so it been awhile....

I thought about you at all.  Xanga that is!  I almost didnt come back but everyone deserves a second or well we'll just say a bunch of chances...Right?

Love the city of Chicago.  I went there for a while and got offered a job and thought seriously about staying and getting my things sent up there but I came back for one last look at this, at all of this before I truly say goodbye. 

Life is so funny but God you are amazing.  I wish everyone knew that and would live by that. 

I wish apon a star for you.  I hope it all comes true.  One day face to face may happen. Confront, hold on to it and dont ever let go or youll think about it everyday as you do now.

Currently Listening Transatlanticism By Death Cab for Cutie see related

so i have a lot to say so here it is:

I love when people say so many reasons of why they wouldnt go back in a situation but then they attempt to. 

I made a list today of the first time about some part of my life and it actually was beautiful and made me one step closer to healing.  You would appreciate it if you ever wanted to hear it.

I cant believe that you can be so compassionate to someone and they shit on you.

When did we stop listening to the Man and listening only to ourselves?  When did we get so selfish to push him out of our lives and start doing anything we wanted.  Did I miss that memo because Im pretty sure he is the one we will have to answer to.

Your first time with someone will never be easy to break away.

Do people who have lied, do they ever stop? or do they ever change where you could trust them?

Do you say goodbye to someone that will have footsteps in your heart forever or do you leave and never look back?

Last: I think everyone will be blessed or will get what they deserve.  We stay with others of our same kind even if we try and help the lost its not possible. Guiding lights are all around i hope everyone finds theirs.

....Dont assume you know because you dont.  These are just thoughts and only i know the true meaning of every word.

My door has shut once again. Well it might still be a little cracked but thats just for me to know.

Life is an interesting journey that you walk down.  There are those people who you know will always be there along the way and there are only those few that were once there but need to astray for awhile until they are ready to rejoin down the path.  Maybe certain ones will never come back though.

My five card studs and I have an amazing day planned.  I am excited about it because their is no one else Id rather be with.

Boys a heads up... do not try to impress a girl by getting drunk, making a semi-date, then being clingy, then getting mad when I dont want to talk to you. 

Words that are written on this dont hurt me or angry me.  I know that our levels of life are different and others might be the same thats why you would navigate to that.  Do not let yourself be fooled because the future is closer than you think.

Please RESPECT me at all times.  I at least deserve that.

My countdown will start till goodbye is all you will hear.

AJ'S superstore...we hold it down for the city of monroe

If you want to go to Bonaroo this summer, let the girls know. There is a group of us buying tickets tomorrow morning.

Currently Listening First Impressions of Earth By The Strokes see related

Watching people amazes me once again.  How sad is it to throw yourself on someone?  Is that really how the world works, is that what you have to do to get by in life?

Waiting on a letter to let you know how the next years of your life will go is so stomach knot action! If you have a few extra fingers to cross, do cross them for me.

Removing a picture doesnt remove the feeling.

My time is now, I wish you were ready to come along for the ride.