
We will sail in this moment forever
For tonite
Is meant for me and you
And no one can touch us here ever
For destiny I know now is true.♥

Love is like the wind....
you cant see it... but you know it's there.♥

I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul,
I hold on to this moment you know.
Cause I'd bleed my heart out to show, that I won't let go.♥

Is anybody really satisfied with who they really are?
you could be the moon and still be jealous of the stars.♥

The only thing that makes me and you different...
is when you fall you stay on the ground.
But I know theres nothing els to do but get back up and fight.♥

So maybe you could walk with me a while
And maybe I could rest beneath your smile
Everybody stumbles sometimes and needs a hand to hold.
Plus... it's a long trip alone.♥

And the only thing i cant understand right now
is that i'm nothing and yet you want me...
why?♥

But why is that i seem to be so strong to everyone els
and i feel so weak inside...
why is that when i wanna end it all here tonight
the sky changes my mind?♥

You ever met someone that made you feel like your on top of the world?
Your whole life you've been below, but with him your above all.♥

I find it kinda funny how you think your going to break me again
It kinda makes me smile knowing I'll never let you.♥

I don't understand why... but when I'm with you
all the pain goes away.♥

She asked me why I let all the little things get to me...
she said she could be wrong but wouldn't it be smart to just
smile when it hurts.♥

I dont want this moment to ever end
where everything's nothing without you.♥

....Maybe it's suppose to hurt this much.♥

And You'll find better love
strong as it ever was
deep as the river runs
warm as the morning sun
please remember me.♥

And i thought to my self
maybe it is time to move on
maybe it is time to be strong
and just forget you ever called me yours
but then i Imagined how different my world would be
and just so you know i didn't like what i saw.
I refuse to let you go.♥

And this will be the first time in a week
That I'll talk to you
And I can't speak
It's been three whole days since I've had sleep
Because I dream of his lips on your cheek
And I got the point that I should leave you alone
But we both know that I'm not that strong
And I miss the lips that made me fly.♥

Cause jersey just got colder and
i'll have you know i'm scared to death
that everything that you had said to me was just
a lie until you left
now i'm hoping just a little bit stronger
hold me up just a little bit longer
i'll be fine, i swear
i'm just gone beyond repair.♥

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Saturday, November 10, 2007

Sat, 10 Nov 2007 14:29:27 GMT

The lost of words
The light that fades
The darkness we see in every face
The evil we predict in a broken mans heart
The sadness we see in a girl that had no start
The tears we look at then the fear we let make us walk away
The hurt we see in a man on the street
The nights we spend asking God for a better place to stay
The screams we ear that leads us to ignore His whisper
"Its the fear you let block the change"♥

I think that's what's wrong with the world: no one says what they feel.
They always hold it inside. They're sad, but they don't cry.
They're happy, but they don't dance or sing.
They're angry, but they don't scream.
Because if they do, they feel ashamed.
And that's the worst feeling in the world.
So everyone walks with their heads down.
And no one sees how beautiful the sky is.♥

dont cry like before,
i'm here to stay, i'm gone no more
take my hand, and free we will be.
dont let go and forever we will see.♥

And the hardest part of living
Is just taking breaths to stay

she saw the line
she saw how thin it was
she feared the fall down
she wanted to turn around
she saw her old life
she felt the need to go back
she heard a soft voice in the wind
she smiled and took a step
right there her life began ♥

Once upon a time
There was a princess in distress
She took a knife to her wrist
And real hard, she pressed
It did her little harm
it was the perfect remedy
it freed her from her pain
and stopped her insanity
So she did it one more time
Just one more time she swore
So that things could feel okay
The way they did before
But one more was one too many
One more would be her last
She ran for help, she cried for life
The blood was dripping fast
Then God came down from heaven
And quietly but stern he said
I will heal you just this once
Cause you should not be dead
From that day she tried her best
To fight temptations with the knife
She tried her best, to enjoy
This stupid game called life
And as weeks then months went by
She forgot why she was sad
But still she couldn't help herself
From always feeling bad
She was losing every battle
Of the war inside her heart
Standing up but falling down
And getting torn apart
but she gained a lot from battles
Even times she never won
Because it made her stronger
let her happiness begun ♥

So stand on the edge with me,
hold back your fear and see
nothing's real until it's gone.♥

So hear this please
And watch as your heart speeds up endlessly
And look for the stars as the sun goes down
Each breath that you take has a thunderous sound
Everything, everything's magic ♥

She said that she wanted to shoot herself in the face;
he gave her a water gun,
put her finger on the trigger,
aimed it at her face,
& helped her pull the trigger.
She said that she wanted to cut herself;
he took a Polaroid of her,
handed it to her along with scissors,
& had her cut it up.
She said that she wanted to see her blood;
he took her to get her ears pierced.
She said that she wanted to cry herself to sleep;
he had her watch a sad,
romantic movie before bed.
She said that she wanted to be alone;
he gave her a name tag that said,
"My Name Is: Alone."
She said that she wanted to have someone there to take care of her, always;
he asked when he wasn't.♥

Watch your thoughts; they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; they become habits.
Watch your habits; they become character.
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.♥

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.♥

I do it from time to time
Where I can never wake from a bad dream
From time to time
I do it from time to time
Where I can never say the things I mean
From time to time
I do this from time to time
Where I like to watch you as you sleep
From time to time
I do this from time to time
Where I like to think of you and me.♥

she was alone, she was afraid,
she didn't stand still, she hid behind everything.
her heart was broken, her tears had no end.
thank god she found him....♥

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Don`t let the sadness of your past
& the fear of your future ruin the
happiness of your present.♥

I believe the sun should never set upon an argument.
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands.
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you.
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do.
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem.
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone.♥

'love' was just a word
until he came and made it mean so much more ♥

maybe i'm a little bit over my head,
i come undone at the things he says.♥

.... well, you know how men are.
they think "no" means "yes"
and "get lost" means "take me, i'm yours."♥

life's funny sometimes, but it's an amazing thing.
things change. people change. but somewhere
along the line, you learn to deal with it.
bad things happen, you get hurt. your heart
gets broken. you lose the people closest to you.
and people you love might turn their backs on you.
you realize what true friends really are.
you finally learn to actually live life to its fullest.
just because something bad happened,
you realized how much everyone takes life for granted.
but for now, we're gonna stay young.
and live life like we're never gonna see it again.
believe in ourselves and everyone around us.
we're always gonna look for the better things.
remember, things happen. whether they're bad, good,
exciting or breath taking. don't regret anything.
because at one point it was exactly what you wanted.
just live it up, because there's no time for regrets♥

dont ever forget that
i have freakin feelings to♥

does it help to say that i'm sorry?
if so, than i'm sorry that you're so unhappy.♥

i love you,
but i'm letting go.♥

Just Give Love To All ♥

Without you I'll be miserable at best.♥

Hope for the best... let go of the rest.....♥

And faster than you can follow me from this lonely place.
And farther than you can find me, I'm leaving
Yeah I'm leaving today.
And I, I'll never let you find me.
I'm leaving you behind with the past
No, I won't look back.
And I don't want to hear your reasons.
Don't want to hear you tell me why I should stay.
And try, and try to understand me
And try to understand what I say when I say I can't stay
I, I'm moving on from this place
I'm leaving and I won't quit running away..♥

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