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Megaman272002
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Country: United States
Gender: Male
Interests: hmm....girls, games, video games, anime,
sex(although i havent had any),talking on
the phone with girls, football, basketball,
manga, art, drawing, porn...cant go on(collapses)
Expertise: drawing(sort of), playing video games,
streaking(why)
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
Member Since:
6/5/2004
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| Give UpIt appears as if I had won battles but I have lost the war. To a good man. It happens comes and goes. Although, I have a tingly feeling inside not the first time I've had this feeling though. It feels relieving to have this feeling but I'm not satisfied. I look over and I see the enjoyment which means that she is better off that way. Me and giving up always happens. Actually I don't give up I'm just not the better man. It happens to the best of us. Looks so comfortable deep down inside theres a yurning well it happens and ya I'm giving up again for a while. I would like to thank my friends for helping me realizing this and ya better off. ^_^
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| Reaching limitsHave I truly reached my limit in mentality or was it just because I didn't feel like doing the damn assignment in class. I don't know whats going on up in my head but its weird. I feel like I'm become stupider every day. I have no clue no I feel like I always need assistance from others. I hate the fact of asking others for assistance. I don't know how I feel right now. Sorta feel like just bashing my head in and ending it there, but then again, as I was driving home I never really made a standard for myself. I never really set a goal I just went with what I felt without caring what was going to happen. This fantasy that I feel like I'm living it doesn't really help. Maybe I should just get another job and help out, maybe I should just smack myself around and just say don't quit. Quiting is my last hope for everything but it seems like it comes so fast at times. When other people understand something more than I can I become really envious. Maybe I should have taken those full scholarships to those other schools and then apply what I wanted to do with them later. All I really wanted was that I would succeed in life and pass down my story of those damn characters that I always draw. I decided to have the specific major that I choose to actually see those things come to life. I really have no clue now...all I know is that I shouldn't give up. Another thing that haunts me is about my Dad. I always see my friends and their united parents together and I envy that as well. I don't know whats going to happen to me in the future because I'm always saved by another. If I were to be on my own I would probable amount to nothing at all. Who really knows. I appreciate my friends who are always by my side even with the distance that we have of not seeing each other all the time like we used to. I'll conclude this and just say I'm really appreciative of what I have now and accept what fate has in store for me.
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| Another day another girlI hate the fact that people tend to do stupid things just to rid themselves of something or someone when in the end because they did something so idiotic that they think about it even more. I try to avoid but eh I keep running into that person and it sucks cause I remember all the stupid crap I've done. Maybe its a test or a way that god is laughing at me. But the big man is great cause he gives so many directions to go that everyone becomes confused and questions life. The world is a wonderful place to be in. | | |
| So every one hows it going...hopefully good. Everything progressing well with me and soon i will be successfull with what i strive for....later then!!!! | | |
| So yeah had my chance last night/this morning but i didnt take it...sigh.... | | |
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