Blogging and Comments

My dear fellow bloggers out there.

I am a new blogger in this blogging world. My understanding about blogging is that one can write and express themselves about anything without worrying what others might say about what is written (I mean being judged in my writing skills or my level of English).

Blogging is like a virtual diary that allows one person to write down whatever it is that they feel (right?). My thinking is that my thoughts might not mean much but if it could touch another person or start them thinking about things, I would have reached out and touched another person's.

Very recently, I received a note in my guestbook commenting that I need to grow up and take up English lessons (to improve my grammer and probably writing skills). I am somewhat insulted. Not only have I been asked to grow up but to comment on my command of English?!! Ouch! That's brutal.

On top of that, my topic of blogging is boring. I'm sorry but if you find my topic of blogging boring... stop reading it. It is an option. It's not like I twisted your arm to click on my blogs to read it? Simple philosophy, you don't like it, don't do it.

I appreciate comments but instead of telling me things like that, tell me how to improve on it. Or if you have a thought about it, tell me! I'd love to hear another perspective of things. Not just write and tell me that I can't write! This is not a writing competition!!! Geez, I have reality to deal with. I don't need to really pay attention to my grammer when I'm writing my thoughts to the world, do I?

Geez, if I am writing my thoughts online (hell I could just pen down my thoughts in shorthand) but would that make a difference? Then I'm just writing for me!

All I am saying is that this is my blog page. If you think you can provide me with a different point of view, bring it on! I'd love to hear from you. I appreciate constructive feedback and criticism. NOT bantering about my style of writing or my command of English.

Some of you might understand where I am coming from... some of you might not. I ramble, I banter, I do a lot of things but just take anything with a pinch of salt.

Thank you for listening

Questions and Decisions...

In life, we should remain positive right? About everything and anything (because it can't get any worse right?) What happens when it does? What happen when something goes wrong, and it continously go even worse... What's the point of seeing the glass half full when it's actually half empty?

What about destiny? Is destiny in our own hands or is it predestined? Many says it's predestined but what is our destiny? We don't know. Or if we want to know, do we really want to know?

What about religion? Beliefs? Our way of lives? I've been questioned about my faith... I've been questioned about my lifestlye... my decisions, everything. Why is it that everyone in the world like to question other people's action? What happened to supporting it (ok fair enough, if you think that the action is a dead end, and dangerous and u know, all bad things...) and standing by your friends and their decisions (I mean, I don't mean being suicidal and other stupid things la)

What I've written above, please note that I'm not accepting stupidity (of ending lives, hurting people, ... u know the drill) What I am saying, we make certain decisions in our lives. We say things (sometimes unknowingly) when we're angry, when we're stupid, when we're hurt. It depends on whatever situation we are in. Sometimes, we even do stupid things but I believe everything has a lesson to it.

We have to learn through life's lesson and what we learn from it and how we intepret what we learn will make us different?

I know for a fact that no one's perfect. I know for a fact that there is good in everybody. I know for a fact that we are all capable of love, and care. I know for a fact that we are human. But what I don't know, I don't know...

I don't know if I make sense of what I've written.. I don't know if someone will read this and make them think. All I hope is that by some chance or other, I want to reach out and touch someone, someone who will somehow, feel and understand what I'm trying to say... "somewhere out there..."

Am feeling blue

I had this sudden overwhelming feeling of being lost. I get like this sometimes. It's just loneliness getting to me (it's a passing feeling that will go away). It's hard to capture my thoughts when I get this way. It's like it's raining inside of me. There is this dark cloud that wouldn't go away.

Everybody has issues. Who doesn't? I know I do... I'm still dealing with them. Some I've dealt with. Some I haven't. Sometimes, looking back within one year and I feel that I've grown up a lot. It's scary because I'm writing down such deep thoughts about myself for the world to read.

This feeling will pass and when it does I will be ok. Oh, what an end from a lovely day...

Tell you more next week (when I'm more perked up)...

I'm back on my road

I've fallen down and it hurts so much
with fears of looking up again
I felt like dying in the pits of hell
and let the dark dark earth devour me
I see the light though it seem so far
so out of reach, too far to touch
but time does heal and it takes time
for pain so good to heal so fast
Somehow deep inside I believe in hope
that in wrong there is always good
so, no matter how many times I've fallen down
I have no choice but to pick me up
and pray and hope for blessings above
that God may have plans for me that is really good.
After all that's said and done
I yearn to see the rising sun
I think of all of what I've seen; I've done
One never gets what she wants
but I'll drink my coffees and smoke my lights
and enjoy of what I can make of my life.

© Michelle Goh 2007

Happy Porkie Friday

Today was good. In fact it was great! (but then today haven't ended) Ok at least so far so good...

I woke up early... and decided to make myself feel good. So what did I do? I got dressed up. YAY!  So tak malu, right?

OK.. I've decided that today will be a good day even if it kills me.

Amanda, Cyn and I decided to take a drive today to eat yummy pork noodles in SS3. It's my first time there but from what I heard, it usually takes an hour to get your noodles. Well, God must be shining a light on us (besides us getting there early) because not only did we get a nice cool place to sit down, but I got a good shady place to park Jingga.

After two unsuccessful attempt to eat here (both times, the cook decided not to be open - so mental note, we will never go there on a Wednesday or Thursday).

Anyways, Cyn ordered our food and got us extra yummy porkie lard (to enhance the taste and sweetness)... The food came and oh... it was so yummy. The soup was sooooo sweet... and it is tasty... so tasty, we're going back there next week (hehe...) I have to say, porkie based soup taste so much better than chicken based ones... my heart goes out to those who don't eat pork... you have no idea what you're missing... but then again, I might just be a bit bias.

Ok, so after lunch, Amanda had to do some banking stuff so Cyn was in the car with me... she decided (in that short time frame) to make me up (because she lives in a house with boys and cat's don't wear make up)... sigh.... so I had to play barbie doll... (not that I'm much of a barbie doll)... she put powder on my face and lip gloss (oh sorry... tinted lip gloss...)

 <-- I thought this picture was really appropriate as it depicted a stuffed me with make up (hah!)

Geez... I am so unwomanly... apparently, we (women) need to put foundation, cleanse, tone and moisturize... so many things to do just to look good. I know it's hard work (to me but not to all)... but I guess it's worth it, no? Good news Cyn... kudos because I received compliments after compliments after your make uping.... <grin>

Well, and then Cyn decides to chase me around the office to 'touch up' my lips... geez.. it's makeup it will dissappear...Haha... u missed! muack!